Am I fucked?
Two years ago my first real love said it wouldn't work. We dated for 3 years. She broke up saying I drank too much. She thought I couldn't enjoy her pressence without alcohol. She was the first woman I ever told I loved her. I dated other women before, but just liked them instead of love them.
I never really stopped drinking, just paced myself a little. Though even after two years I randomly start crying over her. I have no idea how to move on, and am a dating wreck. To a point where I consider even the most gorgeous women fuck ugly. I even lost some really good friends. Because after the break up I lost my job and just stayed in bed for days. I know there are people in the world with bigger problems. But this break up has wrecked me hardcore and I want out, but I can't. How fucked am I?
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stop drinking retard
>>17470166
I think straight edge is scary. I don't drink as much as I did and merely pace myself. Also, nice advice man.
>>17470166
This
>>17470172
>it's scary
>so I won't do it
Man up. You've admitted in the OP that drinking is doing you absolutely no good, and if two years later you're still baying for someone who probably doesn't even remember you then you're lacking testicular fortitude.
You're not the protagonist of an 18th century Romantic novel, your self-inflicted torment is pointless. Stop drinking. Move on.