Dealing with a personal failure.

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Basically I need to do great. I need to be on point all the time. I have always prided myself in making sound decisions and sticking with them. I get it sometimes you have to cut your loses and accept something less. Recently I fucked up and didn't go after my dream job. I was stupid...I was nearing the end of the process and then 1 more interview then I would be trained. I decided to opt out to look for another job (within the same field). Basically I did this for me..I had only considered that initial job and I thought to myself "what if they don't call even though I came so far " " I'm capable of anything...why have I limited myself". Even though the decision seems sound...I feel like I have fucked up my life. Oddly enough I am still perusing things quite actively...but I still have this feeling that I need to erase myself because its too late for me to be the successful person I could have been.