Searching for a reason to live

>>17437436
What is it to be human?

>>17437436
Without spewing out a wall of text first, what exactly is your background? Do you exercise? Are you academically inclined? How do you use your spare time?

>>17437436
it's probably not as simple as that but reading the right philosophers might be what you're looking for. can't really recommend the one and all go to solution - also bc some stuff is hard to get into without prior readings. but maybe have a read of heideggers being and time. or check out nietzsche ( start with his autobiography ecce homo).

in general, it doesn't even have to be philosophy. at the end of the day, if you don't follow any exterior religion, you have to find your own answer to what constitutes a happy life. also other thoughtful literature can help with that. maybe you'd want to give hesse's steppenwolf a try.

>>17437436
You're the one who gives live purpose.

>>17437509
uneducated. 25. have a steady job. work manual labor. Use my spare time watching movies, drinking, and wishing i had the motivation to distract myself. no friends. former drug addict. family life is strained. no gf for many years. diagnosed with MDD, formerly a PTSD patient, hospitalized multiple times for suicide attempts. Have read neitzsche's anti-christ. idk what else you want

>>17437509
Come on man, lay the wall of text on me.

Btw, I'm not interested in these lengthy, poorly written stories that encapsulate the main points. Like, I get it, it'll illuminate the ideas that're being portrayed, but that takes too long, and too much effort. Sorry, I don't like reading boring stories with weak logic and a moral teaching I'm not seeking anyway. Zen and the art of etc was weak as fuck man. Neitzsche had some good stuff, logical stuff, but it made me really depressed.

WHY should I be a contributing member to a society that has cast me out in my greatest time of need? Why should I work to better myself when I'll die someday, and nothingness will pervade all? Why do anything other than make myself feel better while I'm here, regardless of what it may cost to others, should everything be impermanent?