I just crew things uo the her.

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Here is where the tides turn around. I came with this stupid "plan", I started to use this kind of social engineering on her to like that guy. And told her "if you wanna marry me you should have more experience, go have a couple of serious relationships, then you will be the perfect girl, we will be back together and now forever, but if you decide not to come back with me and stay with another man, I will take that risk". At that moment she took the idea "I'm not perfect for you, and I wanna be perfect for you, I will think about it". One week later (last days of june) she dumped me out of nowhere with shity excuses like my behavior, but at the end she told me she likes that guy and wanted to try something with him.

The sudden break up shocked me, I had no idea what to do. I think I didn't even acepted that fact. But she stoped talking to me. Deleted me on facebook. The next week she was posting photos of his new boyfriend and how happy she is now. All this shit crushed me in a way I never felt before. My ego was destroyed. I was fuckin alone. And I couldn't get how can she be happy with a guy who she just met, we were together for more than 7 years, did she forgot me that fast? why she is not even talking to me? wtf?

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I talked to her 2 weeks later because I couldn't stand the pain of not having her by my side. A mix of feelings like dissapoinment, low self esteem, anger, jealousy, depression, all together. I cried saying how much I regret of that stupid idea, and I want us back together, nothing changed, but getting out a couple of times we eventually had sex. She's still with him and noone knows we still talk, but almost every time I see her we make love. All the bad feelins dissapeared, she made me understand that she still loves me (now more than ever) and I'm the most important man of her life. I've been being the nicest man on earth for her these days I had many mistakes on our past relationship mostly related to a lack of interest, mistakes that I don't show now, and she noticed that change on me.However for her, the "plan" is still running, she can't dump that guy as I understand because she feels a mix of gratitude and pity: the beta kissless virgin being very careful and puting a lot of effort with their relation. They recently had sex and she told me he was such a mess, that even I felt pity and wanted to be his friend lol.

Now that's how the things are now. She sometimes feels bad for cheating on him, I know it's bad too, but I like to make love with her and I know she likes it too. After that I feel kinda exciting being the "other one", her "secret lover", but when I see their photos together she seems very happy and I feel jealous as fuck that sometimes I even doubt she wants me, I have no idea how much longer I can stand like this. Now I feel I am ready to be with her no matter what.

Need advice mostly on how to stand the bad moments being the lover while waiting for this to end. Also general opinions about my stupidity, is there any way to fix this?

Fuckin typo on the title lol.

Holy fuck, that poor squirrel. You aren't going to get any men reading this thread, they will all be too busy thanking all fuck they aren't that squirrel.

I mean, jesus. That picture is like kryptonite for men. How could even stomach posting that? I'd be cringing myself into a corner, not writing a blog.

That poor fucking squirrel man.

I can not comprehend what made you think any of this is a good idea? Like, I understand you wanting to fuck other women, but the very idea of my ex gf fucking another man makes me want to vomit.

Like...You wanted you're girlfriend to experience other men and then have her compare them to you? What the fuck.

>>17421515

What man could have taken that photo? The poor squirrel was left hanging in agony when someone ran for a camera. . . Jesus

OP here lol, I had no pic, I just felt like some pain in my balls and I had this pic of the squirrel (not mine).

And just want to know how to play along with this, sometimes I feel so much jealous. And what do you think will come out of this?

>>17422154
Op, I think the real topic here is... Why do you have pain in your balls? That is not a normal thing.