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If I could choose, I'd be straight. I'd even rather be a straight pedophile than a normal gay. Its not that I hate gay people, I just wanna raise a family with a wife and have an intimate relationship with a woman. The idea of an intimate relationship with a man doesn't appeal to me at all.
So here's what has me worried.
>When I'm horny, I fap to women fine
>When I'm not its usually easier to get off to trap stuff
Surely it should be the other way around? Like if I'm really horny I can get off to trap stuff, but when I'm not I need some vanilla vaginal penetration.
>I prefer anal videos to vaginal ones
Just looks better to me, like a tighter fit. Plus I'm pretty big so going balls deep vaginal wise isn't an option. I justified it as that before without ever wondering if it was gay but now I'm not so sure.
>Since I was young I always liked having a female character in MMO Role-playing communities
(I thought there were more reasons but I'm kinda coming up blank now that I'm finally externalising all this)
And here's what has me confused.
>Never had a gay experience
Never had touchy uncles or anything like that
>I find brother, sister incest really hot.
>Relating to the last point of my worries, I usually felt strongly for the female characters I'd make.
Like waifu-tier strong feels. Woman of my dreams type stuff. Also I'd usually only have one and when I had more they all tended to be similar. The rest of my characters were always men that I admired for their strength and flaws, but not really in the way I liked my female ones(Like I'd dig the dudes as being solid protagonists to my own little stories).
>I've had a scare like this before and eventually I came to a point where I was literally CERTAIN I was straight.
I hand waved all the worries as being a result of watching too much porn.
Will hang around to answer questions.
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You sound more trans than gay to be honest
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>>17419584
I'm pretty certain I'm not.
I have day dreamed a lot about being a petite and pretty version of myself, but never enough to do more than just day dream one or two times a month.
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>>17419594
When watching porn do you self-insert as the trap or the woman getting fucked?
When you make your MMO-characters do you imagine them as your dream woman or you as the dream woman?
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>>17419597
I remember I roleplayed a sex scene on the female character and I was appreciating what -I- was writing. As in the idea of her doing the things I was depicting turned me on.
Yet at the same time there are many times where I'd make her wear thought out outfits and enjoy the compliments and attention she got.
...Its fucked up man...
As for self inserting? I always imagine myself as the dude fucking the trap/the woman.
I suppose its also worth pointing out...
>I'm very big on domming when it comes to BDSM
My female characters are -always- subs though.
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>>17419584
No he doesn't.
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>>17419609
yeah you're a repressed tranny.
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Your feelings for men are decisive here, not your feelings about women. The tell tale sign of being gay is when once you give it an honest shot, the fantasy of fucking a woman is less arousing to you than the fantasy of fucking or getting fucked by a man.
You are listing rational arguments here when you should be feeling inside what you want sexually, stripped of all noise.
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>>17419628
There's been many times where the idea of fucking a woman -has- been more arousing. This is why I'm so confused.
But yes, right now the idea of dominating a dude is more arousing than dominating a girl, even if the dude is a flabby and pathetic.
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Bisexual?
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>>17419640
Inclined to agree with >>17419641 here.
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>>17419641
>>17419645
It feels odd that it'd been in phases. I suppose if another outright hetero phase ever crops up I'll make sure to see if I feel about men then, how I feel about women now.
If I find them equal then it's probably just something to do with testosterone levels or something.
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>>17419663
Bisexuality doesn't imply 50/50 attraction. And I think it's normal to go through phases in many ways. I know I lose interest in my kinks for a while only for it to revive, and I think in a long term sex life going through rough fucking phases and lovemaking phases is normal, etc.
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>>17419668
Well I guess only time will tell then.
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