So... this is my story...
I fear that the only thing I am good at is being a stay at home dad with 1 kid on the way. My wife is about to pop out our first kid and I don't have a job. I lost my last job of 3 months in customer service because I told my manager if he ever yelled at me in front of customers on the floor again that I would quit. I know I shouldn't have done that and just quit like that but at the time I didn't see any way around it. I hate it when people decide they can just yell and cuss at me.
So... I quit that job making 7.50 an hour (not enough to even pay rent.) and I have been jobless for 2 months looking for another job. Before this I have been jobless for about a year (different issue)
I feel as if I can never find a job that will be able to pay me well enough to support my family the way I should. After all, the man in the house should be the bread winner in the family... not the wife.
With my wife coming close to giving birth, my fears are becoming more prevalent... I feel like a deadbeat... I can't hold down a job, I don't have my own car, I don't have a license to drive because I dont have the money to get one, I didn't finish highschool because Foster Care screwed that up for me when I decided to run away.. I dont have any money to get a better education like I want. I want to go to school and be a network admin for a school.
I have so many things I want to do to better my life but I dont know how... When my wife gives birth, our money will be out the window, we will loose our apartment..
I have noticed my anger escalating because I am at home all the time. I keep the apartment clean, I do everything I can at home but I just feel useless... I have contemplated killing myself numerous times. I have a list of ways I can because of my past depression episodes. My depression has gotten worse.. I just dont know what to do..
So is it possible to get another job? If so, do that.