Really feel like there is no one who cares about me. My past is basically a series of failures. I look like a fucking gorilla and im 280 pounds. In high school my personality was non existent other than the school creep. I wasn't like this in middle school where I at least garnered the attention of one female. Failed that. Work make decent money, feel like I should just put it all in a blender. Everything is meaningless. Did'nt even care to change spelling mistakes in this god forsaken post. Only discovered 4chan because it felt like a place for rejects. Defective. Borderline Suicide. Though would never do it. Care for loved ones only thing holding me back. that and narcissism. Really just feel terrible. Can't remember happiness only derive pleasure from food and masturbation. This post is meaning less Ill just keep existing anyway.
No one will care about you until you care about yourself. Get a fucking hobby and get out of the house.
>>17398758
Bruh, I mean this. Start taking care of yourself.
Like, it's a long road to recovery, I know I'm currently on it. But, oh my god it's life changing at every stepping stone.
I used to not brush my teeth, be nearing 300 pounds, never got laid, yadda yadda.
Now, I'm still trying to put the funds together to get my teeth fixed. I've been losing weight at about 10 pounds a month, I'm down to 225 right now, I also work and make a bit of decent money. And I have a girlfriend to speak of.
Just start working on it man, slowly but surely, you'll get yourself there. and, you'll blend in with society. Not be seen as an outcast, be more socially accepted by your peers, and women alike.
You'll go from being one of the unattractive office members noone wants to fuck, to one of the mildly attractive office members that can at least fuck the awkward new hire that doesn't last as long.
>>17398772
I will try this. Thanks for the thoughtful post I will remember this.
>>17398763
Ill try out piano always loved music since I was a trumpet in highschool