Girlfriend kept pushing me away then ended it

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We've been together few months she has a lot of feelings for me and even written me a love letter (pic). Always has a big smile on her face when with me. She wears my hoody a lot, I'm her first kiss, her first real boyfriend etc. Send me pics (nothing nude) but out of the shower type stuff, always hugging and kissing, telling me all the things I do that turn her on etc.

Then out of nowhere last week, she just said she's dumping me, I knew that was BS so I kept trying and she told me she has low self esteem, depression, self harms, I told her she doesn't need to do that she's my girl and I'm not going anywhere, she calmed down after a while and said sorry and she misses and loves me. She also told me she's scared of attachment and not ready for a relationship, I said okay I'll give you your space, no talking and stuff I just want her to get past this. She said thank you and that she loves me, and says she has so much going on in her head right now. The no contact didn't last long though because she spoke to me later that day. After a few days of not seeing me we walked past each other (live in small village) and she messaged me saying 'when I saw you I realised how much I miss you'

Then the following days (still haven't seen each other) she acts cold, says we can't be together because she's busy with work and how it takes up a lot of her time, I told her I know she can get busy but that doesn't mean we can't be together? She just says how I don't understand, I said this is all in her head and I know she wants to be with me and she said 'No I don't and you know I can't'. She keeps pushing me away and says she gives up and is going to sleep (she's done this a few times) so for the first time, I'm fed up and tell her whatever bye. Then she is like 'see no one wants me or needs me' I told her how can you say that when I do, and this was last night, haven't spoke since.

What do I do?