>be me >get molested as a kiddie >You have acquired:

stop watching porn

>>17394071
Isn't being raped a top fetish for women?

>>17394122
i guess? i but i think most women can get off on vanilla sex too. I cant.

>>17394071
>get molested as a kiddie
>You have acquired: Rape Fetish!
what? did you like being molested?

>>17394590
Semi-philosophical question: is it still molestation if OP liked it (in the sense of clearly stating it)?

>>17394650
Eh

There's a difference between arousal and desire. The first is physical and yes, you can aroused even if you're being raped/molested. Desire is psychological.

So, yes, I think it's still molestation.

>>17394650
pretty sure its still molestation considering i was 7 at the time.

>>17394590
i dont think so? getting touched fucks you up in all sorts of ways though. some people end up hypersexual, some with no sex drive at all. i personally get off the hardest if i recreate the scene where i was molested in some way. its weird and i wish i could cum with just vanilla sex, but i cant.

>>17394859
>>17394891
Psych major here
Molestation/rape/any sexual act at an early age has a frighteningly lasting effect on your overall sexuality throughout development, and it's not uncommon to romanticize the idea over years in order to make the experience less overwhelming.
Don't feel bad, many, many people are experiencing the same thing, there's zero reasons to feel ashamed for that

>>17394911
I'm the same as OP, I was raped as a kid but I have a fetish for it now.
However, I find it only works when it's incredibly fake and cheesy. Like "Oh no, pleeeasse don't~". If it starts to get too real, I don't like it. However, I don't need that particular fantasy to get off. I have other kinks I rely on too so it's not an issue for me like it is for OP. I reserve those fantasies for someone I'm really close with/dating as to not freak them out right away and stick to the more casual kinks for casual hook ups.
I also find rape jokes funny for the same reason you stated though, hell, rape jokes were the only reason I lived as long as I have. When I first started coming to terms with it, I flipped the script in my brain to make it laughable so I could deal with it. That's how I coped.