The fuck is wrong with my dad (rant)

>>17393538
Here's where the issue comes in. I was having some dinner with some friends last night and my dad came in to get some food from some place, not even a friend but an acquaintance somehow knew my dad (think a friend who works them told him) and they have like a 10 min conversation while he played lots of jokes.
Sounds like nothing right. Well, it's everything! 10 mins! When I stay there for a fucking whole weekend, we probably talk to each in for less than a whole 10 mins combined , and here he is spilling out details to some nobody (to him)! He doesn't do any sorts of those jokes I hear hes famed for either!
I remember when I was on vacation, I talked to him via text and during it he said he liked having the conversation with me and we should do it more often. More often? Fuck you! You had a whole 6 years to talk to me, you made fun of me and forced me into sports even though I didn't like it, got mad that I was bad and never taught me anything, even manly things, and when I did join sports you never showed up to any games, or cared to ask anything about me ! Like how I was, or what I was doing, who I was interested in, or anything about my fucking music or flute.

>>17393541
The dude pretty much expects me to be my own fucking dad cause he didn't have one. Hello, I'm 18 years old, that's not my fucking job. to know how life works and excel at it the first time with NO EXPERIENCE at all or being taught by anyone.
Not only that, he's one of the most fucking rude people you will ever speak too. Sure, when he's outside he's nice to everyone, but behind closed doors, he shows no qualms with cutting me off mid story if he deems something else is important, doesn't apologize for cutting me off, and doesn't even care to ask me to continue, NOT ONCE. It's not even enjoyable to talk to him. (1/2)
He once told me that if I don't see him as my father at least see him as my friend (something like that, I don't even remember the context). Friend? Fuck you! I don't want a fucking friend, I want a dad who gives a shit about the things I do, who at least pretends to care, and helps me make my life easier, not just some fucking monetary support. I don't give a damn about money.

I find comfort in the fact when I grow older, I will be more successful than them, both money wise and relationship wise. I'll have a wife whose a good mother to our children, never divorce, and actually give a shit about my kids's life. I do it for myself, but I also do it to show how pathetic of an excuse their "lives" are. The best form of revenge is to not imitate - Marcus Aurleius.
(3/3)

>>17393538
bump

im glad you seem to be motivating yourself to be a good father, but have you tried talking to him about your feelings?

>>17393627
More or less , and he was response was to sarcastically make fun of me if I brought up small things like clothing , shaving , sports , stuff I would imagine a dad would at least teach to his son that I wasn't there when he I learn to tie my
Shoelaces , and for big things that he's not as terrible as my mom (which is not that hard to accomplish , by the way) so that I should be "fair" to him and basically not criticize him at all, yet he holds me to an unbelievably high standard.

>>17393538
>>17393541
>>17393544
>>17394474

Have daddy issues as well.

>I find comfort in the fact when I grow older, I will be more successful than them, both money wise and relationship wise. I'll have a wife whose a good mother to our children, never divorce, and actually give a shit about my kids's life. I do it for myself, but I also do it to show how pathetic of an excuse their "lives" are. The best form of revenge is to not imitate - Marcus Aurleius.

If we do that, we remain children. Because children treat their fathers like gods, either believing them completely and doing what they ask or doing something completely opposite, rebelling. These are two sides of the same coin.

If you want to be free of your father, accept that he is just a man who lives as best as he was conditioned to be. If he is unable to express how he loves you the way you need it, you have to be a grown man and find for yourself the love you need. Elsewhere. Don't spend your life chasing him to gain his approval by either doing what he wants or trying to prove him wrong. Find your own way.

>He once told me that if I don't see him as my father at least see him as my friend (something like that, I don't even remember the context).

He's right on point, but it doesn't mean he was a good friend to you.

>>17394577
I know my post makes it seem like my father torments me , but it's really not that way . In fact, I rarely ever think about him or my mother at all if I don't have too. I try to live my life free of their ghosts of the past . It's just that when little things happen like this I remember what a fucking terrible friend he has been, because I think all the things he do would be so easy to fix . Then, the next day, I don't even think about it anymore just like today. I just keep marching forward and hope they leave me alone when I need to be left alone .