Getting Over a Messed Up Weekend

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I do have issues and demons I'm actively dealing with, but can anyone give me any advice? I still feel a bit hollow and like I'm not here. I apologize for the long green text.

>go to friend's party to chill, drink
>drink too much and act quite stupid but feel okay since I know everyone there pretty well
>friend's roomie invites this big creeper druggie dude over that I don't like
>party is dying down, I decide to kinda lean over on a couch inside since I'm getting dizzy (everyone else was outside)
>nod off, wake up to what I believe is someone trying to grab my wallet
>it's creeper dude, just touching me, not trying to steal just groping me
>sit up and he immediately backs off, "Haha just checking to see if you're still alive anon."
>start tripping over myself in a drunken blind rage to 'fight' him, following him outside and friends eventually restrain me, not knowing what happened
>I'm just slurring, accidentally hit a friend or two hard while trying to get to creeper dude
>break free, throw a plastic chair at him that he ducks, it shatters on a wall
>creeper quickly excuses himself and leaves, making me look like a bad guy, people look at me like I'm a dick
>the shit brings back bad childhood memories, I start to have a breakdown
>sitting on the porch, too embarrassed to tell people what happened, just weeping like a baby
>friends try to pull me inside and I start swatting them away, not wanting to be touched
>close friend that I trust (and knows my past abuse) lifts me up and sits me on a couch with a blanket and water
>he stays the rest of the night to watch over me since I'm paranoid
>tell close friend, friend and his roomie next morning what happened
>everybody else at the party thinks I was a drunk monster

I just feel like shit. My reaction was uncontrolled and I don't like crying in front of people. I just feel pathetic and have avoided human contact since Friday.