Externally rooted confidence

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Women zap my confidence far too easily. Men really can't, like if I guy says something hurtful to me I strive to prove them wrong or just bat it off because I know it's not true. If a guy doesn't wanna talk to me I barely get phased if I even notice it.

Girls on the other hand? It's a fucking disaster.

>Girl wants to talk to another guy instead of me
Immediate questioning of self-worth
>Girl laughs at another guy's jokes more than mine
Instantaneous melancholy
>Girl makes clear, subtly or unsubtly, she doesn't want to talk to me/finds conversation with me unpleasant
Begin rationalising that I'm just a worthless human being.

I doubt I even need to say this is unhealthy. Its not conscious. My conscious thought quickly realises how ridiculous and damaging this kind of thinking is but because it's such a hit it feels inescapable. A bad experience with a female legitimately fucks up my emotional balance for the day or, in some cases, even longer.

Needless to say if I find the girl attractive everything scales up with her attractiveness(Though oddly enough I don't really think I'm completely straight. I certainly have fapped to trap cartoons).