No idea if I'm a sex addict

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So I used to be polygamous, well not for all my relationships, but certainly I preferred it, except now I'm monogamous for the sake of such a conventional partner. But he hasn't touched me in two weeks, so in sheer desperation, I got on my knees and just cried and begged and then just curled into the fetal position. Needless to say, it didn't work. But I don't think by crazed-out brain cared for concepts like "logic" and "effectiveness". Even now, I'm quite sure I am supposed to feel ashamed and pathetic for what I've done, but how can I feel anything beyond a pinch of shame, when all possible shame is eclipsed by my continued sexual dissatisfaction?

I'm not sure if I am to be considered to be having a problem, because really, I see people here wanting it several times a day, when I don't need that, heck I don't even need that daily, every other day is ideal.

But also, as much as I fancy myself as having a heart and conscience when it comes to most things, sex is just different to me in a way that's irrational yet amazing. I will manipulate and plead and manipulate, just do anything to get what I desperately need, until now it's like a terrifying reflex. So far it worked charmingly, until of course the past few weeks, therefore the begging incident. But really, it could also be that it's my partner and ex partners' curious unwillingness to have more sex, which would then just be normal amounts of sex (to me anyway). In which case, why would I need to manipulate them at all.