What is my problem?

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Now, I am not really into self pity and shit like that but some things have started bothering me more and more.

I am fairly social person. I have enough friends, some of them very close, am ok looking, have a job, one of the better students of my generation. Generally speaking I am quite satisfied with my life. But, and that is the thing that is bothering me, it just seems that for some reason it is impossible to me to have gf. And because of that extreme feeling of loneliness and dread follows me every now and then.

Now, I did have sex with multiple women and am often described as having some alpha qualities by friends. Some of them even telling me they envy me about some of those qualities. And yet, all of them have/had girlfriends while I never came even close to anything like that. I seem not to be interested in almost everyone I meet when going out, and those that I do like are almost always ones I can't have for whatever reason.

I do have both OCD and depression ( genetics, half of my family has those) but both of those are in complete control, and are unoticable to people. In distant past those things were out of control, but since then have put my life in order, suddenly almost everything was great. I have experienced lots of stuff that I missed then, my self esteem increased significantly, and yet idea of having girlfriend just seems impossible to me.

So, my guess is I am just subconciously fucking something up but I can't figure it out. Psychiatrist wasn't much help either.

What do you think /adv/?