I´ve noticed, and others as well, that as I grow up I´m becoming more and more like my father: cranky, cynical and generally negative. Even though i´m aware of this, and do not want it, I also feel more aware of flaws in others and feel justified to act in a certain way towards them.
I can see the same thing in my friends, some even admit to inheriting traits or behaviors from their parents. I thought recognizing this as it happens would make it easier to avoid going down that path but by the time I realized/we realize it, it's already pretty ingrained and natural.
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Is there any way to beat this shit genetics? especially in this stage.
>>17381738
>genetics
People rape biology everyday, more and more with no end in sight.
This behaviour is learned, not inherited.
>feel justified
That's your problem.
OP its time to go Alex Jones on your mind and start BREAKING THE CONDITIONING
I had to change a lot about myself. I was incredibly angry and extremely physically violent with people. Not just family. It took steps for me to change. I had to acknowledge this would take years to change who I am. Small things first, like saying thanks and please. Than walking away from confrontation.
The most difficult for me was to apologize. When I apologize, I really feel it. I open up and say, hey I fucked up and it was my fault.
Changing takes a lot of time, but it can happen if you want it bad enough. I found God and through him I learned how to open up my heart for people. To help the needy and hopeless. It feels so much better than beating someone to a pulp.
Change takes little steps and leads to remarkable monuments.
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>>17381744
I don't even know when it began, I wasn't like this before. And it's funny because I always hated how he acted towards us and now I kinda see through his point of view and I can't judge him the way I used to do.
It kind of raises the question whether this is the case or maybe we also attract people into our lives that make these dormant/hidden/repressed traits surface similarly.
>>17381761
did you just stop feeling anger in time? Or are you just holding back and forcing/answering with kindness or humility?
I try to hold back or not act the way I'd feel compelled to (it's not even unconscious) but inside, I still 'feel the feels'. Becoming generally dissatisfied with everything and everyone no matter how much I try to keep it to myself or overlook annoying things that I find in others or that others do