Going to see friend-severely nervous

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I'll keep it brief

I'm a recovering recluse. I spent the best part of a year rebuilding myself from the ground up after basically having a mental breakdown at university. I'm doing much, much better now, and pretty much pass as an average person the majority of the time. I suffered severe anxiety for a long time but I'm even managing to get rid of most of it.

There's one sticking point though. I'm staying with my best friend and his girlfriend in Cardiff, about 200 miles from where I live. I'm absolutely panicking every time I think about it. The second I entertain the thought or mention it to anybody I immidiately feel the need to run to the toilet and I feel panicky.

This guy is my best friend and I met his girlfriend before. I was severely anxious at first but it went smoothly in the end. She was very receptive and kind about my anxiety.

I think I have associated my mate/his girlfriend with the severe feelings of anxiety I had the last time and I can't break them off, even sitting there and conciously reminding myself all the reasons not to be nervous.

How do I break this association? How do I stop panicking about seeing my god damn best mate and his girl and the great time that we will definitely have?