I feel like a spaz because my attention span is so short. I have a bunch of cool stuff in my head. ideas for art and music and video games. I want to make them real but I have to learn a bunch of shit to do so and just give up a few minutes in and my mind wanders somewhere else. I want to make electronic music but sound engineering is complicated beyond belief. I want to learn how to draw but my hands are stupid and I can't even draw simple shit without getting frustrated. Even talking to people fills me with anxiety and I can't help but look like a fidgeting autist when I'm not interested in a conversation. I'm constantly confused and my thoughts are always racing. What in fucks name is wrong with me?
>>17378099
It sound more like anxiety than anything else. You're so convinced you're going to screw up that you panic and screw up.
Take notes. Carry a pocket notebook around and write down EVERYTHING - something your boss tells you to do, something they tell you how to do, chores for the day, ideas you might want to think more about later. Anything you don't want to forget.
A lot of "normal" people do that, just as a safeguard against forgetting, so it won't look odd.