Lost my dream girl?

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I've known this girl for a few years. We hit it off almost instantly. We dated briefly but 2 years ago, I ended up moving back to my home country so we broke up. Despite the distance, we remained close, grew closer. We had our ups and downs but our feelings for each other still grew. We admitted our feelings to each other, we're head over heels.

However, a few months ago I met a girl and we hit it off and started dating very casually. I didn't want a serious relationship because I still had very strong feelings for my ex. My ex wasn't happy with the fact that I was seeing another girl, but she said she didn't want to stop me, and she was okay with me seeing other girls so long as I kept her informed. I said the same to her. As far as I know, she has kissed a couple guys and taken some guy's number and briefly talked to him regularly.

Me and the new girl split, and I decided that I didn't want to date any other girls because my feelings for my ex kept getting stronger. I told my ex this, she said it would be fine if I changed my mind and she wouldn't mind if I were to have quick hookups in a club or something. We decided that we wanted to be relatively open for like a year until we could visit each other and be physically intimate with each other.

Last night, I made out with some girl at a club. I told my ex right away. She lost it. She's said she's lost feelings for me, she's called me a whore, she's told me to fuck off and that we're over. I tried to apologise, I tried to explain myself. I'm totally fine with not getting with any girl in any form until I see her. She's not budging.

I told her that we should wait a few days to cool down and then have a real conversation about it without her insulting me and me being all emotional. She's yet to respond. I don't know if she will.

I love this girl. I just want her back and I don't know what to do. I need opinions and advice.