Alright guys, I need help
>be last november
>with friends at one of their houses
>we try acid for the first time
>it was amazing
>genuinely miss the way it made me feel
>fast forward to January
>meet girl and start dating
>still together to this day
>she is comepletely anti substance use
>alcohol, weed, acid, etc..
>i wanna do acid again but she will probably leave if I bring it up
Now I'm not asking how to convince her to be ok with me doing it. I'm asking, how the fuck do I get rid of the desire to do it again? It was such a stupid idea to do it in the first place but I've been missing it more and more. How do I get my mind off of it? I know I'm a fucking loser for doing it, but I have a job and a car and a apartment too now with this beautiful girl
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>>17370954
Anybody?
>>17370954
>How do I get my mind off of it?
Think about your priorities. Does she matter more or not?
>>17371069
Of course she matters more to me. The acid was without a doubt fun but she cares about me and wants me safe. I just need help getting my mind off how good it felt the night I did it. I know she hates me doing it because she cares about me. I haven't touched any sort of drug since we started dating, but it's just been slowly creeping up on me
>>17370954
Find an accountability partner. Someone you consider to be wise or to be your mentor who cares about you enough to talk with you whatever the time. Talk with them about your problem and temptation, completely honest. If your urge is ever great, then call them, regardless of what time it is, and have them both talk you out of it and distract you. Also accountability makes it more difficult for you to take it because the consequences of being honest about fucking up suck dick. Also talk with your girl about your temptation. Tell her your whole story revolving it, and that you now have an urge to take it again, an urge that you desperately want to be rid of. The truth will set you free, OP. Let her help you. She may be strongly anti-substance, but you took it in the past, and you really don't want to take it again, there will be forgiveness and understanding.