How do you deal with ruining almost any chances you had at a

You move on. It's better than loving the person above all else and then her leaving you. Everyday I struggle not to kill myself. Dont make the same mistake.

>>17351658
Don't think I'm not tempted to. That thought crossed my mind not unlike that bullet several times throughout the day.

Let it go, it doesn't matter.

By time you're 50, you're gonna have a dozen people like that.

It takes two to tango. You could have loved them for all time, but could they have loved you?

It's not about being "not good enough".
We think that because we love them they must love us, but it's not true.
It's ok for them to not see you as desirable as you see them.

It's not like puzzle pieces, where a match on one side necessitates a match on the other.

It's ok. Let it go. Find someone who wants you. It seems like a gargantuan task, but you live far far longer than you think. Let it go. Your future self will thank you about discarding someone who held you back