I'm afraid he doesn't love me

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There were many red flags that hint at his infatuation with the idea of a relationship, rather than actually liking me for my personality but I was always too afraid to ask what he likes about me in case he went silent for too long or just blurted out something shallow.

>wants to become exclusive really quick
before we actually got to know each other
>"when do we make this facebook official?"
(we met from tinder, no friends in common)
>never asked about my past
>meet only 1 or 2 times a week
(we lived 10 mins apart when he was going to college, 20 mins apart during the summer)
>didn't tell me what he's doing unless i asked
>got excited about something he would want to do together but then not carry on with it
>gave me oral maybe 3 times in 10 months

On the contrary, he is very understanding. When something bothered me and I told him about it he was willing to change even if I didn't ask him to. He also brought me to his friends' parties before and to dates, concerts, movies and wanted to pay for them. He noticed when I seemed frustrated or sad and asked what was wrong.

But because of the rarity of long, in-depth conversations - unless I initiated - (current events or thoughts on hypothetical situations, things from the past) I feel like he thinks I'm too dumb for intellectual conversation. He was always in the top few in his classes, is very driven, well-read and wrote lyrics and poems sometimes. Meanwhile English is not my first language (people can't understand my accent sometimes) and I laugh easily (out of nervousness) which I think makes me look dumb and I have/had a few childish hobbies.

I think he is only with me to be with somebody and because he is attracted to me physically and I am very giving in bed with a high sex drive. We have similar taste in music, have similar sense of humor and we bought struggled with anxiety disorders and lived in crappy boring small towns as kids with inbred classmates. BUT I don't feel as if that was enough.
>what do?