Okay, tomorrow I will get my test results that will decide if

Eat/drink something that soothes your tummy, do something to distract yourself like movies or gaming, possibly meditate

>>17322148
Just accept that you failed, especially since you already know you have fucked up. Getting your hopes high (and getting stressed) is stupid. So think about your future coming from premises that you didn't make it and get on with your life

>>17322174
My hopes are and always were at rock bottom, my philosophy was that I always expected the worst so when it was actually good I felt glad. But somehow I cant handle this time. Guess I can always become male crack whore
>>17322153
Ate only one toast at the morning, cant force anything in today. 4 times I was shitting with just stomach acid or other sorts of liquids. Tried to watch tv and read a book but I my adrenaline level is off the charts and my pulse is like 250. Tried to chill a bit smoking cigarettes but I just smoked 3 packs and feel dizzy.