Tell it to me straight

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I've talked to family and friends but fear they are not being objective enough because they don't want to hurt my feelings or some shit.
>Barely graduate high school 2014
>Have NVLD (makes school quite difficult..)
>Always have had a rough time in school not exactly autismo mode but not good in social situations constant anxiety, depression, bad grades, etc.
>Dad lives with his sister and isn't right in the head not seriously mentally ill just very off...
>Mom suffers from depression and spends all of her time working or chain smoking and browsing Facebook
>Been working off and on for the past two years still haven't really done anything
>$3 in savings
>0 college credits
>small group of friends probably sick and tired of my self loathing and depressing shit
>After a large acid trip my job seemed increasingly worthless and I just stopped showing up.
>Been a NEET for the past 4 months feel like a complete piece of shit
>Have no direction in life no guidance feel empty inside
Just copy pasted this from a feels thread I posted in it pretty much sums things up.
What is my next step I can take to not being a piece of shit I really do want to get better but things seem so pointless... Should I wait to get in to a doctor and try some new meds and or a new therapists or just go get my shitty job back now? or just take out college loans? I'm so lost...