I can't keep get her off my mind no matter what I do, this is the first time I've ever felt this way. I'm 18 years old. I can go on and on about how this is affecting my way of life. I just want to come to an understanding. I'm a pretty shy person, I've talked with her and hinted if she'd like to go out. Found out she has a boyfriend, and 5 months later I cannot stop dwelling on her. highschool is now over. I'm afraid of doing stupid shit. I work on my hobby and it temporarily works, but I always come back and dwell on her. Every morning I feel like a load of shit, just thinking of her. I quite possibly turned down a girl like a month ago that might have been interested in me by making some dumbass mistake.. I don't know what to do, I'm super depressed and this is controlling my life.
I'm also considering this...
Since she is younger than me, just by a year or two.. What if I am more attracted to people younger than me?
HOW DO I GET RID OF THIS PAIN IN MY BODY HELP!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!
>>17259058
Have you tried drugs?
That's what most of us do whether it's beer or heroin
>>17259074
stfu, there's gotta be good people on here.
>>17259074
Good people so drugs. Drugs are a spectrum. Some are nearly completely harmless while others can kill us the first time. Most humans use them to some degree in shitty situations whether it's having a few drinks with the guys, smoking a joint and listening to music, taking an adderall and being productive, or an oxy and preventing life is okay. Just saying. It may help to some degree, normie
>>17259085
Pretending*
>>17259085
Yeah but I tend to get addicted into shit. Yeah, I've been on ritalin (similar to adderal) and it controlled my life. Sure, I was more productive, but that's all I was.
If I use them as a dependent, I'll only see them as that. I have to have some reinforcement. Otherwise I wouldn't do drugs (and i've never done them before)
>>17259058
Don't do anything. Become a wizard. It is the only true way to happiness