Here is some back round Ok so yesterday some pretty hot girl

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Here is some back round
Ok so yesterday some pretty hot girl showed me her tits online and It was honestly kind of a wake up call, make me realize what a total faggot I was acting like, literally rejecting girls left and right for no dam fucking reason.
No to mention my insane Video game / 4chan/ internet addiction which I have just been starting to beat
Well I decided I would talk to my crush, and obviously when I stepped out of unicorn land I realized it will never happen because I have acted so dam Autistic for so long it just will probably never work let alone manage to talk to her without insane cringe levels of awkwardness
This also kind of put me in the girls shoes, like I just wanted some sexy time and if this girl was not giving it up there are hundred others who will and that is probably exactly what has been happening for a long time now with other girls (also kind of made me think my "crush" is probably a slut too)
O well this is a good time to look for a better "crush" and not be autistic and fuck it up with her
Problem is I am also about to go full on sperg mode with homework, need to raise F's to A's in 5 weeks again while also keeping up with work out schedule
The problem is the fact I probably will never get my crush is just a bit of a shock after living in unicorn land for so long before this girl snaped me put of it yesterday and i'm scared now that I will pretty much be doing work alone to catch up I might get a little depressed and relapse beck into video game/internet addiction and subsequently go back to being an Autist

Tl;Dr how do you work for long periods on end without any real friends or any real form of releaving stress since if I go play video games or come here again the cycle will start over and nothing will be fixed
How the fuck do I stay focused without breaking down, I want to grow up already, i'm tiered of being such and Austist