Witnessed sexual abuse of my sister as a kid

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Ok /adv/ i will try to keep this as short as possible but it's still going to be a long one

> went to psych for other reasons this story is going to be about
> psych mentions x could be of a trauma
> think nothing of it go home
> start thinking
> there has been this thought in my head i always pushed away when it came up (it started around my 18th, 22 now
> used to think nah this can't be real just a bad dream/imagination that gone to far
> start thinking harder and connecting clues
> it can't be fake shit i always fucking knew
> Memory is the babysitter and my sister in a bathroom he touches her private parts i get told to go outside or else...(note this was NOT concensual she was 5 him 18 probably. She was crying etc )
> ask my mother 'remember when x was babysitting us one time'
> after some other questions she says it's true
> she did not know that i also knew this
> she tells me sis started getting these thoughts as well around her 18th
> only my mother aunt and dad know this

My sister is the main victim here i just got caught by some shrapnel metaphorically. Still i would be fooling myself that this is not fucked up for me as well

Now my questions how do i tell my dad that i also got 'hit' by this.
Do i ever tell my close friends?
Future gf's?

I don't know if this affected me seeing my psych in 2 weeks. Right now it still feels like this is not reality our perfect family life can't be tainted by this. But it is true...