sup i need some advice be prepared this shit is long so hope

>>16986808
FRESHMAN YEAR
>things are going great at school for the most part
>imm soking weed everyday with this kid who later turns out to be a shithead but whatever
>talking to alot of kids, some would say i was "cool". i was just very social
>same shit as before confidence is really high, think i can take on anyone
>still getting the girls
>going out mad with firends getting drunk and doing stupid shit
>dicking around in class and not giving a fuck
>at home things another family crisis happens
>sister get sent to a mental instituion
>dont know what happened to her and still dont to this day
>again i am some how unphased
>forgot to mention at this point my father is working so i dont really see him going crazy all too often
>im home alone sometimes which i like can get some sleep and actually get my work done
>year ends and not to much happens

>>16986811
SOPHMORE YEAR
>16 year old me
>same shit as before getting girls getting in good with cool kids
>talking to real cute girl i know and feeling good
>she likes to hear me talk about getting fucked up and shit for some reason
>chill with childhood friend alot
>he is good, smart kid encourages me to do good in school
>dick around in shool
>about halfway thru the school year i decide to try hard in school
>this proves rather difficult with all the screaming and shit but like i said hes working so i dont hear him to often
>sister is back which is good i guess

>>16986814
JUNIOR YEAR
>things finally caught up to me
>stop talking to alot of kids going as far as to purposefully dodge them
>still put on a persona looking like everything is alright
>its not
>the constant screaming my father is doing is driving me insane
>he starts acting more irrational
> i start hearing his screams even when he is not there
>decide to just go hard as fuck in school so i can go to a goof college and everything will be alright
>endure
>spend alot of my time just doing school work and sports
>these eat up my time like crazy
>sit on my ass and play videogames on my free time
>dont talk to girls that often
>start to not give a fuck about my hygene
>skip days brushing teeth
>start getting cavities and teeth are yellowing
>start losing my hair at 17
> confidence is lowering
>cant really carry conversations with people
>fuck what happened to me man
>school is wrapping up but shit at least i pulled in some good grades

>>16986816
SENIOR YEAR
>decide to force it in school
>talk all honor and AP level classes
>this fucking blows
>in class with nobody i know
>just sit there and get my shit done them leave
>become to get a little irrational myself
>remember specifically this one time this cute girl was trying to flirt with me and i completely flipped my shit in front of mad people (crindgeing as i type this)
>continue banging thru my school work homeowrk that would take me 45 minutes takes me 3 hours because of all the screaming going on in my apartment
>at this point something happens that kinda fucks me up
>sister was drugged with psychadellics and raped
>she goes back the the mental institution
>phased
>no idea what to do
>want to kill this guy, i have a name
>sitting in class plotting how im gonna do this
>i tihnk people know so i relax a little
>remember i felt like beating the shit out of this girl next to me for some reason
>leave class and walk around school to cool off before shit get real
> everyone notices that i have changed drastically since freshman year for the worse, even the teachers
> become more quiet and awkward
>dont want to be here
>sister is back from the hospital
>she gained alot of weight but mentally she is ok
>i still want to kill this fucker but i cant, ill go to jail instantly
>dropt the whole murder ordeal focus on finishing school
>im also working at this point making some money
>i literally just to school, go to work, jack off and go to sleep
>chill with friends here and there
>finally graduate

>>16986820
POST HIGHSCHOL
>
>didnt get accepted into the college i wanted despite busting my ass
>fuck
>well this sucks but whatever
>spend summer vacation smokin weed chilling with shitty friend and some good friends
>wasting my life not doing shit everyone is going to college or getting started on working a job that they want
>im here working a shitty retail job
>still dealing with the same bullshit at home
>im become worse in terms of social nromality
>im quiet even around good friends and kind of awkward
>need to get the fuck out of here and gain control of my life
>bring up issue of father with grandmother
>tell her i want to go to community college and get my shit together but i cannot do school work at home with my father constantly screaming
>to be fair he doesnt scream so much anymore but he still says "help me my lord really loudly" still wakes me up when im trying to sleep
>my mom says that by new years somehitng is going to be done
>ok ill wait then and make a decision then
>new years rolls around
>nothing gets done
>still the same bullshit
>keeps telling me the same shit
>realize that even if he gets treatment and gets better my currently living situation is still fucking shit
> i live in a small dirty appartment, there is shit scattered everywhere, i cant bring anyone here especially bitches
>all hope is gone here

>>16986824
CURRENTLY
i am now 19 still working at the shitty retail store staying stagnent in life. i literlly have 3 fucking friends and thats it, i dont talk to anyone besides work and all i do is jack off. what the fuck do i do guys, i have 7000 dollars saved up and my grandmother still left that offer on the table, side note tho grandma is a little bit nuts which is why im hesitant.

>>16986808
Nobody's problem is worth plowing through seven chapters.

Rewrite this as a single post and you might get some replies.

Damn, buddy. You've gotten pretty shafted, but it's never too late to turn it all around.

For one, your father needs serious help. You and your mom need to get him to a goddamn psychiatrist. Force him if you have to.

>>16986820
>>sister was drugged with psychadellics and raped
Was the dude convicted? I hope so.

>>16986824
>>didnt get accepted into the college i wanted despite busting my ass
Did you only apply to one? What are your SAT/ACT, GPA, and class rank?
There's a good chance you may be able to apply to others and get in even now.

>i live in a small dirty appartment, there is shit scattered everywhere, i cant bring anyone here especially bitches
Get off your ass and fucking clean it.

>>16986825
>have 7000 dollars saved up and my grandmother still left that offer on the table
What offer?

>>16987176
I read it all. Only a few minutes, we don't all have ADHD.