Health problem that has to do with my head.

im relaxing now guys but its been pretty hard on me lately.

I take Lorazepam, Ropinirole, Ziprasidone, and Benztropine.

I almost want to go to church this shit if fucking me so hard. Also, when i took a hot bath, when my whole body was in it and i go to rub my neck because it is soothing, I nearly choked myself. i woke up a few time in my last sleep to my body jerking and waking me up. that i think was because of the benztropine which i need to keep taking for tremors.

when i was in sleep i felt like part of me was turning back on and it was heaven for those litte dreams. i swear i felt what used to be turn back on.

I'm certain the Benztropine is good. before i was taking the Benztropine I had the bite function problem.

my forehead feels pretty tense and i know that that was because of the gabapentin i was taking.

I'm not even sure if i should keep on existing, i mean wtf?

I want to live a life that's easy and peaceful. i want to be a laid back person that can help if needed.

I'm scared to kiss a woman because I don't want to accidentally bite her fucking tongue off. I'm only 21 btw. I'd be joyful as fuck that adult life is just beginning but I have this neurological fucking problem. I can still feel some love that i carry on from my parents genes.

I feel like people ambush me with their energy sometimes.

All i have now is hope to get better.