Too stupid for my family

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Or existing all together..
Keep posting here but advice never satifies me..
Both parents have degrees, both sides of senpai. have degrees. I wish I was smart enough to go through with becoming a graphical engineer and work with programming actual game engines.

Problem stars with this, I am too weak minded, and too attached to tech, videogames, porn, self evaluations, and the scenarios I brew in my head.
Additionally I feel no attachment to any country being that I am a guest in US under the DREAM Act.
>inb4 go back to mexico
Raised in Texas since 2001
I am part of the lower middle class in US, and have few friends, who are also in college because parents.
I honestly do not what they would do if I fail, my back up plan is work with anything related to film editting, but then again.. Not enough resources to do either.. Even though I have a mid teir comp it is prebuilt and brother has controlled all media related shit except for music.
I am told I am slow, good writer/political debator... Hate it, hate everything that involves either.
Not good at math, do somehow I want to be good at programming..
What do if fail...?
I wish I could jump ship and move to a remote island where the only thing I would need to do is survive.. But again.. Not enough resources..
I need to flee, not sure how..