Is it worth it

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I've been using drugs since I was 13. Started drinking, smoking bud, doing pills. When I got older I moved on to coke, then heroin. I've always had a knack for getting myself involved with the wrong people, at the wrong times. I've been in and out of jail because of my problems. In the last year or so I finally admitted to myself I have a problem. I cant seem to stay clean for more than a couple months or so without a relapse, usually its minor. The last time though, I ended up Overdosing and ending up in the hospital. I feel so alone in the world, like no one is like me, like Im floating along in a sea of happy people who dont understand how sad and twisted the world really is. The only relief I get is from using, but even then, it doesnt make me happy anymore, if it ever did. Part of me wants to get clean and stay that way...part of me just wants to the job right and be over with it. If the rest of my life is gonna be as bleak and filled with despair as it has been, then why even try to stay clean. Is it worth it? Does it actually get better?