Aimlessness, worthlessness

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I need some advice I guess, or maybe I don't, I'm not sure. I feel so out of touch with everything around me, and it isn't that I don't try to pull myself back in it just seems the harder I try the more tired I get because in the end nothing helps. I feel really depressed, I can't get into the things I used to enjoy like playing music, drawing, or writing because nothing meets my already low expectations of what I'll make even though I try to put everything I can into it. I can't interact well socially because I don't relate to anyone and I can't hold a conversation without feeling like a try-hard or like the other person thinks I'm just bullshitting.

I try to analyze these problems in my head and sometimes I feel like I know what's wrong or I know what will help me, but I can't overcome them and improve myself as a person or any of the skills I try to learn and apply. I feel stuck and it seems like its always been this way. I'm not sure how to keep going on without feeling so aimless.