How do I find/develop who I am? Right now I feel like an NPC.

>>16795629
That's all a matter of perception. You're already a complete person with a full personality. You just have to reconcile that twisted self-perception with reality.

Keep trying stuff until something sticks. Every time you learn what you don't like, you also learn a bit about what you do.

>>16795629

the core belief behind existentialism is that the universe is inherently meaningless, but that our power of choice gives us the option to give our lives meaning.

but to do so we have to at authentically. to do otherwise would be to lose your true self, and then you are no longer a human, so much as a tool of the universe, literally an NPC. finding your 'style' or your 'edge' might make you more defined. it might make you more recognizable.

but you dont want to 'develop' or 'find' some persona. you want to UNDERSTAND who you are.