Can you fix me /adv/ ? I hate everyone

>On antidepressants since age 12
Found your problem

Side effects of antidepressants
>sexual issues
which has obviously led to no self-pleasuring, no relationships, no sex/porn interest
>agitation, irritability, and anxiety
which have probably led to your anti-social issues

http://www.uncommonhelp.me/articles/antidepressants-dirty-little-secret/

>>16633795
normally I poo-poo this kind of all natural advice but ummmmmmmmmmm

If your life sucks this much, the anti-depressants clearly aren't helping and may be hurting quite a bit.

>>16633795
>>16633816

I tried to get off of the antidepressants; I weened down like you are supposed to for three months, then went off them. One month was absolute hell from withdrawals. The next six months were absolutely horrible. I would leave work in the middle of the day and cry in my car and then come back. At one point I nearly killed myself.

The doctor told me I would be on these antidepressants for the rest of my life because my brain can no longer regular serotonin without the medicine, due to the long exposure since childhood. So I had to go back onto the meds.

May be try killing yourself?

>>16633835
What I'm saying is maybe they need to be switched up; not given up all together.

>>16633904

Oh gotcha; yeah I have switched four times so far, the most recent was about eight months ago. They seemed to work pretty well, but I have to be honest; they're all pretty similar (SSRI/SNRI antidepressant).

Do you think there's some chance I have some sort of autism? My coworkers joke about it, and when I was a kid my mom told me she thought I had Asperger's. I have no diagnosis or anything, of course.

OP confirmed for dying alone and friendless

>>16634083
It's possible- but I feel like a shrink should've picked up on this. I know you have a psychiatrist but do you have a therapist as well?

My brother is very similar to you, but he's not bitter about it. He's extremely intelligent, doesn't like social interaction/doesn't go out, but he doesn't really hate anyone who does. It's just not something he wants to participate in.

You seem like you don't want to, but you WANT to want to. I don't know how you can change what you want, but maybe you could at least try and just be comfortable with it? Fuck. I dunno man, I can't really relate.

>>16634369

I had a therapist for two months. All he did was literally read out of a book the same three pages every week I went, and copied the book's paged with a copy machine and gave those pages to me. Two months of that = $640 out of pocket expense and no help at all.

Thanks for your posts. I am indeed very, very bitter. I was fine until I lost all my friends a couple years ago due to my personality and intolerance to certain life choices people made. Afterwards I have been very cynical, bitter, and overall a huge asshole.

>>16634402
Sounds like you had a shit therapist. Which is pretty common... don't let that turn you off of it forever though, keep looking. A damn man, you need a job with better benefits.

It's hard not to become disillusioned with the world and the people in it- but I promise they're not all vapid assholes. I've had friends I've lost a whole lot of respect for and have distanced myself from because of their life choices (example: one began having an affair while married to an awesome dude). However, it sounds like you might've been intolerant of life choices that may be stupid, but aren't hurting anyone. I'm sorry you lost your friends anon, but it seems you may have been a source of never-ending negativity and they cut you loose.

>>16634580
> A damn man, you need a job with better benefits.

My company has some of the best benefits around! :( $80/session was AFTER insurance. I think before they were $150/session

Also I have to use vacation time to go to a therapist, so I could essentially get 80hr of therapy and then I would have used my year's worth of paid time off

>I'm sorry you lost your friends anon, but it seems you may have been a source of never-ending negativity and they cut you loose.

Yep, this is totally true.

I am totally broken right now...

>>16635494
jesus- mine is a $25 copay, so maybe I got it better than most. I'm willing to talk but clearly I don't keep up w /adv/ threads very well, and I've been home all day doing shit around the house. Gotta kik?

>>16635572

No, I don't have kik/skype/etc

but thanks

I will look into other therapy sessions I guess, and ones that work on saturdays since I can't go during work hours

I am so incredibly lonely irl. I miss my old friends so much and I cry over it like a stupid bitch

>>16635709
I cry errtime