I posted this before but had no replies. Hey advice, I'm

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I posted this before but had no replies.

Hey advice, I'm sorta stumped.
So I have this guy, we'll call him A. He is my boyfriends (whom will be named R) best friend, and I've fallen in love with him. Already a messed up situation, but its about to get worse, so bear with me.
(We are all guys)

>R has been on house arrest for over a year and a half now and he has been temperamental and he is a massive horn dog. It was a minor annoyance up until A came into the picture.
>A is special to me, because the first time I met him I wanted to ask him out, and i dont develop crushes easily let alone fall in love. He is such a sweetheart, but he has his flaws too. He's overly blunt. The first thing he said to me was that I had terrible posture.
>Anyways I told R I had a crush on A, and R winded up blowing him (R and I are gay, A is bi) without me knowing, then we later had an awkward three way with A. I was crushed cuz I never thought A would be interested in me, let alone after the threeway but we started talking for hours alone every night, from 8 pm to 3am whether it would be on Rs backporch or over the phone. We a had a brief love affair but he ended it because it turns out he had a girlfriend. For weeks I've been devastated, crying almost everyday, until yesterday when he came back.
>I don't want to get rid of A, so here is my problem: now that he is back I don't know how to talk to him. It was a problem before but now it feels more crucial.
> Also I talk a bit too much and I know I can get annoying, and I'm afraid to talk to him because I'm afraid he will get annoyed with me and leave.

How can I feel comfortable with A?
How could I get rid of the awkwardness of how we met?
How do I talk to him?

I love him and he loves me back, I just need to get over this, and I need help.