Why the fuck am I so tired all the time, like I literally have

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Why the fuck am I so tired all the time, like I literally have not had one good day. Every day I'm so tired I can't do anything because I feel so spacey and out of it. At the end of the day I always have a headache from fatigue, my eyes feel like someone's pushing their thumbs into them, and as soon as I lay down and close my eyes my head starts pulsating. I think maybe its in my head and I look in a mirror and my eyes are sunken and black and I'm literally colorless. Every day I feel sick and every morning I wake up so tired I don't even know where I am. This caused me to ruin my grades in school and I have no future. I can't work I can't even have a social life im so tired. I literally feel more exhausted then people who work just sitting around all day. If I'm lucky I feel alright for 3 hours then after that I start feeling my eyes sting and turning black and I start feeling like shit.

I can't even sleep at night. I blow off every responsibility and I'm fucking going mad. Every night I lie awake grinding my teeth and sweating getting so angry at how I can do nothing. My nights are filled with terror and stress and my days are full of sickness. Its literally been like this since I was 12. People tell me I'm lazy and its my fault but I'm so god damn tired I can't even go do something after 10 o'clock. I talked to my doctor about it and he doesn't seem to grasp how tired I am and he gives me pills for the nausea it gives me. Its destroying my health I keep rapidly gaining and losing weight, my hairs thinning, I'm always shaky jittery and sweating, I can't adjust to cold tempatures like at all. What little bit of money I manage to save with no job I spend on weed because its the only thing that helps me sleep better and it gives me a bit of energy during the day to at least do a couple chores. My parents keep yelling at mento work and I say I'm too tired and they say its because I do nothing.