The Private Report on My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness

>>155661282
pasta product, pasta product everywhere there.

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Guess, I'll dump it.

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>>155662227
yaoi hole

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>>155663009
And done.

Thanks!

this is one of the most pathetic and depressing stories I've ever read

so why does it make me feel so much better?

>>155663301
>Seeing people worse than me getting it together makes me feel giod
Gee who would've thunk it

>>155663044
Thank you.

>>155662175
>didn't know about the urethra that far into her life
I know this feel. Still a sign sex ed sucks in your cunt.

Fuck yeah

>>155663301
>better
This shit makes me feel queasy and like shit, though good for her for finding a thing that worked out. Earlier shit was beyond Tomoko levels of second hand akwardness.

To think this gives you even worse feelings than Watamote

This ending feels deceptively happy on the author's part. She's talking about how she found that "sweet nectar" but it's likely a very temporary effect of her story finding success. I reckon she'll be back where she started once that fame dies down.

>>155661282
yay

>>155663044
That was nice. Thank you.

>>155664619
Depends, she could find happiness in being an average pixiv/manga writer

>>155662286
So how has fiction fucked you guys over?

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>>155664872
I'm here, aren't I?

>>155664619
I really hope she continues to be happy

>>155662175
>28
I thought I was bad for being like this at 25, but it makes me feel a little better that I'm not alone.

>>155663301
I think it's because we all feel that kind of general existential malaise.

Where we're thrust into the world and feel torn between expectations and desires. Not in some silly LN way but more, "I want to do this, but I also want to be the person my parents believed I could be" and finding it difficult to reconcile the two.

Obviously there's the whole clinical depression angle to it.

In a lot of stories like these, there's this almost cheesy and often cringy indulgence where the hero gets out of his funk because a quirky girl enters his life and brings fun and light to his dull existence. It's not always, "i'm the sexy transfer student and I need you to pilot this giant robot," sometimes it's just "I like to dance barefoot on park fountains."

I mean, we kind of have that here with the sex worker, but if it wasn't autobiographical, it'd feel like a winking satire. And in the end, she emerges more resolute, which is why the whole thing feels optimistic.

>>155662227
Real talk though, is the yaoi hole a real thing in yaoi? Like some kind of magical third orifice?

>>155661282
Thanks OP. I have been waiting for this chapter for awhile. Looking forward to her next work!

>>155665486
Want to guess what the Welcome to NHK author's up to these days?

>>155667954
He became a hikki?

>>155667055
I dunno. All I hear about is self-lubricating assholes.

>>155666292
>I thought I was bad for being like this at 25

Some of us are almost 30.

>>155662550
>Trying to make them like me

Yeah nah, I suck with people because I don't know how to dealt with them, like what to talk about, behaviour and shit like that.

>>155667954

Please, do tell.

>>155661282
Is this literally tumblr?

So if i want to solve my own problems I should visit a prostitute?

>>155668184
No and don't bring that bullshit into this thread.

>>155668184

no, it's literally me

>>155668217
It's more like dare to think for yourself and do stuff you want to do without feeling weighted down by what others might think of you.

>>155664619
That sort of high never lasts. The only way out is to develop grit and just keep pushing.

>>155668217
Don't forget to write a report and post it on the internet.

>>155664872
I keep thinking cocking your hand all the way back is a good punch, although I only do that when disabling angry.

Also traps

>Lesbian
>Masturbated the most to guy-on-guy

So if you like yuri you're a faggot. No wonder any time someone argues in hetero romance's favor yurifags are so desperate to jump in and stutter "Y-Y-YOU DON'T LIKE GIRL-ON-GIRL? HOW GAY, RIGHT GUYS?!"

>>155669626
If /r9k/ and /lgbt/ are accurate, most yurifags on this site are AGP if not trans.

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>>155670363
It is accurate. You can't post cute anime girls in /lesgen/ without people thinking you're a tranny, it also gets to the point you begin to think others doing the same are trannies.

To put it simply, trannies ruined animeposting.

>>155670363
Most yuri athors are female. Most yuri fans are female. I don't know about r9k or lgbt but these are facts that float around.

>>155668096
Some of us are over 30

>>155670811
>most yuri fans are female
>most yaoi fans are female
Why are females so gay?

>>155667954
Did he an hero?

>>155670906
het is gross
the only pure form of love is that between two members of the same sex

>>155670906
Most feel sexually unsatisfied, i'd reckon. Then again, a good dicking fixed the "die cis scum" girl apparently.

What does this bitch look like irl?

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>>155670970
But het is the only reason you and I are here right now.

>>155670970
>>155670906
It's just because women prefer romance in general. Even though men are naturally more receptive to lesbians than straight women are, straight women will more often enjoy a romance story about lesbians. It's just because they prefer romance itself a lot more.

>>155671008
Thanks for proving his point.

>>155671048
o u

>>155671005
The pic I saw of her had short hair in kinda a bowl cut and she looked pretty gross actually. I don't have the pic but maybe someone can redirect to it.

>>155671008
Most of us don't want to be here (alive)

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Look at her fucking face, man.

>>155671701
I dunno, it's not like she looks deformed. Typical 3DPD/10.

https://twitter.com/gogatsubyyyo/

Her art has a certain charm to it.

>>155671701
>>155671963
What an ugly boy.

>>155662043
>people who know
Look at her, full of herself. She thinks she means shit now.

>>155670906
Women are 99% likely to write romance. There's plenty of yuri male authors and yuri male fans, it's just that men spread themselves out over many more genres while women mostly stick to romance.

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>>155671963
Yep, that's a lesbian.

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>>155671963
>black hair
>smooth light skin
She looks like the average nip. Not even ugly.

>>155664872
Just normal things like trying to do magic/esp things.

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Have you found that "something" anons? That "something" that makes you happy and fulfilled? Have you found your source of nectar? Be honest.

>>155670906
Women are sexually unsatisfied by men. Women are better at satisfying women.

>>155672890
lol, nope.
At least I have determined myself to fuck everything, and move to japan this year.

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>>155672890
Math. Computers. Anime. If only I had money I would stop trying to kill myself.

>>155662432
this is getting meta

>>155672890
>that something
Pretty sure it's a meme from novels/films/anime and doesn't actually exist in real life, anon

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>>155672890

no

stopped watching anime because I no longer found the same joy in it, and games are probably going the same route soon

>>155661282
This that manga about the dyke that wants to fuck her mom?

>>155672890
It's called /a/ - anime and manga.

>>155672890
My girlfriend, and creating art.

>>155672890
Maybe. I like doodling, but I'm not good at it and it's embarrassing to share what I make. I know how to get better, but it anytime I put effort into it feels like I'm ripping my insides out.

>>155664872
It gave me unrealistic expectations for humans. I wish everything was hairless, clean, and spotless like in my chinese cartoons.
Also an absolute lack of interest in watching porn. I have never willingly looked up videos of people having sex. I just don't care at all, it's not arousing when compared to drawn porn. Real sex organs aren't pretty.

>>155662967
>>155662967
I know this feel

>>155672890
Anime and manga in general, but specifically BL and during the past two years Swordboys.
Although I'm not sure if it's what brings me happiness or if it's just my means of escapism. I guess you just can't feel happy and fulfilled all the time, so if that's the case then it is my nectar. Even if I had a well functioning normal life, I don't think I could live without my 2D chink drawings.

>>155662967
>Push a twentysomething into a corner, and they'll go to a brothel and publish a report about it on the internet.

scary

>>155673603
Well, it worked for her.

Honestly, the reason so many people are stuck in a funk is because they haven't been forced out of it. Why try when you have all your basic needs fulfilled? You'd be amazed at how much humans can do when pushed to an extreme where it's either sink or swim.

>>155672890
>happy and fulfilled
Why do you think we're here?

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>>155670363
>AGP

>>155673801
>"Autogynephilia" is a sex-fueled mental illness made up by Ray Blanchard. Blanchard defines it as "a man's paraphilic tendency to be sexually aroused by the thought or image of himself as a woman.

>>155672890
No, and I'm perfectly fine with that. Most of the time, that is.

>>155672890
Quit believing this shit. This woman thinks she's found something. Bullshit. Life is just finding that next thing that keeps you from wanting to not live at all. For some people it's an upcoming anime, for some people it's exploring the world, for some people it's getting more money, for most people it's a spouse and children.

You're going to keep doing that, finding something new. Maybe you might drop a hobby, pick up a new one, maybe you might drop them all and either become a slave to work or spiral into depression and suicidal thoughts.

Eventually you'll keep jumping from thing to thing, anime to anime, videogame to videogame, location to location, less money to more money, then one day you're going to have a medical problem and fucking die.

There is no secret to life. Some people's brain compositions just allow them to be happier than others. Don't think too much into this shit.

>>155669626
I usually tend to read same-sex VNs, since 99% of het stories are paper thin MCs which makes every girl in a 100km radius fall for him because he is nice, or in case of otome games, it's an equally bland girl who makes all guys fall for her since she is cute.

Not saying that all het stores are like that, or that all yuri/yaoi aren't like that, but the vast majority is unbearable.

>>155672890
Mine has soured somewhat.

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>>155672890
No and I stop trying to find it, I just want a easy way of make money without have to interact with people now.

>Please your parents (employers/society etc)
>Rebel against them
For some the struggle is real.

>>155673981
Isn't that what she's trying to get at? It isn't simply living up to the ideal of having a stable job and family that will leave you satisfied forever, but doing anything that engages you and gives you some purpose?

>>155673981
Didn't she explain that it is fluid and that it was something else in school than it is now? I guess some pople's honey is being angry.

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>>155674216
That's what I got from it. Stop doing things to please others or because you feel obligated to fulfill their expectations. Focus on yourself and on pleasing yourself first of all.

>>155672890
My job keeps me reasonably fulfilled and I can enjoy my sloth outside of that.

>>155672890
Family members I care about, books, movies, vidya, exercise, occasional travel. Happiness and contentment is something you just have to create yourself; either you're willing to do it, or you aren't.

I want to hug her and pat her head.

>>155672890
When I stop doing things I feel really empty, so I do things.

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Why do I get this screen when I click to show ch4?
Why does anyone use batato ever?

>>155672890

Welp, I realized I just need a decent job, and enough money to live a somewhat carefree life. That's all I really want.

Oh yeah, I would totally get a Robo waifu, shame that's still too far in the future.

>>155674820
>Why does anyone use batato ever?
Yeah I don't know why you're still using batoto. Just go to Dynasty.

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>>155674820
Dumbfuck

>>155674961
Not him, but Dynasty is complete garbage.

>>155674961
>Just go to Dynasty.

But isn't that for lesbian stuff mostly?

>>155674820
did you try f5

>>155674987
The forums are.

>>155674988
They mostly upload yuri, yes. This manga is in there.

>>155672890
Not really. I used to think things like
>If I have a car, I'll be more independent
>If I have a job, I can be more supportive in a relationship
>If I have a college degree, people would respect me more

I just feel like I'm in a constant struggle because I've had to do a lot for myself while seeing how "normal" families and coworkers interact with their kids. My happiness hasn't been easy to find.

I still like manga so I hope it stays this way for a while longer. It'd be miserable to lose interest in it.

>>155671963
if she let her stupid hair grow maybe she would look somewhat like a woman.

>>155675651
Would she get mad pussy by doing that?

>>155673603
>That line
That needs to go into one of those hentai comment collages

>>155672890

I've got a pretty good idea of what it is, but I don't have the means. Once I've got a better job I can work on narrowing it down.

>>155674140
You might as well kill yourself now because thats imposible. If you dont suck your assignated jew-cock 40hrs a week for the rest of your life then you better be prepared to sleep on the streets, like the filthy fucking dogs that we are.

>>155674140
Stock exchange.

>>155675276
You just overrate normals. Some people have kids because of social pressure and some just accidentaly. Lots of people don't search for their happiness, they just copy generic answers from others: money, partner, free time. Later they regret this.

>>155668184
No way, the MC is cute.

>>155671963

Where is the bald spot?

>>155676486
under the wig

>>155672890

I wouldn't say I have found "the" something, but I'm not sure that there is a single thing that will make me feel that way to the exclusion of all others. But I'm quite happy and fulfilled with my work and education at the moment and slowly working out my strengths and how I can best use them.

>>155676221
I have one coworker who regrets marriage, except that he's really glad that he has kids. I have another who probably loves his kids but is definitely sick of raising them. Others talk about their partners and families all the time, indicating some level of interest and fulfillment. Everyone gets something different out of life.

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>>155673842
So basically something people on 4chan started saying to try and sound less like tumblr which had the net result of making them sound more like tumblr.

>>155677430
What