Every thread until we reach the Golden Land.
Because he's not Battler inside his head. Tohya had fragmented Battler memories inside his head that never made any connection to his self. It would be like if you woke up one day with invasive memories of someone else who experienced a mass murder. That's why he tried to kill himself. Even if he figured out that he was really Battler, it doesn't make it any easier to reintegrate those fragmented memories into any sense of other self.
I want to deito Lucifer.