Monarch Mind Control

Possible Monarch Mind Control story:

>always treated differently from brother and sister as a kid
>parents told me i had genetic night-blindness and had to regularly see an eye doctor for drugs and tests
>i was also diagnosed with aspergers and ADD by a child psychiatrist and given ritalin and prozac till age 12
>went to private schools for elementary and middle
>elementary was a catholic school
>middle was a "gifted and talented" program
>was always told I was exceptionally smart
>had DARE classes in elementary
>remember the officer saying "if you take LSD just once it stays in your spine forever and you can never stop tripping again"
>scared the shit out of me when i was little
>when i got to high school tho i started hanging out with artsy / alternative kids
>they introduced me to weed
>i began to experience doublethink
about drugs
>fell for the "psychedelics are harmless if you approach them spiritually" meme

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>started taking acid and shrooms regularly
>my personality started fragmenting into alter egos
>normally extremely shy and anxious
>on psychedelics I would become pompous and bombastic and fearless
>I liked the way it made me feel
>I also began to black out regularly
>dreams and reality melted into one another
>people would tell me stories about things I didn't remember doing
>I began feeling an alien presence in my brain
>it occurred to me that it was suspicious how all these drugs managed to find their way to some loser kids like us
>paranoia enveloped my mind
>but I could not stop my actions
>my alters would take over and do things for me
>I would talk in secret phrases and do horrible things and possibly drove my girlfriend to commit suicide after she got pregnant
>after that I tried getting clean
>detoxxed
>went to a hospital
>diagnosed with "drug induced psychosis"
>given antipsychotics
>but even now my friends try to draw me back into the lifestyle
>and I dream of the other me and taking drugs to unleash him
>recenty began learning about monarch mind control
>remember having dreams about monarch butterflies when going crazy
>wtf is happening? why would anyone bother mindraping about me?

I'd say it's the drugs that are to blame, I know it sounds cliché but you're bringing a very cliché story to the table.
However to approach your question more directly, as of know(probably ever) there is no way to find out you was involved in the program.

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>I have one memorable experience
>I remember getting a research chemical (DOM/STP) in the mail
>I didn't have the right scale to weigh it
>I began sticking a pocket knife in it and licking bumps off of it to dose
>one of my friends was worried I'd OD
>I told him that with the right mindset one can alchemize any poison into a panacea
>slowly my tongue got longer
>i began to feel hot
>my skin started peeling
>my friends eyes started glowing
>I heard a voice
>it told me I had to steal something from school
>somehow I drove there
>somehow I knew the code to get in
>I was still taking bumps
>did the entire baggy that night
>that was when I ended up in the hospital couple days later

>>17315749
Have you read the documents in this thread?
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>>17315798
As far as I know drugs were a key component of these programs. Perhaps the government allows people to use these drugs so they can be used as guinea pigs?
>>17315829
I will check them out. Thank you.

>>17315843
I guess.
Yeah LSD was a big thing in MK, thing is that it all boils down to speculation. So much documentation was destroyed that I guess a proper investigation will be impossible even if the US government would like to conduct it.
Much like with the Montauk project the truth will never be known.
But I'm a big ass pessimist.