Seasonal affective disorder edition.
So I know some of you cunts are literally shut ins, but do any of you live with housemates?
Do you actively avoid them? I've been doing it of late because I got used to being alone at Christmas and now I don't want to change.
I wanna sit in bed all day in my undies doing nothing. When my housemates home I just try to be as silent as possible and hope he doesnt notice me. Go to the toilet and eat only when I desperately need to as quick as possible.
He's an alright guy but I just cba talking to anyone. Like I really don't have common interests and would rather just shitpost in peace.
I'm trying to teach my grandfather how to use my ipad for Netflix as I don't use it. It's like pulling teeth.
I tell him the screen is very sensitive and you only need to touch it lightly but he lays the fucking smack down on it every time he touches it and then complains it's not working.
>only interested in stuff with violence in
>show him so very highly rated, good stuff
>says its shit
>I know it's because there is no action in it
>watches 4/10 film or TV series
>says it's amazing because some cunt is dying every 20 minutes
>tfw get paid jsa tonight
literally counting down the minutes bcos havent eaten in two days
>only see each other every few days
This is a new level of NEET.
>student loan hasn't come in
>i have a fiver to my name
who /hasn't eaten anything but asda's own brand instant noodles for 2 weeks/ here?
p.s. underage/neet bots: don't go to university for a shitty joke subject unless you're from a pretty well off family that is willing to support you or it's going to be miserable
Would you guys try this with a British dom?
>Oculus rift is 600 yank bucks
>That's not even with full features supposedly
Is Facebook trying to kill the waifu age?
OKAY, CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHY AFTER A WHILE OF POSTING AND SOLVING CAPTCHAS THEY STOP FUCKING WORKING and I have to solve more?
This is fucking bullshit. How am I supposed to shitpost consistently with this bollocks.
>Talks shit about Ritsu
Pick one Senpaitachi.
They are, it's just more difficult to get so mongs like you give up instantly. I'd much rather have my weapon while the pakis and chavs still mess with knives due to less easy access.
>4th year, not likely to graduate with even a 2:1 because i'm a fuckup
>no skills or extracurriculars
>got rejected without interviews from everywhere i've applied to
>haven't started researching my dissertation due in 2 months
k i l l m e
Out of curiousity how does one become homeless, especially with a job?
Surely everyone has someone to take enough pity on them to let them at least sleep on their floor?
I locked myself out of my house losing the keys a few weekends ago and made a few embaressing texts a people said they'd have me on their sofa. You can literally use this couch surfing as well I guess.
Dare I say it, it's 2016. I don't see why this still happens.
Imagine if it went any other way.
Imagine if you just had a nice job and not only that, but a lifetime of good experiences, good friends, good grades in school, and good looks.
I just can't believe how I live in a supposedly first world country but am in the bottom percentile globally in terms of looks, social experience, and financial situation.
Yes I have a laptop that I go on the internet with in cafes but I'd trade that for a lifetime of happy memories any day. Give me a job and I promise never to go on 4chan again.
Why are you even here if you have friends? Juts leave, please. PLEASE.
I can't believe normies are so dumb that they can't imagine how someone who is homeless has a harder time if they have no friends.
>take caffeine and redose over and over again so that i took 500mg over the course of 2 hours
>still tired as fuck, only significant difference is that now my heart is beating irregularly
wow fucking great drug. i bet taking amphetamines is healthier than this.
Went for pizza an chips lads. Some Sriracha to taste. >>25542407
Had a horrible panick attack last night and felt the most crushing sense of impending doom I've ever felt.
Got up to take a wet shit which is usually a symptom of my panick attacks but then I woke up this morning and I have a really upset stomach.
Can't tell if me needing a shit caused the attack or if my attack caused me to need a shit.
Pretty funny either way and I'd laugh if I didnt think it would cause a bowel movement.
>can't pay we'll take it away evicting some nigger from somalia
Feels good man.
>call an american out for being an ignorant, cynical piece of shit
>remind him of circumcision to give him a taste of his own medicine
>now threatens to sue me
Any of you lads see the new episode of 'The Undateables' then?
Too obvious, I'll give you a pity (you) for the effort.
>he finds a TV series
>Anon, how do I turn these subtitles off
>They're on by default
>I don't want them on
>But then you won't be able to understand it
>Can't you make them speak English
What rank did you start as after first 10 games? That's pretty impressive.
I used to be a pretty shit hot CSS comp player but hadn't played for about 5 years when I got on CSGO. I played at MG for awhile then got relegated twice in a short space of time and from that point on it was luck of the draw for the teams I got relegated down to Gold Nova 1 then went back up Gold Nova 3, After that I had some issues with my PC where my FPS was dire so ended up getting relegated back down, didn't play for a few months while I got a new PC then had a series of relegations until I got to Silver which is really tough to play because for a lot of people I think it is their first time on CS so had a few losses and have ended up at Silver 3.
Any lads here doing exams in uni atm?
Doing an exam tommorow, maths went pretty good so I'm hoping I do well in this next one. After the exam I'm catching the first train home (I normally live at uni) and enjoying my last 2 weeks of freedom.
Gonna be pretty comfy desu, looking forward to the peaceful train ride home.
I wish there was another cool war like WW2 so i wouldn't have to worry about careers and shit and just get to shoot the fuck out of some real enemy.
If i joined the army now i'd just be stuck in some desert helping ragheads not get killed by other ragheads.
Top o' the morning to ya, guv'nas. I am an aspiring American writer who grew up under a rock. I wish to learn the ins and outs of your culture for a script I am working on.
Q: What are some things about Britain that you've noticed are underrepresented in media?
I don't want to write yet another story that just references Milwall and crumpets & tea. Consider this an opportunity to get your voice out to the masses, through me.
REEEEEEEE clogfags out
I think the other anon put sriracha on his pizza which is chili & garlic sauce, red sauce is what britbongs call ketchup, also REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE OUTUTOUTOUTOUT
Rift is the worst VR headset of all the ones about to hit the market.
If you buy rift, you are more retarded than a console kiddy.
Probably because sony is actually a TV manufacturer, unlike most of the rest. They've already researched 3D 4k tvs, I doubt this is even a challenge to their engineers or manufacturing process.
I don't know if it was because I was really unhappy with where my life was at the time, but I've worked 2 years in a factory but could only muster 2 weeks in a call centre. 8 hours of being told to fuck off whilst you stutter on the phone is awful and I told them I was going to kill myself if I kept doing it.
A few days a week may be alright, but it's relentless and you only really get through to the sad desperate people, some threatening to kill themselves and that. Who else answers the phone in the day?
A school teacher is entrusted with an enormous duty, must leave her home and husbando for years, and cope with isolation & coming to terms that she doesn't understand her faith. That's the jist of it.
Worked in kitchens before, unless they found a way to throw a knife through the phone it's going to be better than that.
>whilst you stutter on the phone
Phone is a spaghetti free zone for the newest wagecuck in town
It's not as bad as it could be, at least its only a couple days, the five day work week is a con, you end up spending most of your life doing unenjoyable shit so you can support yourself in what little time you have when your not wageslaving. Even top doctors are saying a 4 day work week would help everyone's stress, as well as unemployment. theguardiancom/society/2014/jul/01/uk-four-day-week-combat-stress-top-doctor
>tfw watching Buffy while typing this
>tfw Buffy is actually one of my least favourite characters in the whole series
>tfw actually prefer Angel over Buffy as a series
>tfw Anya is my favourite character in the whole series
Forreal? Fuck. I can't really tell you much about the faith part without giving away my twists. That's not only focus though; its mostly going to be that, ethics, and psychology. Elements of SOL throughout.
I'd say be careful with your flexibility, don't fluctuate too much, or they may fire you for being too much of a hassle, but it sounds like you're landing a pretty nice job, better than most for what you want.
the lower middle class. Most people would fit in to this category, yet somehow in media you're either a posh middle class twat, or a working class chav, the in between is sorely underrepresented as a group.
Well I told them I want like 6 weeks off to go and see my parents who fucked off abroad to live and they said it's no problem. Seems too good to be true so far, the only downside is they have 15 people crammed into a space the size of my living room.
Managed to get a Skype interview for a Software and Web development, had to buy a webcam and microphone because I don't have one and I've got to dress formally. Fucking hell I can't be done with this and I haven't even got my place. I can't wait to sperg out over Skype with a qt though.
Ritsu is for anons with truly refined taste.
Only on the second or third viewing do you come to understand that she is actually best girl.
Is it possible for emotions to 'switch off'?
I've always been kind of an emotionless person but just over a year ago one of the only people that I have ever REALLY cared for died. I loved them so fucking much and I miss them everyday.
Anyway, since then it seems my emotions and empathy just vanished. I'm not even joking. I now have a complete lack of empathy and very, very rarely feel much emotion. I don't ever feel happy and I don't get sad. It's just nothing all the time.
Is it possible for something in your brain to change due to a traumatic event?
>I've got to dress formally
If you want to really make an impression use facerig instead, with the live2d module.
>tfw your folks are vampires and you are being raised by a single dad and his buddies because your mom committed a suicide allowing you to be born
>tfw only your father's demonic face stops you from crying
Pic mostly unrelated.
>feel the police breathing down my neck
>delete incriminating shit off my laptop
>CC cleaner and a few overwrites
>make online backup and hard backup
>later delete the online backup out of paranoia
>police don't find shit on the laptop
>lose the hard backup
I'm literally going to have to do the polices job by recovering the incriminating files from my laptop
does anyone know of the style the actors perform in the 2009 film Gamer?
Is it "Japanese Rave" Subculture?
I'm not a loner. I have a job and friends.
I just don't feel anything anymore other than anger.
Honestly, it's at the point where if one of my friends died tomorrow I don't think I would feel much at all.
It's called apathy.
Happened to me, I just read nietzsche and realised everything was futile so I'd rather feel other emotions and enjoy my moment in life before the eventual demise.
>Desperate shut-in NEET uses anime facerig to try and get a job through Skype
That's a great mental image.
>a whole evening filled with possibilities
>will inevitably spend it on 4chan
decent ratings, yui is pure trash though she probably can't even wipe her arse properly and always has shit stained underwear
Anime is fucking shit and you have a low iq if you enjoy it. Literally no different than mongs whose favourite movies are Avengers and Minions, except you aren't normie so you don't even get to shag normie birds for having shit taste.
>had a dream last night I was with my ex
>at some fictional concert
>music was amazing
>she mentions the dude I know she's seeing now
>sadmode sets in
>happy dream now depressfest
>alarm goes off in reality world
>6am, laying in bed processing
>fuck I hate when dreams have feels
Don't bully the Yui, it's not her fault she has learning difficulties.
It's so much a product of its time that unless you watched it when it was on or love the 90s I really doubt you'll get much out of it.
It's also massively influential so you may find a lot of its theme seem cliche, even the ones they invented.
Regardless, that girl just wants the D so do it.
Angel S5 > Buffy > The rest of Angel
Any other Brits not realise Spike was a filthy yank?
Who /readytodiehere/ here?
I think I've achieved all I can in life and am ready to pack it in. I'll see it out until after summer to enjoy my golden years with some more boozing then I'm finished.
Some cheeky cunt has been using facebook with my paypal
Just got charged 75p
I don't even have a normiebook, and I have phone verification, so I've no idea how they managed that.
Disputed it obviously.
People will do anything that boosts their stats to prove that they're being useful
If that's someone doing a serial killing, or a 13 year old buying weed, they don't care. It's a success either way.
My paypal account shows a 75p payment to Facebook. Probably someone buying a virtual cow or some shit.
I want to know how they got around the mobile phone verification though. I can't even buy from Steam or Ebay without using my phone.
Its not so much being caught by the popo you want to worry about, its people stealing your identity
Also if you know how TOR actually works, you don't want some kiddly fiddler browsing on your IP address, use a VPN and MAC address changer
Maybe you had a normiebook before and didn't properly shut it down and gave it authorization to take from your PP?
I dunno lad but it seems bonkers that somebody would go through all that for 70p, let us know how this shit plays out.
Je ne pas Charlie.
Let's remember the martyrs.
I know right.
So why am I having only SSRIs and CBT offered to me there are way more effective treatments that i remember studying when I did psychology
Medication and therapy that aren't trash. SSRIs are shit and may only sort of work for some kinds of depression but make people more suicidal and more fucking apathetic.
CBT just sounds like it will be some normie telling me to be myself.
I want either real meds or real therapy or>>25546160
but a bf instead
>cheese puft hula hoops.
These are LITERALLY just quavers
I wish I could start a business where I could get people like this. Terrorists, kiddy fiddlers, muslims and just general sick bastards.
I'd have a building with individual rooms where people could come to pay me and be put into a room with these people and do whatever the fuck they want to them with the assortment of weapons and instruments at their disposal.
Kinda like that movie, Hostel.
Pls Lotto, grant me the neet life i've always wanted
>Medication and therapy that aren't trash. SSRIs are shit and may only sort of work for some kinds of depression but make people more suicidal and more fucking apathetic.
Which specific mediation and type of therapy do you need dr?
I hope it hurt. mmmmmmm yeah, bleed for me. How does it feeeeeeeeel.
No, but seriously, I'm not trying to be edgy. I guess I'm just fucked in the head.
What if someone just hated the other person and made shit up, like women do in Divorce court? You'd be facilitating the brutal torture of an innocent person for no proper reason. You would be as bad as Isis.
I wanted to take bupropion but was denied, or just anything other than the shit SSRIs. Maybe just maybe a mild stimulant for someone who can't stay awake or concentrate might help.
For therapy I want to talk to someone with medical qualifications not someone who did a fucking 5 day course at an ex poly and will just tell me to smile or some trash.
You realise there are lots of different kinds of therapies and CBT is just a shit normie one?
I wouldn't just take anyone because someone said they were bad. I'd have had to witness it. Like the people who perform these terror attacks or people in prison for fucked up shit.
its a nonsedating antidepressant that would be a better alternative to SSRIs while providing any benefit my doctor might have wanted. It has been shown to be even more effective in those that SSRIs had no effect.
It is a straight up upgrade to toxic SSRIs
NEETs hope you get extra msg with that wagie.
Anorexic, I've only eaten one meal a day for the last 5 years and my takeaway orders always last 2 days
There's more MSG in parmesan than anything you'll get from a Chinese lad, and seeing as retards like you are so scared of it, it's hardly added to anything these days
You have to be a little wild and ready to go, go, go to work there.
>Im from reddit
Had a fantastic run tonight lads, currently warm and snuggly in bed with a steaming hot mug of Horlicks
>tfw no one in the world is a COMFY as me right now
>tfw not lying in bed enjoying whore licks
Enjoy your Chinese.
Indeed anon, I plan to buy a boat one day. They must be super comfy with a coal fire, plus it seems like an ideal way to cut oneself from society. One can live a NEET, cheap and somewhat self sufficient lifestyle. My only reservations are poor internets connections.
I only had 4, but I did English lit too. Easy to wing if you're decent at elaborating on points, regardless of how whacky they are. Tbh I found it boring more than hard, sat in a freezing hall with people spluttering and sneezing around me.
Enjoy canal/river pirates. My granddad lived on the Kennet and Avon Canal in the 60s and was seriously robbed by other boat-folk at least twice a week. He ended up not bothering to buy new furniture, radios, etc. and would just hand over fags and booze, hoping they didn't rough him up too badly. He had to quit living on the river because some twats beat him up so badly he was hospitalised.
Who else /cosygta/ here?
Riding a bycicle through the pier at night atm tbqh senpai.
>not sailing across flood waters
>not watching normies drown
>not having your katana at the ready
or just drive sports cars around hollywood.
I'm not mining now and never did, I'm just annoyed I didn't get any while they went for pennies years ago, when I first knew about them.
You can't fall for a pyramid scheme you never partake in. Not sure why I have to explain this when it was clear in the first post.
>Is it really expensive to live there?
Not if you have a job here - the pay is in line with the cost of living.
>Also is it true you guys don't like foreigners?
White people are fine unless you're a Slav. We don't want niggers and shitskins here - literally nobody will give them a job so they're either running kebab shops or on benefits. We don't have many, thankfully. The city council have blocked all attempts at getting planning permission for a mosque, which is great.
Lads my boss told me he's giving me some really important work today after months of me asking why I'm being pushed onto small time stuff.
Turns out it's because the Chad he wanted to do it has been given even bigger and better work so I'm some second choice cast off.
Should I confront him about lying to me? He made out like he wanted me to have it and is doing me a solid by giving it to me, really I'm someone they need to do it, not someone they want to. I'm not good at awkward confrontations though.
Studying part time at uni this year as I failed half of last year as I had a mental breakdown. I also quit my job last year, but now I can't find another one and I need more money for video games. I can't sleep so I'm trying to track down the camwhore I internet dated from /soc/ in 2011. Not to talk to her, just to see how she is and watch from a distance.
It wasn't always the case that they cost more to mine than you got out of them, back then it was just play money shit on /g/ that you could make hundreds of with a basic desktop in a few hours. It only became a pyramid scheme after the cost to make them started outweighing their market value as they got harder to make.
Student loans, I'm somewhat lucky that I come from a low income background as it means I get extra student loan/grant/bursary, which is enough to pay for rent/bills and then enough left over to make it so I can manage without a job (though can't afford as many luxuries).
It's a professional job where we don't have clearly defined roles, everyone does different stuff but lately I was pushed onto hard crap stuff but did well at it and they won't let me move onto something else because no one else wants to do it, meanwhile Chad was given good easy shit and keeps getting more and more.
I'm thinking of doing this, I'm more experienced than him and have done really well but for whatever reason he's being given more opportunity to advance. Everything I'm being given to get ahead is stuff that they couldn't give to the other guy.
I feel like I'd be a bit of a little bitch if I brought it up though, basically crying about it not being fair.
I know it's autismal as fuck but when I found out all the good stuff my boss asked me to do is because I'm "Second Fiddle" to Chad it made me think of pic related.
on the verge on second mental breakdown within 2 years lads, never talked about the first one with anyone and the only people that knew about it ostracised and mocked me for it
could really do with some health leave of uni or something because at this rate i'm gonna fuck up even more
no idea if anyone would take me seriously though and i'm scared of the reactions
>tfw I have so little to do I actually watched the whole episode
It was a bit funny I suppose. It's interesting actually, seeing comedy from another country, I wonder if there are things icelanders find amusing that we don't or vice versa.
If you have a history of mental health problems I don't see why they wouldn't take you seriously. Also remember that you're tutors etc. are supposed to be sympathetic to these things, mine was at least.
Unis generally are pretty good for that sort of thing, as they do have a duty of care for their students, and they're used to dealing with mental health issues as a lot of them do first manifest in students.
First place you should go is to your GP, and if you feel they won't take you seriously see another GP at the practice. Or if you don't want to see your GP, see if your university has a counselling service you can talk to. Both of those will be able to give you notes that might make the uni admin/academic staff take you a bit more seriously (though they should take you seriously without notes but we're not in a perfect world).
Your specific school at university should have a welfare officer or something, so alert either them or your personal tutor or any tutor you feel comfortable talking to desu. And then they should point you in the direction of where you can get proper help with sorting stuff out, whether that's extensions, leave of absence, they'll talk with you so you can work out what's best for you together.
cheers guys, how you you get over the initial fear of approaching them though? I feel like if I do it cogs will be set in motion and I don't wanna be labeled as a crazy
I know it's stupid as hell but I've always had to be the 'screwed on' one in my family and whatever, had situations in my teens where the first thing you'd do would be to tell your parents about it and I kept it to myself for 2 years before I finally did
an edinburgh one, not gonna say which
You are right about the whole thing being a pyramid and early adopters being the only winners, point is I could have been one of them. Never getting involved was the best choice I could have made, but the what-if 's still eat away regardless. Cheers for the reality check.
I've heard cases like this mate, they let him have a year off, but assess whether that would make things worse i.e. with regards to being around strangers in the year below and the anxiety associated with that
>tfw dry flaky skin
>tfw joints always cracking, clicking and achey
>tfw bald patch at 22
I went through a breakdown in my first year of uni. For the academic side of things, i spoke to my faculty tutor who i had a good relationship with and she was very supportive. All my lecturers were really supportivecand seemed genuinely concerned.
Left for like a month and kept up on reading remotely from home. It all worked out ok.
>muh invisible disease
Jeez you are pathetic.
If I were in your position I'd take my advice and book an escort for the night. Get laid and stop being such a little retard.
Uni is piss. Go to lecture, take notes, leave, do homework. Bung revision into the last month and come out with a first. Never talk to anyone on your course because there's no point being friends with your competition.
Your tutors and counselling services will have dealt with countless students in your exact position anon so I don't think they will hold it against you. Also, it won't get out that you have seen them about your mental health unless you tell others outside of the confidential space. I don't doubt one bit that some of your class mates will have contacted them about their mental health as well, just remember you're not alone anon you just have to ask for help to the right people.
You have to think which is the lesser of two evils - approaching them, which is scary initially but they have a duty to help and be understanding so it's safe to do so; or letting things get on top of you and risk getting even worse.
I've been suffering with mental health issues all through my university life, and I've seen many friends suffer with them too. I've been in that position before, too scared to get help, but I'm glad I did because if I'd kept quiet I wouldn't be here now.
Unis tend to be very flexible to accommodate for mental illness. I've had friends who took a year out, and returned and continued their studies. Friends who carried on studying, but who got extended deadlines and a bit of leeway with their final exam results. There's a lot they can do to help, you just have to let them know you're struggling.
Ironically over the last few years all the anxiety has been beaten out of me, the only 'anxiety' I have now is a result of rampant irrational paranoia and the like see I should mention I've definitely twisted my brain somewhat with drugs
I'm not a tumblr case, friend, I'm seriously worried about my health
off them now but the worst it got was this Christmas where I was getting audial hallucinations
like I had a full blown argument with my family this christmas because I thought there was someone in the house talking shit about me and saying that I'd been doing drugs, after 2 hours of squabling I nearly got my parents to check me into a mental hospital to call their bluff , saying like 'if there's been no one here then take me to hospital because i'm losing my mind'
it was only when my dad started calling an ambulance that I realised I'd imagined it all
>You have not recieved docking clearance, please turn back
cheers guys this has all been a massive help, gonna email my tutor tomorrow and see if I can arrange a meeting
I don't wanna ruin my degree just because I was too much of a pussy to ask for help when I needed it
made me sad for a while
even then, I didn't have the setup to mine when they were new. this was back in wotlk time in 2008 or 2009, don't know how early it was. my parents wouldn't have bought a decent setup anyways so I wouldn't have been able to mine
I read up about them from a world of warcraft blog that a rogue (buddhist, if anyone remembers his videos) and he posted about them, and mining them. I thought it was a scam or something so I didn't bother...
even if just bought like a couple for cheap you could've made a few grand or so after a few years
I probably would've been an idiot and spend them on the drug marketplace anyways
I'd be more mad if I was one of those who fell for the bitcoin mining/investing meme a year or two ago.. I remember seeing them in the news more often then, and straight after the price of them dropped a heap
that was definitely thee catalyst
I used to be able to smoke green all day every day, take whatever drug else and there'd be no negative side effects (apart from the comedowns)
now if I smoke a joint or if i'm coming of drugs i'm a nervous wreck
every time I go home from uni it's basically me just taking time to repair my psyche until it's time to go back
LSD really is a love/hate thing for me, I honestly have no idea why some people think it's some drug that is safe for everyone, a lot of people get fucked by it.
Do you suffer from the brain fog too?
sounds gay but sometimes I don't feel like me anymore
Mate I'll happily talk to you about this for a while because I know exactly what you mean
it's a fucking crazy dangerous drug, the time it snapped me i was having a fantastic time then something happened and I can't explain it I just sat in a catatonic state of paranoia for the next 4 hours
and yeah I get the brain fog thing, it definitely sends your mind into an 'existential crisis sensation'
but that's literally what consciousness expansion is
I know that's true but it fucks some people up when it makes you realise your shortcomings in your personality and character, can't do anything but dwell on that anymore and I guess it's a simple case of the truth hurts
>because it brings preexisting mental issues in early that would have come to the surface by their 30s anyway
there were things about myself that I'd become completely comfortable with throughout my teen years and after taking lsd I've been a wreck about them ever since
Because there are many white people who want to be friends and fuck guys just because they're black. Pretty shallow though and it can't be much better being treated like a pet by lefties than getting shit from skinheads.
I get the vibe that black guys don't like me because they think i'm trying too hard to be friendly around them or something, same with trannies and stuff though they always look at me like i'm being patronising
i'm just a genuinely friendly guy though literally talk to everyone the same way
Could one of you tech savvy lads tell me how to change icons for certain video files?
I've downloaded some animays and some have the custom icon like you can see in the image, it's the cover of each of the blurays.
I want to do that for my other shows but don't know how.
I remember seeing screencaps on early /biz/ of people crying on reddit after they bought at the peak and lost a lot, or guys that spent thousands on unprofitable mining rigs. There was one where someone either took out a big loan or spent all his savings of them and ended up near completely bust. Never knew why people would do that but I guess hype can do things to people.
>get yourself a 5/10 or lower gf
>use her to gain experience in relationships/get some sex
>ditch her once you've levelled up enough to get stronger in confidence
>go after a 6/10 or higher gf with your new experience
It's only the same as a slut using a guy as betabux and leading him on.
aaah I see, that's not even a meme that's what every chad under the sun has been doing for years
throw all the 5/6/7's a fuck and settle down with a trophy 9 or 10 wife
it's just that all the lower tier girls have deluded themselves into believing they're better than they are instead of realising they're on the carousel
I'm not them but I too feel different after doing the LSD that I ordered. I did a little too much one time, 800 (8x100ug)
Basically I was laid in my room and I kind of melted into the room. Became one with it kind of thing. I began to see what I was hearing like colours for the sounds, and I could feel each pitch change. Then the door started to fade away and I started to panic. I was in a box, I didn't know where I was. I ended up pissing on the fucking carpet, waking my mum up spouting random shit.
I haven't been the same since, but to be honest, I understand myself more, I understand that I have low empathy, and I understand now that I have to go and talk to a psychiatrist because something is missing. It always has been, but I didn't realise.
welcome to the acid victim, friend
what you're missing is a whole bunch of grey matter and a good dunt of your spinal fluid after fucking round with albert hoffman's abortion of a drug trial
>working part time
>salary is 320/month
>worked practically full time for December to cover a Christmas rush.
>anxiously waiting at midnight for payment
>expecting around 600ish, but not exactly sure what my hours were
>"payment of 207"
Even if they forgot to log my overtime, the normal salary payment of 320 should have gone though.
I've literally just had enough, this has been one of the worst weeks of my life anyway. I'm going to buy a coffee tomorrow and throw it in the face of the first person who agitates me even slightly. Don't even care if I get arrested, probably only get a caution for first time offence.
well it was stupid time to buy either way. people who bought rigs to mine bitcoin were stupid anyways. in later times you'd just have to mine a coin like dogecoin/litecoin (which were probably shilled to hell on reddit and only reason they were kind of succesful, because people had miners but bitcoin wasn't working, so they started making 100000 new coins to try con people into buying)
the darknet markets had got popular and the founde of silkroads freind got caught or something, and he was about to get busted as well... bitcoins value was only because of the darknet markets, so once they got cracked down on by authorities then the price of bitcoin would drop aswell.
then there was the exchange hacks/mt gox thing that happened
and all those other pump and dump coins like dogecoin, litecoin, shitcoin, whatevercoin that people tried to shill and take away from bitcoin as well.
Honestly, now that I think back it was 750 and Id had a brilliant experience on 400, but my eyes are bigger than my belly.
Don't get me wrong it hasn't fucked me up. Now that I actually look back on the last few years it finally makes sense. Why I was how I was was due to the traumatic experience I had which is completely unrelated to LSD. I delved in and it was made clear.
MicroSD card for my tablet. Pretty good price too, 15 quid for a 64GB Samsung one.
Pretty much filled it with animays already, I probably should have got the 128GB one but it was 45 quid
>I just don't give a fuck anymore
welcome to being an adult, don't sperg out about it just use it to your advantage
confront people who wrong you, don't take shit from normies
but for the love of god don't have a tantrum
>welfare got taken away
>can't find a fucking job
>need dosh for my roids and night clubbing
Fuck mates, I think I'll try out charity fundraisers, they give like 8-10quid an hour guaranteed and apparently they're nice enough to not fire you if you suck at it for the first month or so.
Anyone had experience with it? it'll also be good practice so I can just cold approach people better in the nightclubs since I get so much experience being blown off at work.
>Anyone had experience with it?
yeah it was awful
if you're a chad then it's made for you, if you're charismatic and good lucking people will happily talk to you and sign up
if you're an outgoing, dweebish kind of loser they sometimes take pity in the 'aww bless' kind of way
if you're afed up, jaded cunt like me you've got no chance
nice try yankidoodle, nice try.
good luck to ya bruv
one of the reasons I quit was because it cost me a tenner to fifteen buck in travel every day, you didn't start getting paid until half 3 but had to be there for 2, had a half hour unpaid teamchat at the end of the day which meant you were always late back
I was basically getting about 20-25 buck for being out of the house for 10 hours
it's 10am-6pm apparently, tho im sure they'll jew me out an hour or so.
Also using the weekly bus pass so it doesn't really matter, might have to go monthly so I can use every single bus company and not just first.
>Surely those negative effects must've already been ingrained in you and been triggered
not him but even the most non issue you have can be turned into a monomania driven obsession through taking that shit
it was a realisation about something about me too, but I haven't come out of it positive.
Can't do anything but obsess over it, if anything it magnified it as opposed to addressing it
Speaking from personal experience, my pay is shit because of a combination of income tax (I like claiming it all back once a year) and overestimating how much I worked. I also sometimes forget to clock in
There's 3 of us.
Think back to when it wasn't magnified. Do you notice any similarities? Ways that you acted seemingly unknowing, but due to the realization, you now know why?
For instance, with my empathy thing, it dawned on me that I've never actually loved anyone, not really, not even parents. I just assigned them a word that I thought fit what I should be feeling.
Like when I acted in blatant disregard of others, not giving them a thought, their rights, nothing. I don't feel anything like everyone else does, and I'm not being an edgy cunt either. It's missing, it always was, but now I know.
I'm at peace with it, and if anything, should use it to my advantage.
What about you two?
>"Charm and seduce her. After a few months take her to a quiet part of the country hinting at proposing, then smash her fucking head in with a hammer and bury her in a shallow grave" #WasteHerTime
Seriously tho, this shit is why I use escorts. Tinder girls are flaky and entitled shits, bitching about how they don't suck dick and other nonsense.
well it started when I remembered something which happened the day before
I was talking to someone I had had a decent (or so I thought) conversation with previously, I knew their name, they knew mine etc. I bump into them again and they forgot my name as well as everything else
I wasn't too bothered until I thought about it while tripping, then I remembered other times it happened to me, and similar occasions, and it made me realise I am a completely forgettable person, completely uninteresting. Made me realise how I have no real friends because of this, and remembered times when my "friends" were talking shit behind my back and how I was just tolerated by them.
There's more but that was one aspect, what was yours
>remembered times when my "friends" were talking shit behind my back and how I was just tolerated by them
been there but that just means your friends are assholes
for me people spread a rumour that I got a small doodle
like I'm a grower and it's not the biggest when flacid but i've neurotically, obsessively measured my boner so many times and despite it being completely average I've developed an unshakable inferiority complex
I've had 2, two year relationships as well and never had complaints, shagged a fair few birds and never had complaints
still can't shake the paranoia and feeling of inadequacy though
I do realise how crazy I am by the way
Hope it arrives on saturday
>made me realise I have no real friends
I see this as a positive thing, because now there's no fooling yourself. You're at the foundation, which is to be builder upon. You werent aware of this truth. Now that you are, you can react to it.
I'm a grower too I know the feel.
The way I think of it, if youre average, you're average. For every 1 bigger, there's another smaller. As for the inferiority complex, if you're fucking a girl they aren't thinking about how big your cock is, they live in the moment, and aren't capable of that thought at that moment. Women are incredibly scatty, and even if they did think it, who gives a shit, you can damage them for your benefit far more deeply mentally than you can ever be made feel inadequate.
yeah I know, I'm not even personally bothered by it but the neurotic paranoia is an inescapable side effect
it's like I'm perfectly capable of understanding how irrational it is but my brain still pangs and reacts with the anxiety regardless
it's consumed my psyche for the last couple of years but I figure it will pass with time
it's the consciousness of how ignorant and superficial people are about this shit which keeps feeding it