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>>8807507
1st.

Hey, I'm really anxious rn

>>8807558
I'm sorry to hear that anon- care to share?

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>>8807507
Ancient fossil hon.

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Im so confused.
What is this edition

Nocturnal ultra depression

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>>8807650
No..b happy

>>8807648
Venom snake edition

>>8807655
Easier said than donne. I lost to much years and can't come out due to repression driven choices :(

Ladies, I'm taking up pole again but this will be my first foray into it post HRT and I'm pretty worried about my core strength. I was used to operating on ladyvar and sarms but obviously I can't be doing the gear anymore. Long story short, what drugs can I take while on blockers and e that will help with overall strength gains? I lost sixty kilos lifting every day and it feels like I've lost an old friend.

>>8807576
People are disturbing, u know

How do I shave my legs but keep it a secret from family members

Living in a car sucks but living with new people again is horrifying.
I would keep car squatting except it's gonna get cold.

>>8807746
Wear pants all the time
That's what I do

>>8807705
Food, adrenaline, cardio

>>8807558
Second. I feel slightly disoriented all the time now.

>>8807756
Could just get a tdi and never turn it off...

>>8807761
What about my armpits

>>8807507
What's good all?

>>8807830
Estrogen's pretty great if we're being real here

>>8807809
T shirts duh

Last summer I was on oxy for 2 weeks and my hairy unshaved tit slipped out and my friend saw and I couldn't give a shit

>>8807801
What is that
I want a 4runner

I'm sorry

Went out with two cis girlfriends, they were talking all night about relationships. Come home depressed, wasting last energy to not go out to buy ciggaretes

>>8807888
Proud of u

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I'm fucking starving

>>8807894
Thanksss

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I feel so incompatible with the world.

>>8807846
i mean like ive been caught just like raising my arm

I miss my mooooooogles, but I don't want to get banned :'(

Lesbianism is a sin

>>8808004
You're a sinner, Lannü

>>8808004
Lannü is going to hell desu.

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>>8808004
it actually isn't

>>8808010
>>8808012
No I'm not I've seen the light

>>8808013
Transbian begone

>>8808022
go to bed, lesbo
if you don't I'm gonna drink room temperature lucky

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>>8808022
Elanna is this true or propaganda?

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>>8808022
it seriously isn't though

>>8808022
You should turn that light off, it's making you blind.

>>8807921
poor Amy

>>8808026
I mean it's not a fun surgery but all I ever got from this image was that she had a mix of bad luck, post surgical depression and unrealistic expectations.
Recovery is difficult and it doesn't make you cis, I've seen plenty of people that just expect they will walk out of the operating room with a fully formed uterus.

>>8808025
You should be sober with me for the next few days
Have the shakes with me.

>>8808034
Nuhh

Oh boy. It's September. Things get bad from here until spring n_n they've always been bad. School has always been bad
Even 2 years escaped that hell, I'm still traumatized like my depression cycles and bipolar structure follows that cancerous rhythm. Thankfully, it is gorgeous aesthetic so I tend to shuffle my hand of lovers or as close to lovers as are orbiting me I have to keep myself sane.

I met so many nice girls I used to avoid this year. I would have been mean last year, like a boy. This year, I'm trying to fuck more people - and show my tits to literally anyone who asks.

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How do I stop being less edgy?

Only the foolish are fooled by my pink sweater...i am still black nail polish and razorblades I'm basically an 8th grade girl inside. Like actually how to cope?

>>8808040
>Being sober
>Facing your feels head on and dealing with them instead
No thanks

>>8808026
I really don't want to have SRS. I don't want to put some objects into an open wound for the rest of my life to protect it from bleeding. From what I've read it hurts, it stinks, it bleeds… Really I think I'm happier with my current genitalia, I prefer having dysphoria than dealing with that pain. And what if the surgeon fails? Will I have to go back to Thailand every few months to get it repaired? I really am not rich. SRS sounds like a big scam that doesn't even help people. I also heard about a surgery which doesn't create the vaginal canal but just the external parts… maybe that's better, but still I don't know if I want to deal with the possible risks. I just want orchi, it makes it easier to tuck i guess.

>>8808052
protect it from healing***

>>8808050
You gotta deal with your feels sometime famalamadingdong. The bottle isn't your friend for more than a week or two, then it gets sinister.

>>8808061
is it possible to slowly ween off it so its not as bad?

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>>8808052
Said every trans woman who accidently ended on /pol/ when they were an edgy girl, about 2 - 5 years before surgery.

Remember what you are.

Or maybe you'll be one of the thousands who don't get it.

But don't fear monger and pretend it's something it isn't like a mentally ill man please.

>>8808052
>it bleeds
Hi I think you're confused about what vaginas are

>>8808065
Yeah

>>8808050
Hey I'm sober, I didn't drink last night and went to bed at the nice hour of 3AM

You can do it!

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http://www.strawpoll.me/13842213

>>8808067
I'm far from being /pol/, but the surgery just scares me ;-;. If someone can refute the things I wrote, I'd be happy.

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>>8808061
I'll deal with them at some point, but for now it's easier to sleep after the bottle

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my favorite thing about trannies is bashing their heads in as a reminder that everyone can tell

>>8808067
i can't read the post you replied to, but watching SRS surgery scared me a lot
looking at the diagrams of how its done (procedurally) scared me even more

I wish i was born with a vagina so badly so I didn't even have to think about this

>>8808079
The easy way isn't always the right way

>>8808084
Hate crime me mommy~

>>8808087
>I'm scurrrred!

You really need to try meditation or yoga.
Life is too short to live in constant fear.

>>8808090
if there was a direct link between AMAB part A and AFAB part A it would be easier to overlook...but they use the tissue you have to just make it LOOK LIKE a vagina as best they can

I can't ignore the fact the scrotum is used as the labia just because it looks like a labia

>>8808089
no, but at least it works for now

>>8808101
What r u running from?

>>8808101
my therapist thinks I drink because of internalized transphobia, hating myself for being trans and not accepting myself for who I am

>>8808077
Another repressed /pol/ trip trying to start an argument?

>>8808098
Spoiler: it's not a real vagina.


Shocked.

>>8808108
Are they right? Other women are doing just fine much worse conditions as I'm sure you're in. I'm not saying this is your choice, but it can be unlearned.

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>went back to hs campus for football game
>tfw sort of felt like I was still a student there when I first got in
>tfw then realized no one I remember is they anymore and nobody I knew was at the game
>tfw the loneliness set in immediately
>tfw left early and drove for a while to just think
>tfw I'm just a neet autistic tranny with no friends
>tfw reliving the one time in my life I had friends made it sting even worse than usual

>>8808118
Pretty sure they're joking

>>8808121
I dropped out and fucking hated high-school.
Get on tinder and put "here for friends" if you're not trying to fuck. I met like 30 people this year. I wish I was cuter I'd have met hundreds by now. 4 ended as lovers, 15 or so I blew off, and the others remained friends. Of those more than half are still around and closer now.

>>8808116
I'm not /pol/ >___<. I'm leftist and all my friends call me SJW, you can read my previous posts in the archive. I'm _just_ scared.

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Transgender way wah wah stfu

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>>8808040
So your recovery wasnt as bad as that persons was? Because their recovery sounds horrible. You dont do dilations or experience constant pain, do you?

>>8808052
I want srs because I want my penis and testicles removed, but it doesnt seem like this surgery gives very functional genitals. It also really worries me that there like isnt a standard way to do it, and surgeons change their surgery surgeon to surgeon. Thats a giant red flag to me, im pretty sure a heart transplant is supposed to go the same no matter the surgeon, you know what Im saying?

>>8808090
Thats how you get possessed by a demon, actually.

Is it weird to date someone that's basically the cis male version of yourself?

>>8808130
I know ;-;. But at least for me the risks don't outgrow the benefits tbqhon. I'm not THAT dysphoric about my genitals; I'd trade having a feminine face for having even two dicks.

>>8808139
No, it is reassuringly comforting, like dating your brother.

>>8808130
My recovery was rough and it was unpleasant, and I did have a bit of postsurgical depression. However the bleeding while dilating stops after you've recovered, and eventually you only have to dilate once a week.

It's very easy to feel like "oh wow I may have made a terrible mistake at least my penis wasn't a painful swollen numb wound". That person clearly got hit with it hard.

It's an invasive surgery with a brutal recovery and frankly I don't think enough care is put into telling people what they're getting into. That said, absolutely 100 percent worth it.

>>8808052
This is the logical response to SRS

>>8808067
>>8808069
>>8808130
>>8808116
These are retards

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>>8808146

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it's another "crying at night because I'm lonely" episode

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>>8808142
...D-did you just call me a hon?

>>8808145
I dunno Elanna Im scared.
Weekly dilation sounds awful still, but I guess thats better than daily...

>>8808152

>>8808160
;-;; i know the feeling, you're lying in your bed and you really just want to snuggle with someone but there's no one :(.

>>8808160
Hey I watch that episode every night..

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>>8808163
It's like half an hour out of your week, it's not painful either. Also, intercourse can substitute if you're having sex often enough. Idk I either piss around and watch YouTube or use it as an excuse to masturbate.
Small price to pay in the grand scheme of things.

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>>8808075
you know the answer to it

>>8808163
nooooooooo >_<<<< i just said "tbqhon" whis is like "t_b_h" but doesn't trigger the meme filter. i didn't call you a "hon", i don't even know how you look like >_>. also "hon" is a horrible slur which shouldn't be used basically, there's nothing funny or despicable about being misfortunate and having to deal with misgendering and heavy dysphoria for the rest of your life

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>>8808075
I was Blonde for most of my life.
Go red.
You wont look back.

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>>8808170
Maybe instead of laying in your bed you should get up and take a bath and put on some pretty clothes and go out and meet someone.
Then you wouldn't be alone.

my back hurts

>>8808189
>just go out and meet someone
but i'm a socially awkward twinkhon, i probably don't even like most people that you can find outside. when i'll get more passable i'll try to look for someone or find people online to meet with at least

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>>8808184
Ye I'm natural ginge, it's great!

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>>8808175
I guess, I also suppose its natural to be scared.
Do you feel more or less depressed post op compared to pre-op?
Does it feel like somethings missing? Perhaps on a spiritual level?

I just dont know Elanna I want a vagina but Im scared of cutting off a body part and all the post op painful stuff.

>>8808181
Thats good, thats good, lol I started using desu more desu cause I think the filters are cute. And yeah I agree, I pity hons I really do.

At the minimum, Im getting chin reduction before SRS, so well see how I feel after that...

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>>8808178
>>8808184
Conflicting answers.

I don't think I'd look good as a blonde.

I had red hair before but it was hard to maintain. I usually shower really hot and apparently to preserve color you need to do cold showers and use a special shampoo. Heck.

The plan was to wait for it to get really long, like to my waist, then cut it, and dye it at once.

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it would be pretty cool to be a girl i bet

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>>8808215
hugg

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>>8808212
you should embrace the Karen

someone please call me a girl to validate me thanks

>>8808206
After recovery less depressed, that's a distant memory. My body image has steadily improved since and I generally have a much healthier relationship with my sexuality (barring the orientation garbage). I really feel like it was a step that I needed to take to feel whole. That's how I feel about it after the dust settled, I don't in any way feel like I'm missing something, physical or spiritual.

In the end it's your decision. If I had to do it over, I would still go through the pain, it paid off for me in the end.

>>8808052
Where do people get that open wound meme from? Have you ever seriously looked into srs or do you get all your information from pol?

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>>8808223
Nup

>>8808215
patt beepy girl

Dear fuck every day is roastie fest and it gets worse

>be in office
>117 degrees today
>have to wear full suit
>sweating my tits off
>girls in jeggings and fancy tshirts with shawls covering
>ask if I can take my tie off
>that wouldn't be fair

FAIR TO WHO? YOU GET TO WEAR TSHIRTS AND SHORT DRESSES WITH FLIP FLIPS AND YOURE FORCING ANOTHER WOMAN TO DRESS LIKE A BOY AND DIE

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>>8808206
SRS is a lot easier to prepare for mentally if you had an orchi

I feel like something is missing occasionally but it's not a bad feeling

So it's like, might as well go all the way now, literally have nothing to lose

>>8808235
I know it's not an open wound technically, I was kidding, but you do have to worry if it doesn't heal… And it hurts… However I understand that neovagina is anatomically impressively close to a natural vagina, but still it's just intimidating how many risks and bad experiences it provides.

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>>8808241
Maybe you should actually present female instead of this weird guy/girl thing you're doing

>>8808247
I honestly don't see the risk. Even a fucked up vagina is better than a penis, unless you don't have a problem with your penis but why would you consider srs then?
Yeah a painful recovery isn't fun but that's what you should expect from a surgery like that. If that's too much for you don't do it.

>>8808251
>be me
>going home in workout clothes
>group of black guys coming my way

HEY a BABY WHERE YOU GOING

DUDE THATS A GUY

NO ITS NOT NO WAY

SWEAR TO GOD

ID FUCK HIS WHITE ASS

Pls no sexism it's annoying

>>8808257
ok so i just won't ;-; i understand someone may decide to do this, but i think it's too much glorified and also forced upon trans people

>>8808200
your hair is the same colour as foxes

>>8808264
They just beat me up when they see me.
I think they think I'm a weak little boy.
I'll show them, one day.
I'm stronk asf!

>>8808275
Ye ye, I love my hair, thanks :)

>>8808277
>Ye ye, I love my hair, thanks :)
oh, it wasn't a compliment, i hate foxes almost as much as i hate new zealanders

they're dumb animals (so are foxes)

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>>8808264
I'm not attacking you
I'm just really confused because you've had all your legal documents changed to F, had VFS, been on HRT for a long time, and you present male now. Or tend to present male or female depending on how it suits your situation (like saying you're lesbian to that person you were dating)
Are you just a nb or something

>>8808277
You have to be prettier and then they won't beat you up just put their penis in you

>>8808266
Where does it get glorified? If I look at big YouTubes who documented their surgery I don't get the feeling of glorification. You'll get a really painful story when you ask Sophie about her srs too.
You just heard elannas opinion.
Only cfh had like no serious problems and went window shopping two weeks after.
Maybe the outcome is glorified because it's generally pretty good if you see a good surgeon but nobody every glorified the recovery phase. Some people simply have it easier and others worse.

I also see no pressure to get it. There are so many dickgirls and so many guys looking for them lmao

>>8808282
The person I'm dating is andro and I say I'm a guy but dress like a girl with her and take a submissive role to her

I wear suits for my job, and then go next door and tuck and wear micro shorts and barely anything up top to pole dancing

>just dicking around and saying stupid shit from a video I watched a little bit ago
>forget I'm still on the mic with my bf
>tfw he probably heard my guy voice
;_;

>>8808279
O-oh... why do you bully me like this?

>>8808283
>me
>pretty
tfw everyone is bullying me today...
Also I don't want their penises, hmph!

>>8808266
Who's "forcing" MTFs to get SRS? If anything, the pressure is probably in the other direction, what with the huge amount of chasers out there who will tell you not to get it because they want to touch your peepee

>>8808294
gatekeeping doctors, families and people being like "so when are you getting the sex change surgery lol?"

Which trips are following Noahide law?

>>8808290
I'm gonna make Columbine look like a joke if you're not in bed before midnight

>>8808302
I was really close but I fucked up and ate the flesh of a still living deer

>>8808290
>O-oh... why do you bully me like this?
i want you to stop being nice to everyone all the time and unleash your inner meanie

we're going to toughen you up whether you like it or not

>>8808312
same

>>8808303
What if I want to get drunk?
I didn't last night and I was really sad.

>>8808315
N-no, I can't be mean, I'm surrounded by mean people and it makes me sick.
I want to make mean people not mean but I don't know how.

>read 250 pages of textbook today
>ruin sleep schedule staying up on the internet to reward myself

every time

>>8808288
>having a guy voice
u dun fuckd up

>>8808312
honestly was surprised someone knew what I was talking about

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>>8808321
Every ten minute you're awake after midnight I'll kill 10 innocent kiwi birds

>>8808321
>I want to make mean people not mean but I don't know how.
it's easy, all you have to do is act really mean to them so that they understand how much it hurts, then they'll stop and never be mean again

in fact, you should preemptively do that to people who haven't even been mean to you yet (think of it as sort of like a vaccination)

>>8808303
promises, promises

>>8808326
yeah i was raised jew

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>>8808327

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>>8808323
I'm trying
My girl voice is still andro faggy guy leaning
>>8808327
kiwi

>>8808338
Was thinking of converting and a bunch of places told me to just follow Noahide instead so I just posted it to see if someone else here coincidentally happened to be in the same position

>>8808294
Until recently, SRS was an absolute prerequisite for an ID change here. It's still an important argument in the current court process. I wouldn't have taken a loan to get SRS asap without that. I'm glad I did, though. It improved my quality of life more than I expected.

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>>8808331
You've made the list

>>8808327
That's sick.

>>8808328
N I literally can't, just the thought makes me sick.

>>8808339
Why would you do this?
Banned for gore honestly.

>>8808342
CUTE!

>>8808356
W-what list?

>>8808342
well then im sure ur bf wont really mind
>tfw my bf is away for a month and im a week in and im super lonely

>>8808360
>N I literally can't, just the thought makes me sick.
you are weak like a baby made out of meringue

this cold, cruel world is going to chew you up and spit you out like a wad of tobacco if you don't change your gentle ways

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>>8808360
Stay up past midnight and find out, you pseudo-Australian

>>8808371
i love the quick flash of true blue evil amid the war atrocity pics

>>8808371
>psuedo-Australian
that is offensive to Australians everywhere

>>8808371
hey coworker-chan, how is your evening going? are you drinking yourself into oblivion and worrying about your gender again, or are you switching it up a bit tonight? :3

>>8808366
Please stop..

>>8808371
Ok.

>>8808380
No it's offensive to NZers.

>>8808381
I'm getting drunk and playing Titanfall 2

>>8808380
Should have incorporated them when you had the chance

>>8808361
Hugg
I'm just really self conscious when it comes to my voice and my thoughts tend to spiral out of control when I get really anxious our self conscious
>>8808360
The noise the kiwi makes in the game is super cute too

>>8808385
>Please stop..
don't worry allie, we'll make you better even if it kills you

>>8808405
How is trying to turn me into a bully making me better?

>>8808411
people are going to be mean to you when you start girlmoding but aren't 100% passing yet, especially your religious family, so we have to toughen you up ahead of time and make you able to handle it, otherwise you'll just end up crying, repressing and maybe attending some sort of camp to pray the trans away

>>8808416
But I'm never going to tell my family, and I'm not going to girlmode till I pass, even if that's after FFS.

>>8808421
You'll just walk around as a man with your huge nipples protruding through your shirt.
Okay.

>>8808421
>But I'm never going to tell my family, and I'm not going to girlmode till I pass, even if that's after FFS.
you have terribly unrealistic expectations if you think that your family won't find out you're a tranny, or that you'll suddenly switch to girlmoding one day and pass 100% flawlessly

this is why the bullying is needed

yaeoo

>>8808476

yaeoo to you too

Cease bully, I am innocent.

>>8808425
No I'll hide them.
There are ways.

>>8808437
Ofc I'm not going to switch to girlmode in one day.

>>8808503
>Cease bully, I am innocent.
WE KNOW, THAT'S THE PROBLEM

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i dont want to cry anymore it cant be like this everyday

>>8808509
Why is innocence bad?
Why are you trying to get me to mean to people.
You are a bad person, I wish I could help you.

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TICK TOCK ALY

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tfw going crazy

Are there any religions that accept trans people?
Which??

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Started estrogen and spiro a week ago and I feel really good. I don't pass and I barely care. Like, I feel almost sorta high. This is so great, it's like mellow oxy.

is anybody else really bipolar when it comes to how masculine they look? i feel like 50% of the time i look feminine and the other 50% of the time i have a really masculine face, it's like it changes appearance daily

>>8808525
that's what it's like to feel hope
hope is a mirage though
now how do you think it's gonna be withdrawing from that hope and dealing with the reality of life in a downhill adventure to suicide

>>8808519
Nu, I'm still deciding weather or not I want to get drunk alone and shitpost all night.

>>8808524
don't think this is a good way to look at religion

>>8808524
Mine.
We are the acolytes of the Tower that will cast down Mindless Nature.

>>8808514
it's only a matter of time before your naive and trusting nature gets you into a pickle jar that you can't unscrew your way out of - i mean, you've already fallen for the faye meme and chara preys on you

don't worry ally, everything's going to be okay

I have this weird constant feeling of terror for reasons I can't describe, and I've had it for months, but I don't think it's anxiety disorder

What's up with it, exactly? Anyone else have a persistent, constant feeling of terror in the back of their mind?

>>8808524
Mine does. Everyone who believes in the Christian god gets eternal punishment, everyone who would go to hell in Christianity gets eternal salvation in heaven

It's made entirely to spite Blaise Pascal

>>8808540
Like, what sort of fear. Are we talking doubt, or mortality?

>>8808533
I'll decide for you: you don't and you won't.

Here's a guide to what you're gonna do
>Find a blanket
>Lay it flat
>Lay down on the edge
>Grab the corner with your hand
>Roll over until you're a blanket burrito
>Enjoy a cozy snooze

>>8808523
hugg

>>8808539
>faye meme
What meme? She's cool, 10/10 would hang out with.

>chara preys on you
Lmao, that's funny, I'm not retarded enough to give her anything on me, I'm just trying (and failing obviously) to be a good influence.

>>8808545
But that would involve sleeping, and I don't want to do that.

>>8808544
Neither
It's not a thought, it's an emotion. A sort of fight or flight. You know the rush and discomfort you feel when you wake up and you can't find your keys, or when you suddenly remember an important deadline the previous day? That chilly sensation in your chest and across your spine? Imagine that, but spread out over time like cream cheese over a bagel. Not as intense, but constant, and with no reason. I can't relax.

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>>8808558
What you want and what's best for you aren't always the same thing. Look at my dog, do you see how comfy he is? This could be you

>>8808561
How have you been sleeping?
Regularly? In starts? Less than usual?

>>8808564
But I'm not a dog or a he, so it really couldn't.

>>8808564
>This could be you
are you calling ally a dumb dog

>>8808567
The "less than usual" has only been in the past week or two, but the constant fear has been for months and months. I think the sleep issues are just regular insomnia caused by staying up too late for too long, though.

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>>8808568
But you could have more alchohol for tomorrow if you sleep

>>8808570
Hmm. I'm not sure, do you notice any accompanying erratic behaviors?
Are you more or less careful? Have you felt something like this before, is it a reoccurring period?

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>>8808568
What I meant was you could be THAT cozy

>>8808569
I'll have you know he is a very smart boy who almost died and he's allowed to be as comfy as he wants

>>8808572
So are you saying it's better to drink on a Sunday night that a Saturday night?

>>8808575
funnily enough, your dog kinda looks like a fox too

also, why did your dog almost die, and was it because you fed him chocolate or canadian cuisine

please make crying stop forever

>>8808573
I'm not going to lie, I can't remember. I can't reliably remember what I was like more than about 6 months ago. I don't notice any accompanying erratic behaviors, insofar as I'm already pretty erratic and careless. I've dealt with feelings of fear and worry for years and years, but I THINK this specific feeling is relatively recent, in the sense that it isn't associated with any cause I can think of.

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>>8808579
He was in a kill shelter and no one was adopting him so he was gonna be put down on Friday. We called on Thursday and had him brought up to us and now he's my best friend. We think his old owner beat him because he rolls over and is submissive when you go to pet him

>>8808583
Hmm. Do you have regular access to a physician? I tend to believe in gut instincts. When is the last time you had a check up?
You might wanna get yourself checked out. Just in case and all that

Failing that, are you isolated?

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>>8808585
> We think his old owner beat him because he rolls over and is submissive when you go to pet him
give me his name and address

my baseball bat wants to have a word with his kneecaps

>>8808589
Probably some homeless guy in San Bernardino. My other dog was kept tied up in a hockey net at a trap house before the SPCA took him so add them to your list too

buy me cypro ty

>>8808593
That fert has a lot of eyes

>>8808588
I'm at college, so I could go to student wellness if needed. I tried explaining it to my psychiatrist about a week ago, but she just upped my dose of lamotrigine (I'm on 100mg lamotrigine and 75mg venlafaxine)

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>>8808590
gonna carve them up like a couple of christmas turkeys

>>8808558
You are fucking stupid and naive Ali, you fall for these people far too easily. You will regret it. They are both very bad people and I hope that you see that before it is too late.

>>8808602
Ya you get em

>>8808609
Excuse me maam this is a no lewd zone

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>>8808612
What are you going to do about it?

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>>8808613

>>8808603
I don't understand why people are like this to me..
It's just wrong..

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hugg

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>>8808623
Almost bed time, Ally

>>8808626
That is like, far too early to go to bed.

>>8808629
You can have 40 minutes

I'm drinking tea and eating ice cream like a good girl, no alcohol.

>>8808632
You better be. If I find out you're drinking the Kiwi birds get it

>want to play an alcoholic in CoC
>have never drank more than one drink per day in my life

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>>8808636
See look, it tea. Blueberry tea.

i want alcohol i want alcohol i want alcohol i want alcohol i want alcohol

>>8808641
Looks a little dark, I bet there's whiskey in that
THE KNIFES COMING OUT

>>8808643
No it's blueberry tea with honey!
Leave them alone!

>>8808641
why aren't you drinking black tea with milk and sugar?

>>8808642
Hey same, but I decided against it.

tfw i spend an hour in the shower getting the knots out of my hair and it gets knotty again right after i hop out

>>8808648
Because I no longer consume caffeine.

>>8808646
Its hard tea isn't it you liar? I bet your ice cream is swimming in a pool of vodka too

>>8808654
that's a fair defence of your actions

i'm gonna let it slide

>>8808655
Nu...
Why does everyone bully me...

>>8808657
What do you mean?

>>8808658
We bully because we care

Fuck, I can't sleep. Combination of the insomnia and sense of terror.

Maybe I'll wait until the convenience store opens and just buy some fucking cookies and milk or something

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I want to cuddle Kanna

>>8808659
You should stop, I get bullied enough irl, I would like to not have it here.

tfw no d for dragon boobs

>>8808658
>What do you mean?
i asked you a question and i was satisfied with the answer, so i'm not going to pick on you for it

>>8808677
O-oh, I was just shocked at a non bullying post.

>>8808680
Ally if I fall asleep first can I trust you to go to bed at a reasonable hour?

>>8808683
Probably not, but shouldn't you have gone to bed quite a while ago?

>>8808683
hey hippocrates, isn't it nearly 3am in british columbia right now?

why aren't you sleep? why do you hate restful slumber?

>>8808685
This is about you not me

>>8808687
2:48 and I have to be up at 6 to give my pup his pills but then I can sleep till noon

>>8808691
>2:48 and I have to be up at 6 to give my pup his pills but then I can sleep till noon
do you and your pup take your respective pills at the same time, because that's kind of cute if you do

Holy shit I just realised something about co worker chan, that I could use for intense bullying if I was a bully, but I'm not, so I won't.

>>8808691
Ok, but go to bed.

>>8808692
Cheeky but I don't take pills

>>8808695
Wait what

>>8808697
he
hee
heee

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>>8808699

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>>8808695
>Holy shit I just realised something about co worker chan, that I could use for intense bullying if I was a bully, but I'm not, so I won't.
yes, yeeees, you're getting there

and to think i was just about to give up hope and dump you on the nearest doorstep

>>8808700
>>8808701
I'm never actually going to do it though, it's just a fairly obvious thing that someone else will do or has done before.

>>8808703
Henlo.

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>>8808704
Do you realize how stressed you've made me? The threat of the joke is more damaging than actually telling it and now I'm upset and you know what that means?

You're a bully.

>>8808707
N-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-no, I'm sorry I didn't mean to..
What do I have do to make it up to you?
Anything that doesn't involve sleeping and I'll do it.

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whats up mitfug
how are you
everything g

>>8808710
You're a bully Ally

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>>8808703
Hi Sophie. How's you?

>>8808703
you arent allowed to post pictures sorry

>>8808712
G as heck, but apparently I'm a bully now..

>>8808714
No I'm not it was an accident...
I'll do anything..

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>>8808716
what why not

>>8808715
miserable.
have to wait for tomorrow to do opis again

>>8808704
Henlo Ally

>>8808721
>miserable.
>have to wait for tomorrow to do opis again
*hugs*

>>8808717
I don't associate with vicious bullies

i wish society didnt treat depression as always irrational and stupid, like there arent real things that hurt everyday, if i kill myself to stop the hurting then it is rational, not some person who is stupid and doesnt think straight

So guys I'm turning my trip off and I'm going to head back into repression and stop hrt. Thanks for the help and advice and good luck

>>8808725
*sad apologetic noises*

>>8808729
Ikr, my family are the type of people who don't believe in mental illness, they're just like, get over it son.

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>>8808729
>you feel trapped and hopeless and powerless in your life?
>you feel like you have no control over a sad series of events?
>you want to kill yourself?
>we're going to chuck you in a prison
>then strip away your rights
>then pump you full of brain altering chemicals
>and forcibly interrogate you torture in Afghanistan style
>then kick you out with a $270,000 bill
>and permanently stained background check ruined credit score
>THIS IS HOW YOU BECOME HEALTHY
>THIS IS HOW YOU BECOME HAPPY
>WE ARE HELPING YOU

>>8808733
Too little too late
You got me fucked up

>>8808731
you're welcome

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>>8808703
Hallo o/

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>>8808742
relateable gif

>>8808723
going on a date with bf today, at least thats nice

>>8808736
I-I think you're being a bully now...
You got me all fucked up.

>>8808745
>going on a date with bf today, at least thats nice
OMG! Wish i had a date.
Hope you have fun.

>>8808704
>I'm never actually going to do it though, it's just a fairly obvious thing that someone else will do or has done before.
can you at least tell me so i can make sure not to accidentally bully coworker-chan in the future

if it's not being short, repressed or canadian, i'm drawing a blank

>>8808752
No, also none of those things are reason to bully someone, there are no reasons to bully anyone.

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>>8808752

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>>8808761
bad feel :(

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>>8808761
leafs will be dying off soon anyway, autumn is cruel to them

>>8808758
MERINGUE BABY

>>8808769
>MERINGUE BABY
I don't get it.

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>>8808768
>>8808769

Im really happy in autumn tho..the leaves get so much color, the weather gets mild, lots of rain and all in all completely relaxing

This is a PSA to let everyone know that Alison is not a bully.

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>>8808784
bully me mommy~

Why are we bullying Canadians?

>>8808784
You are allowed to bully me with love and headpats

>>8808786
W-w-w-what did she mean by this?
I'm not bully..
O-or a mommy..

>>8808789
That isn't bullying that is nice so ok.

i forgot to eat

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>>8808792
>tfw you never forget to eat

>>8808345
following the noahide law won't let you become a powerful zionist.

people have naked pictures of me saved on their computer and it makes me feel ugly on the inside

>>8808791
Nuh uh, it's a lovely way of bullying!!

>>8808796
Why did you give them out in first place?

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>>8808784
history is written by the victors

>>8808797
desperate attempts to find some worth in myself while i was crying

Just ordered my first three months of HRT from inhouse. Swedish mtf here, and our gatekeeping system is retarded.

>>8808798
This is lies and slander anon, and bullying.

>>8808799
I think i might not understand...but you can't change it anymore can you? So you have to live with it and deal to live with it *pats*

>>8808798
Dont bully her

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>>8808796
This is why I never give out any nudes with my face in it. Could be any girl really.

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How shit do i look from 1-10?

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>>8808808
>that lovebite

>>8808796
are you a trip?

>>8808810
I stayed at bfs place for 3 days
I have them all over me atm

>>8808811
not particularly

i dont like when the sun rises

>>8808805
Y-yeah, I'm not for bully.

>>8808818
well too bad there are no tidally locked planets in the solar system

>>8808807
Yesh rule #1 always crop out face

>>8808808
Can't say anything about the 1-10 part, but you look cute

>>8808833
*pokes* only bully with love!

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>>8808833
What's a Faye meme

>>8808840
H-how does one bully with love?

>>8808843
I have no clue, but apparently I have fallen for it.
I was probably being bullied by anon, it happens a lot..

>>8808838
I look like complete garbage
Like a man, a gross man with long hair

>>8808845
Fiiirst, you have to suprise the other person with lots of hugs and pats.
Then you have to find their weakspots, like, are they ticklish? Which places are really sensitive?
So after you hug them, you start bullying them with their weakspots.
This is a part of bullying with love!

>>8808848
Bish you asked me what i thought and i told you i think you look cute. What you want to think about yourself is not my business.
In my eyes you look cute.

And another day of self loathing

>>8808833
if you reallyy weren't for bully, then you wouldn't have been made so bulliable

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>>8808851
only one tho, back on drugs tomorrow

>>8808854
I'm craving magic mushrooms :)

>>8808850
B-but I have no one to do this to..

>>8808853
You can chose not to bully me though, no one is making you..

>>8808848
that's not true

you look exactly like the sort of person who would appear if i rubbed a magic lamp and asked the genie for a really cute gf

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>>8808857
I am craving opis

>>8808859
Aww :< but why? You really seem bullyable~

>>8808857
>>8808862

Drugs are bad mkey

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>>8808862
I am craving dick!

>>8808873
consider boyfriends

>>8808863
In what way?
Why do so many people see me as bullyable?
It's not fair..

I would like to be not bullied and I do not fall for memes because there are no memes.

Thank you all.

>>8808875
Because you seem adorable!
Gives one the feeling of wanting to hug you and bully you and squeeze you!

>>8808845
its actually a pretty common meme to say "x person is shit youll be sorry" here its bait

>>8808860
Thanks for the hugbox anon

>>8808881
But I'm not though, I'm ugly and alone and will stay that way forever.

>>8808884
Yee I thought so, not that I'd listen lol, It's more fun to form my own opinions desu.

>>8808890
Well i'll hug you anyway. Your reactions are adorable and everyone deserves hugs.

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>>8808873
hot

>tfw intoxication fetish

>>8808892
Nu...

>>8808888
it's not a hugbox, i think you're one of the cutest people who post here, in both looks and personality

maybe you should check with your bf (that guy who fuggs you) in case you're uncertain though

>>8808898
No is not allowed! *pokes*
You are def. huggable.

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>i have a folder of pictures i stare at to induce dysphoria and hate myself
>i dont want to be a monster anymore

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>>8808874
I seriously need that boyfriend thing everyone's talking about!

>>8808903
I'm really not, I'd have a panic attack and maybe pass out.

>>8808899
But bf is biased tho

>>8808916
Oh...sociophobia or scared of another persons warmth? How about starting with just a poke and see how you react? o.o

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>>8808916
>allie will never pass out in front of you so you can draw dicks and butts on her face in permanent marker

>>8808890
Im a good boy