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>>8696205
Finish the fight, indeed.
In all seriousness, suicide is the best option right?
>>8730589
No, never. That would be surrendering. You have to continue the fight.
>>8730611
Does this mean I have to shave my head and start listening to The Exploited again?
>>8730824
Yes, soldier. That's an order.
>>8730589
I'm starting to think that way
The only true path is taking the mones anon.
Repression was a mistake, trust me.
You will find out on your own, someday.
>>8731201
can i at least still be a guy anyway
>>8731209
depends, do you even want to be a guy?
Back to repressing after 3 years of hrt and ffs.
Still don't pass so it's back to being the man I was meant to be
>>8731212
not if i could help it but nothing could make me pass
>>8731218
angie stop being a memester
>>8730611
>fight yourself
>the way to ultimately win is destroying yourself
>>8731246
Damn it.
My memes never get past the mtfg masses
>>8731391
But if you're fighting yourself, you lose at the same time and that cancels your win.
>>8731710
Pyrrhic victory I guess, but what else can you do
>>8731246
Her man body is no meme
>>8731731
That's not a Pyrrhic victory. A Pyrrhic victory is where you've won but exerted so much effort for that victory that it's not worth the victory anymore. You're just self-defeating.
did shoulder day today
feels good
>>8732224
Good for you, Spartan.
>>8732256
In Spartan we believe
>>8732138
post it so we can remind him how he's supposed to stop this insanity and go lift some weights.
/repgen/ seems really slow lately. If this thread dies we're fucked. I get it Spartan is fine now and he's probably trying to distance himself from this shithole so we'll need someone to take his place.
>>8732138
Hardly a man body.
Waist is 28" and hips are 38"
Shoulders suck but I'm working on getting my hips bigger
what is the gen.? can someone explain
>be me, 18
>look in the mirror
>see horrible manthing
>ohgodpleasekillmealready.jpeg
>another day
>look in the mirror
>see something similar to pic related
>notbad.png
I might actually be a tranny.
>>8730547
I feel like shaving my head and binding but maybe it's because I'm so fucking stressed. Transition was a success, stealth blabla but I'm a lonely self-hating fuck who just turned 24 aka near-30 aka almost-dead aka whats-the-point. I am such a dude pls kill me :(
Still could never talk with a deep voice though, same with facial hair
>>8732965
BITCH IF I HAD YOUR BODY I WOULD BE A GODDAMN WOMAN BY NOW FUCK U
>>8732961
>/repgen/ seems really slow lately. If this thread dies we're fucked.
OP here. You guys aren't going to like this, but I'm a full blown SRSified tranny. I created this thread as a gesture of goodwill. I used Master Chief in honor of Spartan.
>>8733089
So /repgen/ really is falling. I won't have anywhere to post I guess.
>>8733074
Who cares?
I still get clocked at times
>>8733140
Good. Get the fuck off the board failed trannies. we don't need ANOTHER whining thread for you.
kek repgen is dead, it's transition or suicide.
JUMP SHIP.
JOIN THE /REPGEN/ DISCORD
FUCK THE HONS ON /LGBT/
https://discord.gg/cjJPjZ
>>8733151
Congrats on the activity in your dumb gay threads :^)
>>8733151
But I started a new thread for you after the old one died.
>>8733188
don't listen to the retards, whoever made the new thread, thanks.
>spartan
does /rep/gen seriously aspire to be a bipolar tranny who claims to be "cured" every other month
>>8733251
nah Amy is basically a dead weight to us, can you take her back, /mftg/ ?
>>8733271
But he seems to be cured, getting rid of him by sending him to /mtfg/ would be stupid.
>>8733268
nah
she behaves like this every single time
>>8733268
Bipolars go into remission all the time. Then their mood swings take them back.
Noob here
Who's Spartan
Who's Amy
>>8733295
bipolar tranny who claims to have beaten dysphoria every time she gets manic
>>8730589
yes.
>>8730589
Nah, give it time and you'll stop caring, like me.
Oh god all hope is lost
a (you) would be sweet right now
: (((
>>8732961
Workouts are really for tiring me out and it's nice to use up my energy
I mean I only come here because it's a comfy littler general among the other ones I browse
But I have crisis driving my post activity anymore
>>8733251
>posting pre actualisation quotes when I was in the middle of crisis
Not accurate
>>8733271
>>8733277
>>8733286
It's officially a month clean. Healthiest thing I've done.
Mind stabilised, male relaxation back etc
>>8733320
The only time I'm high now is when I in a workout breaking prs feeling like a literal god lol
>>8733420
>>8733552
thank. I hope you are well <3
hgnhn chris evans is my personal 9.9/10
>>8733580
>me too years ago, i thought i could be but not anymore
To be fair, that has happened to me before but it's been so long since the last time I felt bad that I think I am actually cured. Just to make sure, what is the longest you've had dysphoria go away just for it to come back?
>>8733555
Beta blockers got me over the first jump and blocked out all "dysphoria" of anxiety based symptoms
Then Reintroduction of muscle work fired up my hormones back to stable levels and it's been a easy month since then, been sober and active and not a care in the world
>>8733560
Yah he's hot <3
>>8733580
I'm gonna sleep now cause my shoulders need the sleep to rebuild
>>8733600
i usually forget about it when i'm working
spending time in girlmode didn't make it go away. it just made me sad to see how cis people are so effortless,
and i'm just this lonely thing
going back to my male hobbies was one of the few things i actually enjoy
So where do you all see yourselves in a decade?
Still repressing strong?
>>8733832
>So where do you all see yourselves in a decade?
I cant see my self in a decade, probably why I didn't transition in highschool.
>>8733832
>>8733832
I don't have a clue whatsoever.
Has anyone else here just stopped feelingblike shit and just gone full apathy? I don't have the drive or the energy to do anything.
Anyone else had crippling dysphoria hit then at a time when the rest of their life is going great? I finally make decent money, have friends I actually like, am buying an apartment and girls actively want to fuck me. Yet I just want to die.
>>8735675
I don't want Spartan to go.
>>8735679
:(
I hope Amy leaves, people with BPD are cancer desu. They should all be part of the 40%
>>8735776
I'm cured tho
>>8731246
I'm not really memeing
I still get clocked sometimes.
I'm pretty much just going o be an androgynous blob from now on. Take her still but present in both male and female
I'm so deep into repression that I can't even play female characters. I get a great feeling for a few seconds and then my concious part comes crashing down on me and I just feel like shit. I'm not even trying to repress anymore, I'm just not trapping myself because I'm not sure I'm really trans, I'm just confused. Guess I'll end up an heroing at 40.
>>8733600
>what is the longest you've had dysphoria go away just for it to come back?
I repressed from 17->22, so 5 years. If you really want to repress, my advice is to never start hrt. Once you know how it feels, it's so hard to go back.
>>8735988
>tfw feel better now I'm back on t
Lucky dodge
>>8735988
>Once you know how it feels, it's so hard to go back.
Tell.
>>8735988
>my advice is to never start hrt.
Yes.
>Once you know how it feels, it's so hard to go back.
Had no problems here, I was on HRT for over a year and I'm feeling totally fine without them.
>>8736011
Anxiety was gone 48 hours after starting AA. Depression went away shortly after, once I'd started estrogen. Two weeks in, happy emotions started coming back, felt like my life had an actual purpose for once. Two months in, confidence went way up, made friends, got a job, started taking care of myself. I don't want to be a hon, so I'm just living like a poorfag until I can afford ffs and yeson. I don't think I can ever go back to testosterone.
>>8736019
I didn't feel any dysphoria from 19->21. I really did think it was gone for good.
Tfw getting vitamin d
>>8736039
>Anxiety was gone 48 hours after starting AA
Lol, yea.
That's just euphoria/your fetish talking.
>>8736043
>Sounds like clinical depression. Every winter is like that.
Meh, I guess. I'm probably not a tranny even, I just lurk here because shits and giggles.
>>8736052
When did it come back and how bad was it?
>>8736067
It came back last spring, and I was basically suicidal. I was at the point where I either had to order the skittles or die.
>>8736073
I remembered I felt that way in February when I cracked and didn't know what was going on and being gaslit by mtfg
Now that I'm off it and reconciled my inner self with my outer self I feel stronger and understand I'm a very attractive male and I enjoy my male privilege and activities more now and won't be taken by surprise again
Like immunisation, actualisation, Evolution
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9CuaJZpxK0
>>8736073
I thought I was at that point some months ago but I decided to wait and now it seems to be gone.
>>8736011 >>8736019
On HRT it all faded away and I had similar effects to >>8736039
Could experience all the emotions again, the joy I had forgotten existed. No more stupid anger and far less anxiety
(I've been terribly anxious having hard time simply going outside and being in any social situation, I had to drink or take benzos to get a relief, it was crippling. I hated myself so much I never wanted anyone to see my face)
I know there is certain placebo effect and conscious believe you're making a good change
>life had an actual purpose for once
but you cant write of the anti-anxiety effects,I never expected it to be this positive.
Then I stopped. And in a week all the good feels slowly evaporated and then bad thoughts and anger creeped in. Feeling suicidal all day after seeing my face in the morning. I can never look even close to female so why bother.
I might try antianxiety and some antidepressants to cope. I used to be on ADs and just party all the time and drugs/drinking to feel good and not think about any problems - I never thought I was trans back then.
>>8736064
Why would you be here at all? Depression develops from dysphoria for so many trans people
but if you are not trans, then normal therapy and antidepressants should help you.
>>8736262
>Why would you be here at all?
Look, I just don't know anymore.
>>8736299
RUN!
>>8736795
I wish I could.
>>8735941
Why not kill yourself now? Waiting for something good to happen?
>>8737450
Waiting for my parents to die first.
It would hurt them.
Why are you so angry?
>>8737480
>main reason to live is my ex who doesn't really have any other friends unless you count his mom
>5 years younger
>>8737480
I guess I would have killed myself already if not for the parents.
I'll have to fake an accident to not make them feel guilty.
How fucked am I, boys?
>wanted to be a girl since about 12
>on and off phases of extremely unbearable dysphoria
>one maybe for a few months a year
>sometimes 6 months
>still get them now
>currently 19
>not a hope in high hell of passing
What do?
>Tfw body radiates heat again
>look good without a shirt again thank a to muscles coming back
>>8737626
How long does it last and for how long is it usually gone?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dV3xB-bxD1k
Goku=you
Beerus=dysphoria
https://medium.com/@jencoates/i-am-a-transwoman-i-am-in-the-closet-i-am-not-coming-out-4c2dd1907e42
Earlier tonight, I read this piece and cried.
...then I googled for it, looking for more by the same author, and instead found all of the reactions to it by all the out trans women i thought i respected on twitter. Now I'm crying a different kind of tears.
>>8738865
PS I know you namesearch yourself, Zinnia. I was there in that thread last week, defending you.
>>8738865
Links to the reactions? We all need to know which out trans women to stop respecting.
Apparently if your dysphoria isn't strong enough to make you suicidal, or at least strong enough to overcome all of your rational and irrational fears of the consequences of transitioning, your pain isn't worth anything and deserves to be mocked.
>>8738914
No, I'm not going to send a mob to their doors. I only mentioned Zinnia because - well, she namesearches herself. I thought there might be some tiny chance of starting a dialogue. She didn't even have nearly the worst take.
>>8738931
As if /repgen/ is a mob. This isn't /b/, this isn't even /mtfg/. This is just sad people like you and the author who want to know, when listening to prominent trans women, who loathes and hates them.
>>8738943
4chan is still 4chan, and /pol9k/ is always lurking in the background.
>>8738931
Since you've named Zinnia you might as well link to her post about how worthless and falsetrans we are.
>>8738951
What do you think someone would even do? Post on /pol/ "please harass these trans women - because they're cruel to other trannies"? Even ignoring not my personal army, even ignoring the fact that /pol/ would only like those trans women more for their hate and side with them, they're already public figures. They already get all the harassment from 4chan that they're going to, unless you think /b/ and /r9k/ are just holding back until we give them the signal and pick targets for them.
>>8738865
I cried too at how much autistic sjw bullshit was in that piece. Just damn. Edit that shit.
>>8738974
She might be an SJW but she's one of us.
>>8738976
"She", "one of us", are you on the right thread? This is /repgen/, we're men here.
>>8738970
Whatever. I'm not going to do it. I didn't find anything you can't search yourself in five minutes. Any list I'd make would be more "whose opinions I cared about" than "who had bad takes on this" anyway.
>>8738991
>you can't search yourself
Oh, quit flattering yourselves. You're all shit at research and debate. I've never ran into so many no arguments only insults until I started laughing it up on this board. It's like a gaggle of hormone ridden high schoolers calling each other queer face and poofter all day long, forming little shitscord cliques along the way.
All the while you read up all the garbage diarrhea'd down from 4chan's rotten asshole and pretend it means you know the world. That a bunch of "18"-25 yos posting anonymously know the secrets to life (KEKE WILLS IT brother). Which is why you all end up making nonsense personal army requests on here whenever someone violates the clique's order.
>I leave here for a few months and Amy is still pretending to be a guy
How many times had she said she'd throw away her HRT? How many times has she gone right back on it?
Seriously Amy, what will it take to stop you from repressing your inner girl.
>>8739283
Spartan is a true warrior. He's had a difficult fight against dysphoria, but he's never given up. He always manages to escape the snares of /mtfg/.
>>8739228
Case in point. I'm pretty sure 90% of this board is phoneposters churning out one line "wonders" like this.
Did we really want the Reddit audience? Truly?
>>8736101
You're going to ruin Synthwave for me if all I can think about while listening to it are your insane macho shitposts.
good music tastes though I suppose.
>>8739550
>curehonnery 2.0
Does anyone else think it would be much easier to consider transitioning if you were already outwardly gay / feminine? I've presented myself as nothing nothing but a gruff straight guy all my life which is why I could never foresee anybody taking this seriously.
>>8738987
>we're men here.
No we aren't.
>>8739876
We fucking are
>>8739882
Then what are we repressing?
>>8739785
Yup, this is basically my situation.
>>8730547
I have traveled far from the land of /v/. Is this a haven for gamers or is the pic in related.
>>8739283
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ZN_D4KGEms
A month off hrt and no bad effects but positive effects
I think that settles my case
>>8739888
Mental illness
>>8739899
Lots of people here are gamers, but even if you're a homo or a tranny, you're better of running as far away from here as you can.
>>8739919
:^)
>>8739888
A disease that's trying to trick us into thinking we're something we're not.
>>8739907
Cheers Spartan.
3rd day in boy mode.
Stopped hrt
Living life
>93kg x 7 lat pull perfect form
COME THE FUCK ON!!!!!! YEAAAH
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9CuaJZpxK0
>>8740419
>wanting to be goku when you can be caulifla
>>8740927
That's not how skeletons work
HRT would make me a flabby butter ball
Only with muscles can I raise my TDEE
>>8740927
Who the fuck is that? Also
>Wanting to be that thing when you can be Videl.
I shiggy diggy.
>>8741016
No lol
>>8739006
you have severe lack of reading comprehension and ego problems, autismo
are you Nines?
>>8741035
imagine looking like this when your repression dam breaks
>>8741148
I like that look
It's called accepting being old
>>8741016
>universe six version of Goku
>>8741148
His face looks a lot more masculine than when he was younger. I don't know how much of that is due to test and how much due to surgery though.
>>8741952
yep, like I said you would have to watch super to understand
Cure, pm me please
>tfw know I'm trans and maybe have a chance at passing but too pussy to actually get hormones
>>8744433
be passable is just one obstacle
living as a woman fulltime is the real test
>Attempted transition for years
>Obviously not working
>Should cut my hair short again but doing so would be totally giving up and letting my wannabe girl self go
Weird how I needed to build courage to start HRT, but now have to build myself up again to stop and throw it all away.
>>8744484
What possible difficulty is there to living as a woman fulltime besides passing?
Am I welcome here?
>>8745288
Are you gonna shill for HRT?
>>8745288
>expecting us to know the bio's of every tripfag
what are your circumstances?
>>8745288
No, you take hrt and thus have a feminised mind
>>8745283
1. being around (any) cis woman is a reminder you'll never be at their level, but rather a mere imitation
2. learning or trying to get experience of life as a fem. you're literally about 20 yrs behind in life experience
3. losing your family/friends/work b/c you're a tranny
4. knowing you'll could have done more as cis because you didn't have to spend/lose so much time/life addressing gender issues and transitioning
4. worrying about becoming a hon when you get older, for example the dad body happens to most males later in life
>>8745292
I won't
>>8745294
>Started HRT at 24
>It did nothing
>Hair won't grow longer than an inch so I just shave my head bald.
>Only time I look remotely female is in full drag (makeup, wig covering half my face)
>Completely suck at voice training, made zero progress despite hours of trying, gave up after 3 months
>220 lbs so still fuckhuge
Yeah I'm just a big bald dude who sounds like Sargon of Akkad apparently. /mtfg/ thinks I pass because they saw cropped photos of me in a wig and makeup but I really don't IRL. Never ever ever been ma'med.
Started cutting again and I feel better. Wierd. I guess I just need something to ground me otherwise I just worry about problems that aren't there.
teehee
silly boys
teehee
I have been out with my sister dress shopping and getting makeovers and manicures and getting hair extensions
teehee
I am so glad I stayed on hrt and didnt repress again like a dummy
teehee
>>8745450
how did you get your sister to be into feminizing you?
>>8745450
>faceapp bs
>>8745477
It's just mtfg meming
>>8745322
>majority of trannies pretend to be girl and desire to live as one
If they had a female mind they would have transition well before puberty
>>8745664
I only speaking chemically
They are compromised regardless
We can only trust those who embrace testosterone
>>8745346 >>8745288
certainly there is prejudice against mtfg trips but hey, we're in the same boat together
It must be really crushing when you try to transition despite the odds but what can you do...
how do you cope with it, what are your plans for life? (I assume you live in liberal area so its not too harsh socially to be unpassing tranny?)
>>Hair won't grow longer than an inch
w-what
>220 lbs
ouch
>>8745326
- wouldn't care as much, there are infertile and ugly women too, I dont aspire to some standard
- yeah, cant deny that
- dont care, I have nothing anyway
- my 'cis' 'male' life been nothing but a failure, I dont see a point in it
but Ill never pass remotely so I dont need to worry about it, killing time for now and suicide late
I cant even become an alcohol addict cause of feminized brain
>>8747102
>I cant even become an alcohol addict cause of feminized brain
Women can be alcoholic too.
>>8747039
I try not to think abut it, draw, listen to music, cycle, drugs.
>what are your plans for life?
I'll probably crack and become a hon soon. Can't drug myself up forever.
>>8747102
>my 'cis' 'male' life been nothing but a failure, I dont see a point in it
Lmao that is why my repression faltered, I was like what is the point if I'm a beta male locked in his room all day. Unfortunately whenever I tell anyone this they think I just want to be a girl to make friends or some bullshit.
>>8748299
At least try to lose weight. I know it's hard (because I am a fucking fat-ass), but please, don't become Chris-hon 2.
>>8748317
I've been trying since I gained it in 2012. Lost 30 lbs since then, currently on keto hoping progress will finally speed up.
Strangely everyone says I don't look fat. This is actually a bad thing because it makes everyone around me unsupportive.
>>8748345
I don't even look that fat and I'm 210lbs. Keep going.
>>8748389
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaHDHuFlw6Q
>>8748389
>thanks
You're welcome.
>>8748405
Oh, shut up Sparty-boy.
>>8748418
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBRG4RkE51Q
>>8748427
Yes, you're such a manly man... Why are you still here?
>>8748448
its fun to shitpost after workouts
>>8748405
Dear goddess that man's shoulders make me so....
Wait, this is supposed to convince me to be LIKE this guy? LOL yah no, that's not even remotely possible. I'm a girl, Amy, and pretending I wasn't wouldn't help me no matter how wide my shoulders were or how loudly I screamed 'ttttttIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGERFITNESSDOTKAWM!'.
>>8748427
Okay, I confess...I didn't expect them to get cringier.
>>8748479
>they believe there a girl
hahahahah yeah youre not pretending anymore
hahahah
the delusion of mtfg
>>8748506
Oh...my Gawd...
I didn't think studying Japanese would ever be useful, until I see your .gif of 'the man' kissing his Kanji.
The Kanji for 'Hitsuji'.
That's Japanese for 'sheep'.
Bless your heart, that's just precious.
>>8748534
>weeb
Go back to mtfg. You speak like a catty bitch trying to be smart but failing
Lmao get raped
>>8748458
mhm...
>>8748580
Don't expect me to be active tommorow
Gonna be getting drunk and high with the lads
A relaxing break after a workout
>>8733060
Huh, i get this too.
It might just be a normal thing though tbqh.
>>8748721
Yeah, I guess.
STOP FAPPING, START LIVING!
Transition has no long-term proven benefits.
Don't trap yourself.
>>8750517
>Cureanon is back
And I thought the day couldn't get worse...
>>8750536
Back to /mtfg/, bitterhon.
>>8750564
I'm a repressor though. My place is here. It's just that you're really repetitive, I'm tired of you spamming the same shit over and over.
Anybody here repressing because their voice is unpassable?
>>8750703
Nope. I'm just not even really repressing.
>>8750703
I wish the only reason I was repressing was my voice. That shit isn't hard to change at all but my linebacker shoulders and my nordic face are.
morning eggs
>>8750821
>linebacker shoulders
I feel you, my man.
>>8750821
>That shit isn't hard to change at all
Voice training is pretty fucking hard.
Does /repgen/ like guns?
>>8751395
>tfw no bf to teach me to shoot
>>8751397
You're a gay repressor like Spartan?
>>8751435
liking boys is straight
>>8751469
I guess. A repressing HSTS is something unheard of though.
>>8730547
I'm assuming the answer is yes but has anyone tried sleep hypnosis to get rid of gender dysphoria? I used it to help train me into a habit of calming myself down when I'm feeling anxious to the point where I automatically start doing deep breathing so I was thinking maybe that could help (I'll listen to some alpha male sleep hypnosis, I'll report back when I wake up if I feel any different)
>>8751491
I don't buy into Blanchard's theories, but let's say you have a stereotypical HSTS who comes to being trans from living the life of a gay male. Couldn't the HSTS be said to be repressing during the gay male phase?
>>8751883
Yes of course this is common af, like fem boys are all repressing trannies
>>8751915
I think a lot of TERFs are repressing ftms.
>>8751883
No, because living as a gay male isn't a substitute for living as a female. HSTS simply means he decides to transition.
For an AGP, living as a male is something she has to put up with pre-transition despite all along being AGP.
>>8751883
>I don't believe Blanchard
>but Blanchard Blanchard Blanchard Blanchard Bleachedsalad
>>8752281
I only talked about Blanchard stuff for the sake of argument. fwiw I think he's wrong about causation, HSTS isn't real but just a stereotype of a subset of androphiles, and AGP has evolved into a dumping ground for everyone who doesn't fit into the HSTS stereotype.
>>8752376
That's all AGP ever was.
>Ever been attracted to a woman ever? congrats, you have a fetish
Spartan is high
Spartans wants to cuddle with his bf
He wants snuggles
>>8752561
Weed?
>>8752239
>mfw started feeling bad at 4
>mfw it disappeared now that I'm 18
Please don't tell me it will come back, I didn't know this was a known thing, I want to keep being fine.
>>8752561
So Sparty-boy wants hugs now? What, you can't keep that hypermasc façade?
>>8752655
Too bad!
>In both adolescent and adult natal males, there are two broad trajectories for development of gender dysphoria: early onset and late onset. Early-onset gender dysphoria starts in childhood and continues into adolescence and adulthood; or, there is an intermittent period in which the gender dysphoria desists and these individuals self-identify as gay or homosexual, followed by recurrence of gender dysphoria.
You are a ticking time bomb, and there is no telling when that time bomb will go off.
>>8739907
Only 600 months to go ;^)
>>8739785
A year and a half on hrt has fixed me up in this regard
>>8752677
> these individuals self-identify as gay or homosexual
But I don't like men and 18 is a bit late for it to fade, right? And it kind of faded for some years already and then it came back, so maybe this time it doesn't come back?
>>8752661
spartan has been lifting and his arm veins are busting out
>>8752706
Explain
>>8752886
you need to work on your pectorals
>>8752886
'Aight then, have a hug.
I'm only dysphoric when I sleep
It's only my subconscious I can't control
>>8753988
>Sleep hypnosis is a meme
Welp, guess it's time to make that appointment then
>>8754733
hugg Amy
>>8755010
I can tell wait to see my bf
He makes me feel so happy
hi repgen
pls to be putting away your repression for a little bit and watch this cute gif and let your inner gril look at the cute
>>8755026
its a shame you will never wear your wedding dress of your dreams
>>8755233
It's so adorable
>>8755241
My body would ruin it
Let dreams be dreams. That way they can never be tainted by reality
Another life another time
>>8755252
>It's so adorable
"mmm wader"
>>8755257
Thirsty snake :3
>>8755261
therst snek :D
>>8750517
Yes, go on nofap see if it helps (Serious)
>>8755277
But tg porn makes me happy
>>8755296
Check doubles and try nofap.
If you find yourself in trouble, splash cold water on yourself or go outside.
Government forces transition on you?
What do?
>>8755530
First kill some randos locally who approve of government (the type that live out of the way so nobody will notice for a while), then kill some government employees?
>>8755587
You've already been tranqed and captured
Strapped to a medical bed and estrogen is being fed to you with injections
>>8755598
I assumed all of that. I meant afterwards kill as much of the trash who defend or support the trash that did it.
>>8755615
you'll be put through an intense mental reprogramming to make you submissive and feminine
>>8755530
Breathe a sigh of relief.
>>8755624
They've tried that already, it was called real life, it didn't work. My brain is almost as much scar tissue as it is functional brain matter at this point. I don't think it's going to work next time either.
What would you act like if we lived in a society where it was common and encouraged for girly boys to transition
And if a male was single for long they are assessed and encouraged to transition
>>8755652
Probably the same way I would act if society commonly encouraged a bunch of shit I don't aggree with or approve of and tried to stalk me and brainwash me into harming myself. So, basically the same way I already act.
>>8755669
>They are just normal people who disagree with you.
Anything that disagrees with me is not a person. I don't care why they choose to be worthless. They aren't capable of thinking anything, they feel they want to do evil, and they are cowards who obey other cowards. They're not liable to start questioning it anytime soon. Why should they be spared for their past crimes even if they will eventually stop being evil later?
>>8755679
>>8755252
>Let dreams be dreams. That way they can never be tainted by reality
>Another life another time
i wish i could just accept this and get the tranny monkey off my back,
so i can just be cis male and move on with life
>>8730547
H-how do I stop wanting to be a girl all the time?
High on weed
I wanna be a girl
>>8755624
If you're brainwashed, you're not really yourself anymore. To make me like that would require deleting my personality.
So it's basically murder.
>>8755652
Still wouldn't trap myself.
>>8755669
Because anyone who is trying to literally remove people's free will is not "normal". This is murder.
>>8755859
Don't we all. Let's fight for a cure together.
>>8755866
STOP FAPPING, START LIVING!
>>8756275
Uh, is this Spartan? You're not starting to go weak on us, are you?
>>8755830
Who the hell is that?
>>8756481
Yes let me be in my happy place
Just imagine if we all got to be born girls
>>8757006
s-spartan what are you doing
>>8757018
Being so high makes it visual in my head
It's nice to imagine
>>8757034
Weed helps some people repress, but it seems to make it harder for you.
I'm so lucky I can satisfy my inner girl by being with a man
He makes me feel so soft
>>8757098
Goddammit Spartan!
>>8757006
>grass is always greener on the other side
but what if you were ugly and built like a fridge?
>>8757077
weed gives me panic attacks
except for cbd weed
cbd weed is fucking life
>>8757109
I love my bf
>>8757109
Spartan's over on /mtfg/ and sounds like he's cracking.
>>8757162
Let me be silly on pot
I hate myself
I hate people
I wish I was dead
>>8757190
its time to get back on hrt sweety
Ah yes the hangover
How it looks
>>8757006
I fucking wish
>>8759467
How it feels
>>8736019
>I mean it as in just go away, like what people say when they say it's cyclical. What is the longest you felt fine?
NTAYRT but since my mid-late teens when I really started noticing it I've never managed over a year. It's easier when I'm single; my most intense spikes of dysphoria were when I was in a relationship with a guy towards the end of high school (I had near-continuous dysphoria for 2-3 years, ending up with pretty intense body dysphoria towards the end to the point where I was suicidal) and during the first year of university when I was under a lot of stress and also interested in/involved with another guy (not as continuous but it'd come and go in intense waves every couple of weeks). When you're not interacting with people on a sexual level it's easy to forget about the limitations of your physical body and just masturbating is satisfying. When I have to interact with other humans I feel so, so inadequate.
I've been fine for several months but round about January I wanted to change sex so badly I wanted to die. It's bizarre to think of now because I can't even empathise with my past self. That's part of why I never go through with it, because my mood can change and I can be totally not dysphoric and happy in my gender for months at a time, so I always feel like I'd regret transition.
I don't know any techniques from these threads, this is my first time in a repgen. I repressed/angsted by myself.
THE SEARCH IS OVER!
THE CURE WAS WITH US ALL ALONG!
STOP FAPPING AND START LIVING!
HRT IS PROVEN TO LOWER SEX DRIVE!
YOU'LL STOP FAPPING AND START LIVING!
START HRT TODAY!
t. ~cureanon
Sáncte Míchael Archángele, defénde nos in proélio, cóntra nequítiam et insídias diáboli ésto præsídium. Ímperet ílli Déus, súpplices deprecámur: tuque, prínceps milítiæ cæléstis, Sátanam aliósque spíritus malígnos, qui ad perditiónem animárum pervagántur in múndo, divína virtúte, in inférnum detrúde. Ámen
>>8759471
>I've been fine for several months but round about January I wanted to change sex so badly I wanted to die. It's bizarre to think of now because I can't even empathise with my past self.
This is exactly what happened to me. That's why I asked.
>>8759480
That wasn't even half-assed, that was just stupid.
Can't decide If I like girls or want to be one
>>8759742
Amy
you want to be a gril
>>8759764
Being a boy with a girls soul is easier
>>8759742
well you're here aren't you?
>>8759766
no it isnt
>>8759766
*boops ur girl nose*
>>8759692
I can't help you there dude, it's something I've been struggling to figure out for years.
If it's relevant, I'm not a committed repressor, there's just a hassle barrier to transitioning (transphobic friends and family, difficult to access treatment in my country, gendered hobbies it'd be harder for me to participate in if I transitioned, and I wouldn't look good as target gender so would rather age as my current attractive self than look alright for ten years then busted for fifty).
I know dysphoria for true trans people also often comes in waves but if we're going to get tumblr about it I've always suspected that I was genderfluid and that's why I don't think I'd be happy if I transitioned full-time - I'm not going through just months of dysphoria then months of neutrality, there are months when I'm really happy as I am and know I'd feel regret if I'd started taking 'mones. The dream would be being able to pass as either gender just by changing my presentation, but I'm not genetically blessed enough to come near passing without 'mones and surgery with permanent effects.
I would say part of the reason I felt a lot less dysphoria with second boyfriend because I was actually open with him about how I felt and he didn't mind talking about it, unlike first bf who was disgusted by it and hated me bringing it up. Even if there are reasons you can't come out and transition publicly, I don't think repressing entirely and being forever alone is the easiest solution - you'll put yourself under so much mental stress. If you can find someone sympathetic and respectful of your boundaries it's honestly a lot better, we even experimented a bit with roleplay (there's a fine line between that being hot and triggering though) and found ways we could have sex without me feeling so dysphoric.
>>8759787
I meant in a mastering repression way
>>8759798
you know who masters repression
hons
>>8759799
Just let me be a secret flower with my bf
>>8759794
>true trans people
M E M E
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M
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>>8759480
c-cure?
>>8759888
there is no cure
its like when holistic "healers" claim to have a cure for cancer and its just a bit of urine and sage in a dilution
>>8759888
STOP FAPPING, START LIVING! Transition has no long-term benefits. And no, that poster wasn't me. There are many of us!
Cureanons live forever.
I want a cuddle
>>8759888
Only the true repgen knowes cure
>>8759943
*cuddles you*
>>8759945
What is this "true repgen" you speak of?
/repgen/ is right here, on 4chan.
>>8759480
I am 6 months into HRT and still have AGP fantasies and willy is still alive.
I have no intentions to socially transition though, so don't shoo me off from repgen.
>>8760000
>trapping yourself
Transition doesn't work, and has no long-term benefits. It's probably too late, but please reconsider. Boymode or not, if you take HRT, you are trapping yourself. No exceptions.
>>8759946
>repressors don't end up hons, they end up heroes.
even worse
>>8760050
Not an heroes. Just heroes.
There is no worse fate than being a hon, but I would never encourage suicide.
Once us repressors find a cure, we'll be the ones laughing at you bitterhons.
>>8759794
>I'm not a committed repressor
Neither am I. I've just decided to wait and see.
Stoned on a bus
>>8760208
Are you seriously taking a bus while smoked up your ass?
>>8760272
I'm go home now and making cheesy pasta
>>8745288
Bitterhons are never welcome.
Take off your trip, don't trap yourself, and don't shill for HRT and you'll be fine, however.
Otherwise, back to >>>/mtfg/, bitterhon.
>>8759941
I realized that transitioning is a meme. I will never be cis and will never be stealth. No matter what I do, I will have dysphoria even with mutilated body. There is no point of me trying. All I can do is trying to collect memories in life as long as possible for LFE. See you in LFE cureanon(s)..
>>8760470
I understand how you feel, I know that to be true which is why I haven't trapped myself.
Even if you are "stealth", you can never be cis. :(
It is hellish. LFE is all we have. Collect as much information as we can, do as much as possible.
I'll always be around. I'm heading to bed. Stay cute.
>>8760470
One last addition. If you wish to contact me, you can find me by searching systemspace in the place I used to be, and then adding me.
Do the best you can, be the best you can be.
For me, repression is the only way to be.
100% cis for life.
>>8760470
tfw you realize you are cis but you still feel depressed and unfulfilled and
I am jealous of married women who can stay at home and cook or engage in other hobbies purely because they want it.
I am jealous of young "femboys" that get providers by camwhoring.
I am jealous of virgins that got through their studies without problems not being distracted by sexual drama.
Everyday coming home I pay less attention to my driving.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4KZf0Anbrzc
>>8760834
If you have anything to repress, you're not cis by definition.