/repgen/ - Repression General

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z9kFf6Yodx0

>>8597087
Kek.

I don't like the drugs but the drugs like me

>>8595802
Ive lasted a week

The longest yet and yet a part of my knows this might just end up a last resort attempt before I finally end up on it for good

I need crippling debilitating proof I'm trans from dysphoria before I can give in again

>>8597275
I hope you end up happy whatever you do. If you want me to be honest you're probably trans and so am I but that isn't reason enough for me to transition. I don't think I could transition and live with myself if I was unpassable.

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>>8597280
If I can't last the month then I'll dont know what I'll do

It's a lot of fear to put faith into that journey. A journey I would leap at if I knew I could be successful. But fear and realism stay my feet

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>Tfw the girl inside

>>8597296
Yeah I know how you feel. If I could pass and people around me would accept me I would transition in a heartbeat. Unfortunately that's not my reality.

>>8597296
Spartan, or Amy, I don't care, please, stop this already. Seriously, just start HRT again and stay on it, please.

>>8597475
But I'm scared
I want to be Amy but I'm so goddamn scared :(

>>8597496
Welcome to the hell that is living in this world with gender dysphoria

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>>8597498
I wanna sleep forever

>>8597510
Same actually

>>8597496
If you've been strong enough to keep a façade for years, you should be able to be strong enough to take the plunge and transition. Or, at the very least, drop the whole Spartan act once and for all.

Please make me a woman

>>8597546
Me first

so keen on killing myself right now

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>>8597542
Yeah, there is no Spartan, on the culmination of my fear and desperate attempts to be invulnerable from dysphoria

>>8597546
>>8597549
Girls, girls, no need to fight!

Here, you are both officially women!

Stop fapping, start living!
Transition has no proven long-term benefits.

>>8597600
Will you shut up

I haven't fapped in like six months thanks to Cypros effects and the fact I hate my dick

>>8597594
>you are both officially women
[citation needed]

>>8597611
You're trapping yourself, and feeding your mental illness. That doesn't count. Know that transiton has no proven long-term benefits in health, mentally or otherwise.

>>8597629
Can you fucking leave no one wants you on this board can't you take the hint? Even repression gen hates you.

>>8597639
>Even repression gen hates you.
I can't speak for all of us, but I sure do.

>>8597639
I know right

>>8597629
Can you lighten up and be normal for once

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>>8597629
>[citation needed]
Please see the attachment.

>>8597730
My fucking sides.

>>8597065
So I turned 24 today if I wasn't in hon territory before I am now. I really wish I could turn back time and just transition before it was too late.

>>8597810
Why the hell is everybody here 24?

>>8597818
A few people here are 24. I mean it's a pretty common age for 4channers.

>>8597818
I'm 29.

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>>8597810
damn, shouldve started yesterday before it was too late, now its defiantly over, on the brighter side you dont have to worry anymore since your ship had sailed - what a relief!

>>8597829
Yeah now it's just a matter of time before I kill myself. What a wonderful life.

>>8597832
sounds like you are having a fun party there
what presents have you got?

>>8597854
Crippling depression the only gift I need. I don't get anything for my birthday it's just another day to me and everyone else.

>>8597065
I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep and pray I don't wake up.

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>>8597865
>>8597882
Thats not a way to repress! be strong girls and man up! your country needs you

I gave my hrt away
Back to being repressed

>>8597930
Well done Amy, time to grow up and stop pretending you are some videogame robot, no more T for you

>>8597940
I'm not amy

I think I might start doing heroin. I would get to be happy for a short period of time and if I overdose I die. It's a win win.

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>>8597953
Heroin is pretty fun

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=phyqYbmiWUo

This hurts but it reinforces repression

Watch

>>8597953
Yup, win-win.

>>8597968
Not helping with repression at all. Nothing in this video relates to me really.

>>8597639
>>8597664
thirded.

>>8597964
aight, nothing like vomiting allover the street while enjoying the hell out of it

>>8598049
I do it in the privacy of my home

>>8598005
>>8597664
>>8597639
Feeding him narcissistic supply will only make him come back.

>>8598065
What do we do? Report her?

>>8598075
We should all take hrt, socially transition and be who we are inside and be happy girls

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>>8598094
I wish

>>8598094
I would if I knew I'd pass.

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Don't worry! You all can be saved by the power of Dan Pena!
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYk18h1o5T0
This will teach you how to become super rich.
And I'm going to do something extra nice. Anyone that is having mental pain should have Brainforce once they become rich.

>>8598115
I don't want to be rich, I want to be a girl.

>>8598154
Being a rich bitch wouldn't be bad thou...

>>8598159
Well, you're right, but getting to be a bitch would be the first step.

What would you do if an angel came down to right now and told you when you die you will become a cis female in the next life as a correction for your suffering in this life

With the option to retain the memory of this life or not?

What would you choose?

>>8598233
Remembering this life would necessarily mean I'd retain all my accumulated knowledge, so I would choose to keep the memories.

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>>8598233
Let me forget all this pain
Let me be someone new

Memory wipe for me

>>8598233
I MUST keep my memories, otherwise it's not me. My memories are who I am.

Growing up again as a cis female with my mind from now is my perfect dream.

Knowing that would happen would fill me with determination and I'd make the best I possibly could of this life, learn all I can and do as much good for the world as I could to prepare for my rebirth.

>>8598254
It's like a mixture of an anxiety attack, depression, and an ache in one's body. There isn't really any sort of experience quite like it. At least that's how I experience it.

>>8598233
>>8598266
Actully Made me cry

Vid related

What happens to repgen in the end...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_FmqI7QKck

>>8598273
That's word for word how I feel too :(

>>8598280
It's when you look at yourself, how your personality and self fits in with the female and you see cis females


You feel locked out. Outcast without anyone or anything saying a word to you, you desperately wish you said something as a child so you could have been like them

And there's nothing you can do to change it, so suicidal ideations creep in because the only chance to fix it is to get a new life

>>8598233
Getting to keep all the memories of your past life is cheating. Nobody gets double the memories. If you had that opportunity, you could go off and spend the next fifteen years becoming a Ph.D in physics and be born the smartest girl on Earth.

>>8598254
Being miserable about your sex.

>>8598266
This.
>>8598273
Agreed, only that if I try to deny it my head starts hurting. Not even kidding.

>>8598280
>What is it that makes you feel like you're the wrong sex?

The things that trigger those feelings. For me it's things like my facial hair, lack of breasts, shoulders, etc. All masculine things. Taking steps to be more feminine is the only thing that lessens the dysphoria.

A message for you:
stop repressing, just transition and become the beautiful men/women you've always been >_<

>>8598254
It's like your body and your whole life is wrong. Like you're living a horror movie. You're a prisoner inside your body, and you feel detached from it and how other people react to it. Dysphoria takes over your whole life and you can't not think about it or even function normally.

>>8598319
It's not that easy. If I don't pass it'll be much worse.

>>8598320
>you can't think about it
I can't stop thinking about it.

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>tfw want to be a girl but hate trannies because none of them ever look or feel like girls and also they are always shitty people so I just stay a guy instead

Do I fit in here?

>>8598325
how are you so sure you won't pass?

>>8598280
You identify with girls/women. Puberty is a grotesque mutation - body horror. Girl puberty is right and what you should be experiencing. I had dysphoria before puberty and never liked my dangly junk, but puberty made things worse.

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>>8598335
You tell me

>>8598327
>>8598320
I did a stupid double negative. Should have been "can't *help* thinking about it."

>>8598335
6'0", 15.7-16.5 shoulders, men's 14 feet. Those are the objective reasons I'd never pass. Then there's my face, which depending of when you asked me I'd tell you that would pass or wouldn't.

>>8598345
There's potential there. Getting /fit/ can help.

>>8598346
Oops, I missread. I usually do double negatives too.

No one passes, and those that do don't pass for long. We are all destined to become ugly hons, rejected and alone until the day we blow our brains out.

>>8598352
You're tall but the shoulder's aren't bad for your height. Feet aren't so good but I'm not sure how many people go around looking at feet. I don't.

>>8598345
>3 layers of clothing
>(in july btw, what the hell)
>expecting me to be able to tell
you mostly look like a genderless blob, trying won't hurt; i can imagine you as a woman desu.

>>8598368
>those that do don't pass for long
don't you realise that by taking female hormones you'll age like a woman?

>>8598275
>Actully Made me cry
Why anon? It's beautiful though even if it won't come true.

>>8598375
I've never seen a passable tranny past 40.

>>8598369
I think the feet think is not the worst actually. It's like the combo of jeans + boots I wear makes them not look so big. Of course that's now that I'm not even on HRT. IDK, I live in Europe anyway, so it would be gatekeeping hell.

>>8598386
I did. And also it's because most of them START at 40, because ~20 years ago transition wasn't so easily available as it is now.

>>8598370
I suppose that's because I have only been off hrt for a week and I was on it for 5 months

I don't look as manly as I used to...so I guess I have a beta face but don't hugbox

>>8598386
They don't exist yet. To be passable you have to transition in your early 20s at worst. It will take some time but those who are passable now will be passable in 20 years.

>>8598394
Spartan?

>>8598395
>To be passable you have to transition in your early 20s at worst.
>30
and that's the end of me.

>>8598386
I'm in my 40s. I started HRT at 21 and I don't get misgendered.

>>8598394
so just wait more for the effects :) 5 months isn't much. and don't wear clothes like that, you look weirder this way than you'd look in a dress.

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>>8598399
This is really hard for me to admit

I've fallen from my peak repression days :(

>>8598401
I'm really sorry, anon.

>>8598404
Agreed, 5 months isn't enough, and going on and off HRT doesn't help.

>>8598410
Go back on HRT and do cardio.

>>8598319
I can't though because of my linebacker body

>>8598352
Size 14 mens is pretty scary. I'm 5'11", size 12 mens but 22" shoulders and a big ribcage.

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>>8598404
That's normal guy clothes for a guy :/


Here's a pic of me from april before I cut my hair in a repressive spergout

About 2 and a half months hrt here

>>8598415
>>8598418
I know but I'm such a pussy.

Should I go back? Or cut my losses and hang my head in shame and keep repressing?

>>8598443
YOU DON'T LOOK THAT BAD AT ALL

>>8598443
Yeah, go back and remember about removing your facial hair. You don't look too masculine, I think; at least judging by your face, you have big chances.

>>8598443
I'd gender you male in this picture but you're not trying to look female and it's only 2 1/2 months in. I see a lot of femininity. Definitely grow your hair out and learn makeup.

>>8598446
>>8598449
I was planning to have laser before I repressed again, the following months on hrt made it less and less prominent

>>8598457
Maybe I'll just go back on it, lose more weight and go back to cardio...go to therapy and uni support groups

And see what happens ? I'm so scared of the social changes and how my friends will see me, even the ones I've told and are supportive...

>>8598443
Looking quite andro there, hope the hairline fills back in. I have much heavier browridge development and I'd need lots of laser.

>>8598463
The way your friends see you will probably change gradually over time. They'd probably be relieved if you made up your mind one way or the other. I do think you have a decent chance of pulling off a transition.

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>>8598484
Im going to go upstairs and take my hrt...

>>8598519
Do it, please. And report how you feel in a couple hours.

>>8598532
Took one cypro and 2mg e

Will take another e before bed
I feel so ashamed and so stupid

>>8598549
You need stop it and learn to repress like I did. Hrt fucks with our minds.

>>8598560
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5fnE7T3sYs

Too late.

>>8598564
You're weak spartan.
You have to understand that a lot of us aren't meant to be female no matter what

>>8598564
Whatever you do don't go back to repressing.

>>8598579
Spartan knows that he isn't meant to be a girl. Most of us will never make it

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>>8598573
>>8598579
>>8598581
Mixed signals :c

>>8598588
Most mtfs will never pass.
Take it from me. Been on hrt for 3 years, put effort into changing my body and it still didn't work. I'm always going to be built like a linebacker

>>8598595
Raloxi should be my new Fallback then

>>8598319
See, I would if I were able to discern whether I am actually trans or not.

>>8597664
What do you hate about me? I am simply spreading the truth, nothing more.
>>8597682
I am normal. I'm fighting for a cure for AGP/Trans/Dysphpria.
>>8597730
Nice meme. Also, I think I'm going to save that meme, actually a good shitpost.
>>8597818
Very common age to struggle with repression, based on what I've seen. Stay strong, don't trap yourself.
>>8597829
Sad that you encourage people to fall.
>>8597832
This. Transition doesn't work. But don't kill yourself. If you must take HRT as an experimental palliative care method, then so be it.

>>8597930
Good stuff. Keep fighting. You're stronger than a mental illness.
>>8597953
Don't do drugs. I understand you feel like death, I know that feeling very well. But don't do it.
>>8598065
I'm not here to farm (You)s contrary to popular belief. I'm simply here to provide a better way and advocate for a cure.
>>8598075
I'm not a girl, or a her. Also, I'm not breaking the rules.
>>8598094
That isn't how it works. Maybe in a fairytale, but not this life. Stay strong, don't trap yourself.
Transition has no long-term proven benefits.
Also, there is no happiness in a dysphoric person's life. Get used to it.
>>8598115
Money does absolutely nothing to ease AGP/Trans/Dysphoria beyond funding for a cure.
>>8598154
I think we all want to be a girl. That's dysphoria for you. Doesn't mean you are one, or should trap yourself.
>>8598233
I would retain memories. I'd still not trap myself.
>>8598242
Exactly this, anon.
>>8598273
This is a good explanation of Dysphoria, in all honesty. Exactly what I feel day to day.
>>8598275
I wouldn't trap myself, and many others wouldn't either. However if we had proof (angels coming down to all here would be adequate, even if not scientific) then I would stop advocating for a cure, and instead advocate for a lessening of suffering through advanced transition methods and social acceptance.
>>8598292
Alien, outcast. These words describe dysphoria very well.
>>continued in next post

>>8598603
This.

>>8598294
This is true, and a factor. The easiest way this could be done is by offering everyone this chance to change something about themselves, with the option of keeping memories or not. For one lifetime. It would also heavily increase the world's knowledge and lead to a better world.
>>8598317
Repression tends to make the "physical" symptoms of dysphoria a lot worse. But know it is just mental illness, and your mind playing tricks on you.
>>8598319
Back to /mtfg/ or whatever place you came from. I'm not feeding my mental illness.
>>8598320
This is a way to describe extremely bad dysphoric moments, but not my total experience. I still think that my life however painful was worth living, even if I were to die today. Repression helps me with all this. This only happens when I don't repress and fight for a cure. Fighting for a cure gives me purpose.
>>8598327
Even if you fully repress, from time to time the thoughts will appear in your head. Keep fighting.
>>8598330
Absolutely. Welcome.
>>8598368
This is mostly true. However, there are the rare passers, but they aren't happy I can assure you.
>>8598395
Often, even teenagers who transition cannot pass. I'm in my early 20s myself, but know I would not pass, nor would I want to trap myself.
>>8598519
You know that transition has no long-term proven benefits. You can stop.
>>8598560
This. HRT, once taken makes it nearly impossible to repress. Get off it.
>>8598595
This is very true.

>>8598588
Stay on HRT, take my word. Don't let those like me who failed or are repressing keep you down.

>>8598633
I was an idiot thinking I could pass

>>8598636
Please don't stay on HRT. It has no proven benefits for dysphoric people. It may help you feel better short-term, but long-term it ends up worse than repression.
>>8598645
I'm sorry.

>>8598671
This wouldn't happen if my body was porportionate and I could fit in a women's S

>>8598675
>Women's S
You're exaggerating.

>>8598549
No, don't be ashamed. You can't be on a roller coaster forever.

>>8598690
I'm saying if I could fit into a women's S, I'd be happy and fine with my body but I can't.
Can only fit into a men's S which is a women's M and that is linebacker territory

>>8598581
Amy looks more like a girl than a warrior. It's meant to be.

>>8598694
>Women's M
Seriously, that's good. You're exaggerating.

>>8598633
stop being such a meanie downer >_< *huuugs anon-girl tightly*

>>8598700
This.

>>8598633
>This is a way to describe extremely bad dysphoric moments
My whole life was a bad dysphoric moment. That's all in the distant past now.

>>8598694
You're setting standards that are too high. Women's M is fine. I wouldn't worry about it.

>>8598705
Good?
Trying having 17" wide shoulders and 15" wide hips.

>>8598722
Almost. I have 16.5" shoulders. Not on HRT ofc.

>>8598733
I was on hrt for over 3 years and lost no muscle. I look like I belong in the nfl

>>8598675
Estrogen feels prettty good desu, I knew it would've been positive but its even better than expected. If you felt depressed like being stuck in a stinky closet with no sunlight ever and suddenly you opened the door and ran away to a beautiful forest with sweet fresh air you needed so much... why would ever go back to that dark stinky hole?
Im not thinking about passing, its abut as probably for me as finding inter-terrestrial life but Im not giving up the positive changes and its affects on me. Sometimes you have to settle for less, but if you cant have it all dont reject everything all together.

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>>8598693
>>8598700
>>8598707
Maybe I was always destined to end up like
I'm gonna start crying
Maybe it will be ok, I can always have raloxi if I'm scared.

>>8598739
I'm really sorry for you, anon.

>>8598749
>I'm gonna start crying
Just let it happen. It will be a great relief.

>>8598749
Being a girl isn't something that just happens. It takes a lot of work and you have to fight for it. You can take some of that warrior spirit and use it to overcome the fear and make yourself the best girl you can be.

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>>8598722
>>8598733
just look at these tiny girls dreaming they could ever be athletes muaahahaha shoulderlets, will the ever learn?
I have ~50cm (20") was even more when I still had delts

>>8598767
This.

>>8598780
I'm not a girl tho, not with 16.5" shoulders.

>>8598756
I'm going to kill myself soon anyways

>>8598801
IDK, take HRT + raloxi to avoid boobs if that makes you feel better. Maybe in a couple decades someone will invent something to let us fix ourselves.

>>8598780
Not with my shoulders.
The average female has 14" shoulders
http://www.livestrong.com/article/484806-the-average-shoulder-width-for-females/

>>8598739
you should have lost a lot (well if you had normal male muscle to begin with) since T is required not only to gain but also to keep muscle mass,
the muscles of what your average 20yo active boy who never goes to a gym would be a high level of pro fitness chick who dedicates good part of her life to exercising and eating properly but without roiding

maybe you got bloated and it's all replaced with fat now

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>>8598767
>>8598783
Work hard, I can do that

>>8598819
The average shoulder width of a 18 y/o male who doesn't work out is 15"

I don't workout or lift.
I'm 5'9 and 130lbs

>>8598816 >>8598793
and whats you stature? 17" shoulders is womens M and it should be the last of your worries
its all about face anyway

>>8598843
that sounds like you are skinny and might need more E and of course proper diet to gain ass/hips fat

>>8598821
I believe in you Amy. How are you feeling right now?

>>8597947
Even Amy is back on it, take your pills back, girl

>>8598865
18 yo, 220 lbs (and the best part is that I don't even look nearly as far as I am), 16.5" shoulders. Would my pelvis change if I went on HRT or is it too late for my bones?

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Holy fuck. These pills.

It's like instant mental anguish relief ;-;


>>8598881
Like it's just soothing and making me feel really happy.

I want to work for that dream, I want to look back and be happy I fought through all my doubt and pain.

I want to be a girl. I am always scared of saying that. Even here. But it's true

>>8597065
>/repgen/
>Not transgirl wanting hugbox because she thinks she doesn't pass even though she's still taking hormones.

I hate this "general" so much.
It's like that spartan faggot, literally a tripfag with an alter ego called ami or something that goes on HRT every week.

Real repressors don't talk about muh boy armor, taking hormones or roleplaying as cute girls with other cute girls on discord and other places.

Literally stop all this you retarded trannies trying to make real repressors into falling for your transition meme.

Also most of the posts on this shitty general are literally twinkhons who think they can be in the repression general because they don't pass even though they are transitioning.

Fuck you all.

>>8598894
for boys bones fuse later but 18 is pushing it
but you will still have fat redistribution, have to lose fat to have slim waist and then re-gain it on HRT to have plump ass/hips

>>8598905
you bet! estrogen addiction is real

>>8598912
s-sorry plz no bully
Most people here dont take mones and dont plan to, Im not even a tranny and Im not pretending to be a girl and not ever going to transition.

Let me hugbox you, fellow repressor.

>>8598912
Yeah I am a faggot

>>8598675
This is unrealistic. There's many many women out there thst can't fit into an S, letalone transitioning ones.
>>8598693
The ride never ends, anon. Trapping yourself just puts you on another ride, a shittier one.
>>8598700
When it comes to Amy, I'd honestly reccomend trapping herself at this point. It's unhealthy for her to be stopping and starting hormomes. The ship's sailed, the repression has failed.

>>8598706
I'm not mean. I'm simply speaking the truth.
*hugs you back* However thanks for the hugs. Hugs are nice. I'm not a girl, and never will be however. I'm a proud repressor, until the very end.
>>8598709
I'm sorry to hear that. I understand why you made the choice you did, however you know the facts already by this point so I will refrain from telling them to you.

I wish you the best of luck, and if you somehow end up part of the 1% happy transitioners who pass, that's amazing. Do what you must to survive
>>8598746
I'm glad you're doing well, anon. Be aware that long-term you may not feel the way you do noe about transitioning. But if you end up a part of the lucky 1%, that's awesome for you.
>>8598749
Amy, please trap yourself. While transition is a experimental palliative care method, in cases like yours where you stop and start your hormones over and over, it's more healthy for you to continue it. The ship has sailed on this one. You're still a warrior, Amy. Just be a warrior girl, and fight to be the best woman you can be.
>>8598761
I can agree. Let yourself cry, anon.
>>8598767
This is true. Amy, you're still a Spartan. Always have been, always will be. But this fight is not your fight. Let me fight for the cure.

>>8598801
Don't kill yourself. If the only option left is trapping yourself, please do that first.
>>8598821
Amy, take what you've learned from being a spartan, and apply it to fighting for what you want in life and you're going to go far. Even if you end up a freak, which is sadly highly likely, you're a lovable freak. Never stop.

>>8598881
Amy can do it, I know she can. She's a proud warrior, she'll pull through.
>>8598883
Don't trap yourself if you can avoid it. But in Amy's case, she needs to stay on her pills.
>>8598905
Amy. You can do it. With how well and how long you repressed, you can go all the way to warrior girl and beyond. Don't stop fighting, even if you're not repressing anymore! Don't end up a bitterhon. Be the rare 1% non-bitter happyhon.

>>8598912
There is many types of repression. There is a lot of failures but there will always be people like me to fight for a cure, and to never give up.

Wars often have casualties. Have a little respect, you're acting like a bitterhon.
>>8598920
Yet another reason not to trap yourself! You see it with Spartan, don't take HRT because once you trap yourself, there's no going back.

Stay strong, let's keep fighting for a cure, stop fapping and START LIVING!
>>8598935
This. Most of us simply use this place as a way to express our feelings on repression. Unfortunately for most it ends up being a hugbox. I'll never be afraid to tell the truth.

Transition has no long-term benefits.
Don't trap yourself.

Transition is best reserved as an absolute last case measure as an experimental palliative care method.

>>8598990
>you're acting like a bitterhon.
I'm a man, not a tranny like you.

>>8598957
Good thing you understand that. Either shut up and transition or stop.

It's like you and the other mtfg trannies make these threads to bait people thinking this thread is about helping each other repress but then push them into transitioning.

This is the most fucked up thing you guys could ever do and you do it willingly, that's just plain evil even if you cannot comprehend it.

>>8599003
I'm not a tranny. I'm a proud repressor.

STOP FAPPING, START LIVING!

Nice try, /pol/. You have to go back.

Also, the whole
>repgen is an evil /mtfg/ conspiracy to try and make people trap themselves

Probably true tbhon.

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>>8598960
>>8598990
>even cure anon says I'm should stay on hrt


Guess it's really what I need

>>8599042
I'm having a softer night tonight.
Sometimes I have those, usually don't post in /lgbt/ on these nights but today I am.

Trying to give the best advice I can for you Amy. I think you'd make a beautiful girl, myself.

>>8599035
Yeah now I'm going to be the evil /pol/ right.
I'm just stating the facts here, all you guys do the same thing every single time.
This repgen has been a bait since I saw it the first time.
I have had people tell me to transition less times on mtfg than here.
This should be the I need someone to tell me to transition general instead since it's all you all crave.

This is probably the closest thread we have to susan's.

>>8598990
have you made tulpa thread?

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>>8599052
Really?

Thanks ;-;
I'm gonna believe in myself

>>8598816
The average woman is 5'3". If you're taller you would expect wider shoulders.
Also make sure you're measuring right. The article says the average is 17" if the measurement includes soft tissue. Biacromial was 14". Good measurements are tricky.

>>8598905
Your brain was meant for estradiol. It's a natural fit.

>>8599092
We believe in you, Amy.

Should I join the marines in order to repress harder? I'm thinking of trying to become a scout sniper. I can already do 90 pushups and a 5 minute mile, so I think I'm in good enough shape. I'm 24 so I'll probably be the oldest one in bootcamp though...

>>8599137
You good at math? If not become something else in the marines.

>>8599137
yeah sure, we need more "look at this amazing transformation of a brutal marine into a pretty girl" timelines

>>8599142
Yeah I majored in physics in undergrad and now I'm working as a software engineer. But I'm bored and I want to shoot guns and punch things in order to not give into the temptation of becoming a girl.

>>8599053
Believe what you want. But that is not the purpose of /repgen/.

>>8599070
>tulpa thread
Nope. I don't believe in tulpas. Must be another cureanon, there's many of us!

>>8599092
You can do it Amy. You're welcome. You're a strong girl.

>>8599109
>Your brain was meant for estradiol.
[citation needed]
However in Amy's case, I'd still reccomend she take HRT.
>>8599137
Don't join the military just to repress.
If you want to serve, then go right ahead, but if you're doing it just to repress, don't. It ends in bitterhons.

>>8599109
Yeah, I guess it is

>>8599124
I'll do my best. And make sure that I get the best out of what I'm doing.

It's time for me to grow up

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>>8599183
Thank you
So much

>>8599183
>bitterhons
Don't use Curehon terms.

>>8599224
that gif triggers me
I will never be a girl.

>>8599243
I am the cureanon you guys like to hate.

See: >>8599035
That was me. I'm simply having a lighter night than usual.

Also not a hon, am a proud repressor. Piss off.

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>>8599169
Nah you want to be a sniper so you can LARP as quiet. I know your kind.

Anyways just join artillery, can't be manlier than throwing hundreds of pounds of explosives in the form of pure death from the skies for hours while a bunch of goat herders are running around with no place to hide.

Also you can LARP as imperial guard instead of some girly thing like sniper wolf or quiet.

>>8599263
>I am the curehon
Go away.

>>8598865
5'9"
I don't need more E
I was on high dose of injectables

>>8599153
Kek.
>>8599169
>Software engineer
You're a living meme.

>>8599340
This is 4chan, sorry.
Not going anywhere, bitterhon.
You're free to go back to your general if you so choose to.

Also, I'm not a hon.

>>8599829
>software engineer meme
Some of these things I will never understand.
Headpats, programming, rainbow socks, chokers

W H Y

>>8599909
programming is a good job for nerdy autists, can be a hobby into career, salvation for neets, can freelance from home, IT is more accepting than normie jobs too, the othere meme careeer is (cam)whoring of course
choker to cover Adams apple obviously and an attribute of subs

>>8601199
Makes sense, I guess.
I'm not trans so I wouldn't know.
I have AGP, however. Just a mental illness.

>>8601208
>AGP
>Just a mental illness.

>>8601269
[citation needed that the traditional narrative isn't complete bs]

>>8597498

> gender dysphoria settles on me like a plague
> it's fucked me up big time
>Doesn't know if I identify as a female or identity as a male
>shrugs it off and desides to just identify as neither
>too scared to tell anyone though so I just put up with my real pronouns for now.

> mfw I'm depressed as fuck
> mfw I hide behind a phone and tablet/laptop screen all day
> mfw 4Chan is the only place I can get my laughs from now.

>>8601208
socks and chokers are totally AGP, its like you dont watch anime and trap porn, not true-AGP

hey quick question, hypothetically speaking, how much bleach is fatal to eat? it's the powdered stuff used to bleach hair, not the liquid stuff, if that matters.

>>8601292
I'm a repressing AGP. I'm not a degenerate that's gonna fall for the meme. I have dysphoria with my AGP, ain't bout that life tho.

>>8601287
That's the issue. It fucks your identity up and you're just stuck. We need a cure.

Let's fight for a cure together.

Hello everyone.
I'm at a point in my life to where I'm thinking about just giving up because I was dealt with really bad genetics.
I've been transitioning for 3+ years and not much has changed. My breasts are still small, never gained fat in the right places and my muscle Mass never really decreased.
I have an unfortunate inverted triangle body to were my shoulders are 17" And my hips are 15". I have a very unfortunate body because of it and it makes finding clothes very difficult. I look like a linebacker :(

I've been trying to fix it through exercise but no matter what I do,
It hasn't worked. I'm starting to believe that my genetics just suck. Should I just quit and cut my losses and go back into repression?

>>8601280
[citation needed that I said otherwise]
[citation needed that you're literate]

>>8601305
anon, dont do anything silly, please stay safe

>>8601319
whats the pros and cons? imagine the worst and the best outcome in several years time
I dont know how you look but its more about face,

>>8601305
Please don't mess with that. That would be a horrible way to die, and there's a decent chance you won't die but be messed up for life because of it.

>>8601319
Does HRT make you feel better? Maybe you could settle into some kind of femboy mode but stay on HRT.

>>8601346
that's why I'm asking what a fatal dose is.

>>8601341
My face is shit

>>8598722
Try 17.5" shoulders and 13.5" hips ass

>>8601354
I can't do femboy
It's either female or bust

>>8601367
What's your shoulder circumference

>>8601379
104-107cm I forget the inches

>>8601387
Despite having 17" shoulders, my circumference is 110cm

>>8601311
>Let's fight for a cure together.
Ok. Where do we start?

>>8601362
It takes multiple days and it will eat your from the inside out you really don't want to die like that anon

>>8601438
oh :<

>>8601417
I'd trade an extra 6cm max on circumference for half an inch off width and 1.5" additional hip width. Hips are key shoulders are a meme

>>8597065
Killing myself or transitioning when there is like a 85% chance I will be a hon which is worse? I'm probably going to do one or the other either this year or the next.

>>8601486
Being a hon isn't so bad. All transgirls end up dead or a hon.

>>8601494
How so? You say that but I don't know how it wouldn't be bad. I haven't figured out if it's better than being dead inside or actually being dead though so I've been thinking maybe I should give it a try.

>>8601473
My hips need 2" to look normal. It'll never happen though

>>8598330
>deciding what to do about your medical condition based on others who have that medical condition
would you stop taking medicine for cancer because everyone in your ward contracted hippie new age disease?

Transitioning is a treatment. weight weather or not that treatment will raise your quality of life

>>8601370
uhmm I wouldnt be that radical, just becoming more fem alleviated dysphoria, but maybe social passing is more crucial to you

>>8601517 getting an inch of fat from each side is more than real

>>8601486
If there's a 15% chance you won't be a hon that's better than killing yourself. You can always kys later if transitioning doesn't work, though I really hope you don't kys.

>>8602195
but becoming a hon could make him kill himself sooner

>>8603047
He said probably one or the other this year or the next. It doesn't sound like there's a big risk in trying transition, especially if you hold off long enough to give HRT enough time to judge whether it's working.

>tfw family is over for a week and all I can do is repress and repress
>haven't seen them in years and I can't even find it in myself to talk with them because I'm in another world mentally

>>8603249
This will probably end up happening to me.

>>8603297
>>8603311
>>8603301
>>8603304
>>8603318
Hey Curehon.

[citation needed]

What would happen if the population of repgen were secretly dosed with estrogen and t blockers?

>>8603479
>I'd know about it right away
Curehon's power fantasies strike again.

>>8603506
So you have personal experience with the effects of HRT?

>>8603506
I don't need to cite shit ma'am.

>>8603479
Lets say it's like a magical curse, no matter what you eat or drink or even if you starve, the hrt is magically placed in your system

Or let's say it's a Matriarchal future where you have been time traveled to by a lightning strike and the leaders of this society are composed of cis woman and transwoman (however thanks to this futures technology they are biologically the same, allowing real full transition)

And in the air and atmosphere is an estrogen aerosol that begins the conversion process as soon as your arrive, usually this conversion process is completed in infancy however as a time traveller you are an adult and an anomaly in this society so law enforcement is keen to detain and process you, as the government passed laws decades ago banning male levels of testosterone

If you escape you will be a fugitive until you give up or are caught and transformed into a transwoman by the authorities. Although keep in mind this society is more hostile to you when you are a man than if you are a transwoman

So in surrendering you will be met with lots of positivity and support

>>8603515
I don't have any personal experience with HRT, no because I'm not a fucking tranny. But I do have dysphoria, and I would notice the effects it had due to simply knowing so much about these drugs through all the fucking shitposting on this board alone.

>>8603542
>Or let's say it's a Matriarchal future where you have been time traveled to by a lightning strike and the leaders of this society are composed of cis woman and transwoman

>estrogen aerosol
>banning male levels of test
>If you escape you will be a fugitive until you give up or are caught and transformed into a transwoman by the authorities

I got struck by lightning and woke up in Hell!

>>8603545
>i have dysphoria
>b-b-but not a gross tranny guys

You realize the moment you say this everyone on this board knows you're a closet case right? Why not just say nothing about your meme dysphoria at all unless you enjoy the attention and you want people to convince you to become a woman?

>>8603552
But keep in mind in this future they have puberty reversing drugs and can make you perfectly female with reproductive abilities

There's no reason to fear that.

>>8603560
Fuck this shit I'm going to Mars where they quarantined all the AAP.

>>8603531
Fair enough, bitterhon. Believe what you will.
>>8603542
In regards to the magical curse scenario, well I'd have to live with it wouldn't I? It wouldn't make me female, it'd just make me stuck in another trap. Yay, life sucks even more!

Not only am I dysphoric, but now I'm force-trapping-myself too! I'd probably do everything I could to remove the curse, and if I couldn't I'd simply have to live with it.

I'd absolutely do my best to resist, and be a fugitive in the matriarchal future scenario. I would not want to live in a world that forces people to be who they are not. Happy to be an outlaw if the rules are completely bullshit.

>>8603557
I'm not "closeted". I have a mental illness which I seek a cure for. I don't "enjoy attention" nor "want to be a woman". I have a mental illness which gives me a strong desire to become one, but it is not me.

>>8603560
I don't want to be a girl, because I'm not one. I have a mental illness making me think as if I do, however.

>>8603564
But it's a totally accepting society that wants you to feel happy and embrace your womanhood, why would you run from that?

Let's say cis males still exist but all dysphoric males are detected with the use of medical scan robots and are forcibly treated for the good of mental health and public safety.

So instantly all authorities know you are repressing (a form of self harm that warrants government medical intervention)

>>8603567
Except you would be. In this magical future you would have your chromosomes rewritten and have reproductive capabilities of that of a woman

Your voice would be female, your skeleton, everything. And your personality would become a little more fem on estrogen

Wouldent you take that option? It has no downside.

>>8603574
I would not want to live in a society that forces people to have medical treatments. I'm about freedom. I'd sooner die than be forced to be treated with experimental palliative care.
(not the poster you're replying to)

>>8603574
>automatic robotic government intervention the moment anyone self-harms on the face of the planet

This is literally Hell now. I've found Hell, guys.

>>8603582
But in this future it's not experimental it's proven and works

It's wouldent be palliative because they would be able to make you a cis female

>>8603578
Because my dysphoria is not a meme.
I'm not "dodging" the question.
It's relevant that I say I have dysphoria so people don't say I'm from fucking /pol/ and think I'm a non-dysphoric person handing them a bullshit argument.

I don't enjoy the attention.

>>8603580
See: >>8603582
If I could choose it, even if I was completely identical to and treated as a woman in this society, I would choose no. I'm a man with a mental illness, not a woman!

>>8603591
>It's relevant that I say I have dysphoria so people don't say I'm from fucking /pol/ and think I'm a non-dysphoric person handing them a bullshit argument.

Nobody does this.

>I don't enjoy the attention.

You will guaranteed reply to this post.

>>8603585
This.

>>8603588
See: >>8603585, >>8603582
Also, even if I was a completely cis female that was proven and worked, I'm a man with a mental illness not a woman.

Ok. Thought experiment for you guys.

Your dead. And in the afterlife, in a big white room that seems endless, an angel explains to you that simply by thinking clearly and snapping your fingers your can make anything come into reality, including the world around you and your own self.


You have the power to be anywhere and do anything. You can make it so your back home and with all your friends.

You can transform yourself into a female, or you can set up a amnesia machine and let yourself grow up as a female at the cost of forgetting you have God powers (until you think clearly and snap your fingers again at least)

Would you let yourselves be happy then?

>>8603601
You will guaranteed reply to this post too.

>>8603591
>If I could choose it, even if I was completely identical to and treated as a woman in this society, I would choose no. I'm a man with a mental illness, not a woman!

Even if you are mentally ill, there's no reason to hate yourself for it. Especially when your given a harmless thought experiment.

Just say it "if I was in that world, I would choose to be a woman"

You wouldent be a man in any sense of the term once they rewrote your chromosomes

>>8603614
You wouldent want to try it? What's the fear? You can change back anytime.

You might like the way you feel as a woman in the afterlife realm, you could magic up a loving boyfriend for yourself, a whole social life, everything. You have eternity to play with.

Why not try it out?

>>8603621
You wouldent be a slave, the treatments would make you happy and you'd be free to go off and live your life after

>>8603603
>Would you let yourselves be happy then?
Yes.

I'd become female and not give myself amnesia. I guess it's better if everybody else remembers me as being female but if there's some way it makes sense to them that I used to be male that's ok too.

If I could grow up again female without amnesia that would be best of all.

>>8603647
And All powerful God should be afraid of nothing, what's wrong with trying it for a little experience.

Even the God Loki transformed himself into a beautiful and cute milkmaid and tried out sleeping with men

There's nothing wrong with admitting you would try that. Don't you want to find out what it's like to wear a dress and look stunning?

>>8603647
Look girl, just drop the act for one second.

I know there's a part of you inside that longs to be free. You don't have to do anything, take any hrt or do any of that.


Just say the words

"I want to be a woman" the cure is getting over and acceptance. Admitting it is the first step. If you don't, you'll never get over the problem.

>>8603697
I'm not dumb enough to do that, because I'd probably get addicted and become a slave to my own desires, losing my god powers.

Even if I cured my mental illness first, which I would. Possibly if I explored every single possible male outcome possible first, then I would.

For keks, maybe. But that wouldn't make me a tranny, by any means. In this magical scenario I'd act as any cis guy would.

>>8603712
I bet you'd be really girly when you realised you were a girl

>>8603712
What's wrong with being called a tranny on an anonymous image board ?

>>8603557
I love how so many of these shitposts condense down to
>Eww trannies are gross and icky!
>They have cooties!
>Keep them away from me!

>>8603752
>What are you, like 12?
Not me, but trans haters act like they are.

>>8603777
>trans haters
Please explain how anyone is hating trans people here?

>>8603647
>just a mere woman
The mystery is solved. Curehon just has real bad internalized misogyny.

>>8603806
I'm not a misogynist.
I mean, why be a mere woman when you could be a fucking elf or some shit.

>>8603800
I don't know who is posting what, and I'm not saying these are all yours, but I see things like:
>fucking tranny
>bitterhon
>muh mental illness
>trapped by my delusions
>hate trannies because none of them ever look or feel like girls and also they are always shitty people

STOP REPLYING TO HER

IGNORE HER POSTS

REPORT THEM

TALK PAST HER

CARRY ON THE THREAD AS NORMAL

>>8603852
That's all blanchardfag. He pretends to be multiple people to establish a "board consensus" so he can draw further conclusions in this narcissistic mind that "the board is on his side".

>>8603479
You would enjoy up like Amy. All of us would, and we know it.

cure anon, how do you feel about sleeping with a man?

in a submissive role? do you feel the sameway about being gay as you feel being trans?

or would you enjoy it?

>>8603903
Speaking of Amy I saw her on /mtfg/ yesterday. I don't normally go to those threads though because they get too juvenile for my taste. I hope she keeps posting here.

>>8603574
>Let's say cis males still exist but all dysphoric males are detected with the use of medical scan robots and are forcibly treated for the good of mental health and public safety.
Wasn't this the tranny movie script someone made up several threads ago? I'd love to live in such a future.

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>>8603917
i still lurk

i might still go the raloxi route, i feel so much calmer now im back on.

but like wouldent being here and posting under any name of mine and transitioning be like a really cruel thing to you guys? when im on hrt i feel a guilt for anyone who is repressing.

>>8603821
A man elf or a woman elf?

>>8604007
Man elf, but you could be a woman if you wanted to. It's not really about gender, it's more "just a mere woman?" as in why just a woman when you could be a wizard or something. Of all the things you choose, you choose a normal life as a woman? At least be a goddess or somethin, i mean damn

>>8603861
Who is "blanchardfag"?

The curespammer doesn't agree with blanchard at all, except that AGP is real and even then she thinks it's not connected to trans.

>>8603990
I'm skeptical of whether AA+raloxifene is healthy in the long run. It should prevent osteoporosis but it doesn't seem to be an adequate substitute for estradiol for maintaining health.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWp5p4yhTi0

There are things you can't fight - acts of God. You see dysphoria coming, you get out of the way. But when you're in a Jaeger, suddenly you can finally fight the dysphoria. You can win.

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>>8604077
but its the perfect bet hedger to me

go on hrt for long time, if dont pass as flat chested woman, then can deduce i wouldent pass with breasts, but bypassing the social implications and scary consequences of people guessing im a tranny from the boobs while in boymode. that kind of closure could work.

>>8604092
Are you thinking of AA+raloxifene+estradiol, or just AA+raloxifene? I would think without estradiol you wouldn't feminize much at all, though at least you shouldn't virilize. If you took raloxifene and estradiol, maybe that would slow breast growth while allowing things like fat redistribution to occur, but I don't know.

>>8604128
id have to research it and check with the experts at femgen

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vfTErqYqkeM

what would you do if a movement of cis males rose up and promised to destroy all trannies and what they perceive to be repressed trannies
two sides at war, natural but complacent masculinity against synthetic but determined masculinity.
lets say they have psychological screenings and lie detectors to figure out if you are repressed.

what would you do?

>>8603990
You can leave if that makes you feel better, but I'd like you to keep posting here.

>>8604167
I'd have to side with the trannies because I'm a repressor.

>>8604207
i do like it here, my only concern is being an "enemy" now im back on hrt, or being seen as tranny prolytising

>>8604242
I don't see you as an enemy. I understand you may not yet be ready to move on and leave this thread in favor of /mtfg/, and I'm interested in seeing how you progress without me having to leave repgen. I understand it's selfish so feel free to leave.

>>8604212
This.

>>8604277
i could still post here, im interested to see how i progress. when im on hrt i get excited and feel really happy for the effect thats have already occured.

i just hope it turns out ok

>>8604242
>>8604277
>mfw it's like Casper or something and saying goodbye to a ghost before they pass on

>>8604336
I realized the similarities but it's how things work.

>>8604293
I too hope it turns out ok for you. How do you feel when you think about yourself when you were repressing, now that you're back on HRT?

>>8604352
i feel embarassed and apologetic for how much of an ass i was. i cringe at my own tryhard posts.

i was like a scared and confused puppy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5EQ1cZAxoU

this seems really apt for repression gen considering the next doctor is confirmed to be a woman

>>8604392
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lRkfIZ6eoOQ

>>8604342
It's funny, I'm being left behind but it feels like they're the ones who will live.

>>8597730
;_; the other anon here THANK YOU I WILL CHERISH YOU FOREVER

>>8604411
yw <3

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>>8604336
>>8604342
>>8604405
thats making me tear up a bit ;_;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvZskcqdYcE

>>8604367
You WERE a scared and confused puppy. Please, remember to not fall for repression ever again.

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>>8604544
i promise.


i like listening to this song. it makes me wanna keep going and one day hopefully look back and be so happy i did it.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kebSVddrWAg

>>8604579
Goddammit, you managed to make me smile, and I was depressed af. Please don't ever change.

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>>8604585
Okai

Pls be happy anon

>>8603469
I would be grateful desu

>>8603603
I would transform into a female live a while with my memories and if I thought I would be better off without them I would erase them.

Anyone see repression as a paranoid defence mechanism

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i03k13KF1G4

>cis girl and bf are goths
>they get killed
>imagine what would happen if you were a non repressing tranny

Fuck me. I used to be repressed so badly that I didn't even have any memories of wanting to be a girl. I whish I could go back to that. I really fucking hate life now, how do I do that again goddammit.

>>8605032
>Anyone see repression as a paranoid defence mechanism
Honestly maybe it is.

>>8605081
I've tried.

>>8604628
Thank you. I'll try to.

>>8604690
>>8604702
Both of these would be fine.

>>8605081
Conglaturation. You're exactly how I were like 5 months ago. Start by getting the fuck outta here before this place consumes you and get addicted to vidya. That should do it.

Was trying to listen to music and distract myself then this video trips me out and makes me dysphoric and I just get consumed by "I wish I was her, I wish I was a woman"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWHaG_uCvEA

>>8605227
>tfw I spend 10 hours or more literally everyday on vidya

>>8605336
Things like this happen to me all the time

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Hey
I'm not a trans but I used to cry when younger for having been born a boy, I really wanted to be a girl, it just hurt on de inside real bad.
With time and an abusive family I found shelter in pain, I loved to hurt myself, punish myself for being a freak.
For a long time o wished to die. I imagined just how easy it could be to jump from.my window on the second floor head-first.
Everything just hurt too much..
That stayed with me, every year I just felt worse, 16,17,18,19 years old.. I wanted to transition but I didn't even got support from my family, I couldn't tell them.
When I was 19 I finally decided to suck it and change my life, I still wanted to be a girl but I felt I was getting old and masculine, i would become worse of a freak if I tried.
So I left my house and joined the army, a place full of men where I learned to love my body as I was born, I started lifting and running and taking care of my body and I got happier, actually happier, even if I was not a girl, I learned to love myself.
Sorry, I had to take that out of my chest..I never told that to anyone before..
What I came here to say is, it doesn't matter if you are indistinguishable from a girl or just barely passable and look silly like a boy in a dress..
For me, it's all about the hearth. If you win a person's hearth, you will be the most beautiful thing for that person.
I love you all you bunch of faggots.
I wish I could make you happier, but I hope that this make you know that out there are people like me, that don't care about how passable you are, they just love you for what you are.

>>8605657
This faggot here is right. It's about being healthy. Not even /fit/. Just healthy. Exercise, go out. Trap yourself, avoid the skittles meme. Become boyarmor. Whatever. Your pick. But for the love of god, learn to love yourself, or your misery will be even worse.

It's not easy, but it's doable.

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