/repgen/ - Repression General

>>8478719

>repression

I'm not repressing, I've given up, desu.

>>8478726
What made you decide to give up repressing? Are you gonna transition?

>>8478726
This might fit better in a different thread, but I don't really use this board so I'm posting it here anyway.
I'm gay, and I really don't want to be. I decided that the way I could fix it is if I started masturbating to lesbian porn instead of gay porn. Does anyone think this will work? I've been trying for almost 2 weeks now and I haven't been able to cum to lesbians a single time and they just make my dick soft. I thought that as time went on I would get conditioned to be less gay, but I think it actually made me more somehow because it's even harder to stay hard now.
Does anyone know what I should do?

>>8478750
just be gay lul, :/

>>8478741
Nah, just gave up. Couldn't come out before college, and now I'm nearly seven feet tall and balding at 21, so... Gave up. Cherry on the top for my suicidal thoughts.

>>8478750
I can't emotionally comprehend why anyone would have a problem with being gay. Being gay is so normal and you can lead a good life without medical complications. Be yourself mate. Go and be happy. There's literally nothing wrong with being gay.

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I feel like total shit. I'm becoming seriously addicted to alcohol to repress my life. The worst part is that liver diseases won't kill me before i'm 30, i'll still need to do it myself.

Nice day everyone

>>8478859
Fuck. I'm sorry. Consider getting help?

>>8478855
It's just that these last couple of months I've been convinced that I really want my own kids, not adopted ones. This means I need to have a wife. I still think I will be able to love her for who she is as long as she loves me back, but I won't be able to have sex with her currently which is a problem.

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Reposting from previous thread

>tfw male
>Feel like girl
>Pretend to be girl online
>Feelsgoodman.jpg
>This goes on for 10+ years
>Want more
>Come out to gf(been dating for 10+ years)
>Expect her to accept me, probably scared of transition but that's ok it scares me too
>Lol nope
>Lashes out at me
>"I don't like girls, anon, I like men"
>"I like you anon, you're manly"
>"I won't use female pronouns on you anon"
>I repress
>Fail miserably
>Gf notices
>Two months after first rejection, arguments come and go
>Gf is swimming in guilt for not having accepted me
>Yesterday
>"Anon I spoke with some friends. I like you, but I was being selfish. I can at least try to treat you as a girl. It's what I HAVE to do"
>I lash out
>Call her names, demand to know WHY the sudden change of heart
>She keeps saying that's what she HAS to do
>Not what she wants, but what must be done
>I refuse to accept that
>Tell her it'll only get worse
>Tell her I only want it if she FEELS like doing it, not that she HAS to do it because it's what she thinks has to be done
>We are on the brink of breaking up, yt I feel nothing

I am in the brink of losing the love of my life because I couldn't repress and told her how I felt.
Ironically, repressing now is only making things worse.
I feel like my gender is invalid, that beinf a girl is just me fooling myself.

I want out, I want to die.

>>8478822
There are wigs, anon. I think you can be a beautiful amazonian girl.

>>8478979
>>I repress
>>Fail miserably
>>Gf notices
How did she notice?

>>8478867
How about surrogacy?

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>>8478863
I think i'll stay like that as a choice tbhh. When i'm shitfaced i don't keep thinking about what i am, i just randomly listen to music until i finally pass out. Ty for worrying.

>>8478822
Consider getting on finasteride please. It will make you feel better and prevent you from balding

>>8479086
>"Anon, you're not male, it's obvious"
>Try to deny it vehemently
>"Anon, it'll come out eventually anyway. Why not embrace it from now?"

>>8479152
What did say say was obviously not male?

>>8479154
Attitude, I guess. Visibly uncomforta le perhaps. Or just her witch-like sixth sense or something. Being unhappy or hurt in general for not being accepted at first, I guess.

>>8478979
I'm sorry. I wish I could hope. Good luck.

I just got back from my first therapy appointment. Spilled my guts about all this shit to a irl person. Told her my background, what I was feeling. I'm without a doubt a tranno. I am going to have another session then start the Skittles.

Y'all need to go talk to someone about this shit. You can explicitly say you don't want to transition and they will listen to you. All they are there for is to help you accomplish your goals. They arnt gonna shove hrt down your throat.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7znI_Kpzbs

Repression gen are the dogs and mtfg are the cats

>>8480249
>All they are there for is to help you accomplish your goals.
The problem is they're idiots who know nothing about it and whose 'help' is at best a complete waste of time.

>>8480335
Lmao, source?
Therapy helps people you literal stool sample. Maybe you should get to know one and load off your problems.

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>"Dysphoria Kaiju detected in Brain Sector 012, deploying Androgen Retribution to engage"


If you could physically fight your dysphoria could you win?

>>8480415
>Therapy helps people you literal stool sample.
Lmao, source?

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>>8480620
take your estrogen Amy

>>8480677
I know you're baiting, but here. A meta-analysis of multiple studies published in a respected journal.

>A Meta-Analysis of the Efficacy of Cognitive Therapy for Depression
>Twenty-eight studies were identified that used a common outcome measure of depression, and comparisons of cognitive therapy with other therapeutic modalities were made. The results document a greater degree of change for cognitive therapy compared with a waiting list or no-treatment control (p. 414)
>On the basis of the results presented here, it appears to be a reliable conclusion that ... cognitive therapy is more effective than nothing at all (p. 417)

Source:
Dobson, K. S. (1989).
A meta-analysis of the efficacy of cognitive therapy for depression.
Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology, 57(3), 414-419.
doi:http://dx.doi.org.ezp.lib.rochester.edu/10.1037/0022-006X.57.3.414

>>8480757
I wonder what K. S. Dobson thought of counter-examples like me.

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>>8480771
>muh personal anecdotes are more important than actual scientific studies published in peer-reviewed journals

tfw repressing is easy rn (I am 18)
Does it just get hard at some point or are you all too weak to repress?

>>8480782
>therapy is good, your life doesn't matter

>>8480791
>repressing when you're young enough that HRT can make you pass
But why tho?

>>8480707
I'm not ready yet ;-;

Im scared. I'm scared to be a transgirl.

>>8480804
Not her but A) you can be unpassable at way below 18, and B) who wants to be a tranny when you can be a fake-cis?

>>8480804
Because I am financially dependant on people that have only ever seen hons and thinks that's what everyone looks like?
Also probably wouldn't pass regardless.

>>8480811
Sure you are a girl already, might as well go the whole way, Amy.

>>8480791
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jQvvmT3ab80

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Why do I always get more dysphoric and depressed from seeing pictures of pretty transgirls and crossdressers than from actual women? I want to be a trap more than I want to be a woman?

>>8480836
Sounds like a fun future, I can die alone and young of alcohol poisoning or lung cancer.

>>8478979
Just break up. You're both forcing something that you know can't work. She's not into girls, you're not a guy.

I think once you both admit it, you can still be good friends. She's at least willing to respect who you are, so there's that.

>>8480249
>accomplish your goals
how to get a gun license? or better is there a way to fall into cryogenic sleep and wakeup in 50 years when I could be turned into a normal girl instead of the scarecrow that I am

>get depression spike
>dig up that jar of purera mirifica I ordered then didn't use past a quarter spoon to test
>put two spoons of it into a hot bitter cocoa for taste
>add a bunch of her fenugreek to soak up in hot water
>down it and chew up all the fenugreek
>get violent vomiting fits all night
>first the potion, then my dinner, then my bile, then just moisture
>abs contract violently on completely purged upper gastric system
>really violently
>feels actually worse than a botched shibari job
and the lesson here is probably that going agaisnt nature is bound to be painful or that hebrla is bullshit and eyebally dosages worse
I got nausea flashbacks just typing that

>>8480837
My guess is since you know you can't be a cis woman, but you could hypothetically be an attractive trans woman, yet aren't (yet). It makes you jealous or uncomfortable with where you are.

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>>8480833
FEEEEAAAR

>>8478719

Fuck off with these useless tranny threads.

>>8480620
Of course I'd win.

>>8478822
if it makes you feel any better, thee are some cis women out there that are into the idea of a repressed tranny.

>>8480825
Being sure that I will never pass is what helps me repress. Sure, sometimes it gets hard, but it seems easy enough right now. I'm also 18 btw.

>>8480866
This. Other trans women are more relatable.

>>8480850
Seems like a good future tbqh.

>>8480869
Just keep repressing until you break down.

>>8480866 >>8480898
yeah I guess, I could think 'this should've been me' and drown in self-pity
Im not even jealous of them like I am of genetic women but get really sad about my wasted life

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>>8480869
ISSS HOOWWWW I FALL... CONFUSING WHAT IS REAAAALLLLL

>>8480620

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_ktIID9vrs

>*coughing blood and thrown against the wall, body damaged and on the verge of death*
>the beast looms over you
>"give up boy, no one can defeat me, I am dysphoria, I will take away the ones you love, your family, your friends, your status in society, your safety, your normality, you will lose everything, you will be inferior"
>suddenly you hear a voice within you
>"you are stronger than it, there's a reason you were born with the power to be strong, to be taller, to be more powerful. Don't let it win. Hold on a little longer, I'll be there to help you"
>"who are you?"
>"I'm Testosterone"
>you feel a massive surge of power and energy and anger, your wounds heal, your body hardens
>you beat back the beast, with the rage of 1000 suns
>"no this cannot be, you were supposed to fall!"
>"I found the strength within to beat you"
>dysphoria is defeated

>>8480968
>my wasted life
Why wasted? It's not over yet, anon!

>>8481013
it really should be, there is no way back to when I still could've done anything

>>8481027
Do you want to talk about it, anon? I'm sure there's still time. How old are you?

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>>8480620
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7GQtxKIOHo

>>8481000
He protects me

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>>8481041
>He protects me
he imprisons you

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>>8481030
Nah I'd only hate myself more.
2old, 2masc, not wealthy to butcher my face and change life - lost case, or I wouldn't be here
but thanks

>>8481045
Freedom is dangerous

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>>8481089
it can be scary, but it isn't dangerous

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>>8481095
I'm on blockers and fallen from my former glory what more do you want :(

I'm having enough problems dealing with my shame for liking men too

I used to be the pinnicle of heterosexuality to myself. I wasn't supposed to be a fag

>>8481097
Since you're a girl who likes boys, that makes you straight, not a fag.

>>8481097
you said you would be on blockers only unless you got dysphoric again
>>8480620
>"Dysphoria Kaiju detected in Brain Sector 012, deploying Androgen Retribution to engage"
sounds like you became dysphoric again
>I wasn't supposed to be a fag
well you aren't, you are a girl

>>8481108
It's dangerous to let that out. If I don't repress it I'm susceptible to sociopathic doms who will hurt me and treat me like an object.

It was Spartan who was able to step in and get me away from my ex

>>8481008
testosterone is good if you dont feel depressed, otherwise you want to crush and destroy everything including yourself

and then it literally kills you

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>tfw no boyfriend to hold me and kiss me
I fucking hate that my heart flutters thinking about being with a guy

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Today i got my payment so i've bought myself a not-so-cheap vodka. hell yeah time to forget this all

>>8480850
>>8480908
It isn't.

t. 18yo neanderthal repressing the fact i'm a tranny by drinking alcohol everyday until i pass out

>>8481089
I don't know what Dr. Halsey told you, but she clearly failed you, Amy. You need to free yourself from the armor! Take your mones and live!!

>>8481149
Sure just go out and find a guy? It couldn't be that hard but I live in a rural village with barely anyone around anyways so I wouldn't know.

>>8481158
I am hopefully getting drunk tomorrow, I like to forget about the fact that I am living a pointless life and hate every second of it, only buy vodka because it is cheap, I hate the taste so much, I'd rather drink beer but it takes a lot more to pass out.

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>>8481149
yeah but a cute boy will hug you and protect you

>>8481172
I wish a cute boy would play with my hair.
Need to drink so I can repress better.

>>8481169
same with me, try to drink vodka with things like orange juice or lemon soft-drinks to make it taste "better"

i hope we didn't had to do this to forget about life but...

>>8481158
>>8481169
why not indulge in something better and do fun stuff instead of killing yourself with this poison?
repressing doesnt mean slow suicide, you can forget dysphoria for a while if you occupy your brain with other activities

>>8481512
Alcohol is fine, good for your heart in moderation, a few cups of vodka won't kill me for years to come.
What's the point in living if I'm living a lie, at least I forget for a while after drinking

>>8481555
I can forget while overloading my brain with information and other problems and pointless flamewars give me other issues to care about
and I guess in the back of my mind I still have a hope for something good

I must be really good at repressing, I live in a trashdump and I dont care

>>8478719
I'm not trans. I'm AGP.

>>8478726
Why the fuck is repressgen full of people who have given up? Man up!
>>8478859
Life's always going to feel like shit, man. Just gotta push through it, and find meaning in this meaningless universe. Stop drinking, stop fapping, feel your emotions and tough it out!
>>8478979
Relationship therapy, not fucking gender therapy!
>>8479150
Finasteride is a legitimate option for non-HRT people regardless. Can agree here, but don't be a little bitch.

>>8480249
Gender therapists are either straight gatekeepers, or they hand you skittles. Don't ever expect help from a gender therapist.

Stop fapping, and start transition, but not male to female, it's time go back to being a man, my boy.
>>8480707
Spartan will never stop fighting. Neither will I.
>>8480791
Keep on fighting, this is war we WILL win!
>>8480811
Don't be scared. We face our fears head on, but not by trapping ourselves. STOP FAPPING, and man up! Where's your fight, man!
>>8480858
You're a man, not a little girl. Accept this, and start fighting the eternal war. Because whether you fight or not, the war will always be on.
>>8480872
This is not useless. This is a beautiful fight against the biggest enemy of all time - ourselves.
>>8481008
FUCK YEAH! Testosterone's got $WAG
>>8481041
You don't need protecting, spartan. YOU ARE THE PROTECTOR!
>>8481118
You are Spartan. Amy does not exist. Destroy her, as I have my feminine persona.
>>8481199
Don't drink your sorrows away. Join the fight, AND MOVE FORWARD!
>>8481628
Whatever you do, never give in.

>>8481137
Testosterone is that inner fire that keeps you going. Testosterone is what makes you, you.

Don't ever take skittles. If you already have, get off them now, before it is too late. Before you are destroyed forever.

This is holy war of the highest order!
It doesn't matter what you believe.. this is a fight for YOURSELF, WHO YOU ARE! DON'T LET HER TAKE YOU AWAY!

>>8481841
>I'm not trans. I'm AGP.
What did 'he' mean by this?

>>8479150
>When i'm shitfaced i don't keep thinking about what i am, i just randomly listen to music until i finally pass out.
holy fuck that's exactly what I do to lol

>>8481859
She is me and I am her

>>8481863
I have a feminization fetish. But thankfully for me, I'm more than strong enough to banish this demon to the depths of hell. I will never masturbate again!

>>8481866
If this is what you believe, you are a fool.. but that is your choice.. You still have fight left, there is always an option to turn back!

>>8481851
I dont know, I got a lot calmer on low T, no more anxiety and anger and my fire has long since burned out

>>8481895
You lost your fire, you lost your fight. You caved to the mere desire to become female!

But you can always turn back. There are many proud detransitioners - NEVER GIVE UP YOUR FIGHT

>>8481907
Im not taking hormones
and Ive been too depressed or hopeless to do anything other the be neet and read all sort of garbage
soon my money will run out and I'll have to take a shitty job, hate my life even more and an hero

>>8481927
Stop reading that trash. Get your shit together, man. Where's your fight man, where is it!

You can do this, I know you can - Pull through. Don't trap yourself. Get a job, fight through it, push through it. Get on T replacements ASAP, this will heavily increase your motivation.

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>>8481865
it works grreat holy shit i kind of enjoy this

>>8481841
> Can agree here, but don't be a little bitch.
wdym senpai you seem stressed about this all, take it easy or it can hurt you
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>>8481512
this anon said everything >>8481555
also being addicted t o this shit doesnt mean you cant do anything else but what do if nothing else is fun to you anymore/?

i dont even get pleasrue from games or playing the guitar, if it wasn't for alcohol i would have already killed myself as transition is not a option

>>8481958
I'm not stressed. I'm completely calm. I am a warrior, a fighter in the war against the eternal enemy of AGP!

Find a way to bring back your fight, your passion anon. If you're low T, get on T as soon as possible, and continue fighting! If you lack meaning in life, search within. Your bright flame will always reignite, as long as you have the glorious Testosterone flowing through your body!

>>8481008
And then dysphoria slinks off to wait until 40, when Testosterone tells you to fuck right off forever for someone younger and Dysphoria's years of practice while he waited have made him a hulking, unbeatable juggernaut. An Inevitable, of sorts.

Happy hunting, you're going to need it.

>>8481958
>it works grreat holy shit i kind of enjoy this
Well it works but I always feel horrible about doing it.
When I go on binges during the depression after all the drugs/alcohol are wearing off I sometimes end up just like crying the entire day...

>>8481946
>that trash
is mostly 4ch and various chats to not feel as lonely

Im so deep in neet-hole I can't bare going for any stressing social jobs, will most likely find some pajeet-tier online jobs to make just enough money for food and utility
I've really given up on life

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>>8481971
i dont care anymore whether im manly or girly bro ill just keep going, its over for me

but i wish you keep it up and manage to be happy as a manly man

butttttttttttttt IF , IF, you ever break up and consider something else like transition, dont be afraid of your choice. getting shitfaced always remind me that we only have one life and we shouldn't care as when we die its over and... thats it, we weren't happy nor lived as ourselves, and spent too much time caring about what other people think bout us

i hope i had the same views about life when im sober

>>8481999
you may be overthinking it, dont overdo it and don't need to feel horrible anon

but i do agree with the binges, for me i stopped enjoying them because i was scared with waking up the next day depressed and wasted

>>8482059
>you may be overthinking it, dont overdo it and don't need to feel horrible anon
I feel horrible because I don't do anything with my life anymore. I don't even program anymore. I have no motivation to do anything. Any free time I get I just smoke pot and drink and then the next day I'm always depressed as fuck. After binges the depression is overwhelming.
I used to work at a plumbing shop and we had tanks of nitrogen all over the place cause they used them for brazing medical gas lines and after a particularly bad like 4 or 5 day binge I took one and got pretty close to suicide but I took the bag off when I started getting dizzy and nearly blacked out. Luckily nobody ever found out about it though.

>>8482084
Mind if i ask how old are you, and if you're repressing being mtf/ftm?

>>8482113
I'm 26 now, mtf

>>8482084
Thats why I try not to drink much or at least not get drunk, you feel much shittier on the next day. weed is a lot less harsh

Did you try to get on AD meds or therapy? You never told anyone about the attempt?

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>>8482115
sorry if i can't give proper advice but i think you're still really young, i've knew people older than you that changed their lifes past their 30s (people from my old binges)

i know, being mtf sucks if you transition or repress, but you can improve your life regardless of this. don't give up on this.. you don't need to do it exactly tomorrow, take a time to think and organize things, just don't wait too much and put your life on tracks. go to college if you want or start working somewhere, do what you enjoy more (or hate less)

If you like programming keep at it and at look for what you can do with it (a job or programming something if you're good). I'm too young but i knew people with similar lifestories that managed to get out of depression and fixed their lifes, and you can do it. Everyone can.

If needed, leave this board. most of the posts here are depressing and can hold you back (including my posts, sorry everyone lol)

>>8482173
I've tried zoloft and it gave me heart palpitations. Same with St. Johns Wort if I drank too much alcohol so I stopped taking them. I had zero positive effects from them anyway, I only got the negative effects. It did fix my sex drive a tiny bit because when off them I have ED and hard time orgasming but while on zoloft I could orgasm normally and could get erections. Was weird considering it was opposite most peoples experiences.
I sometimes take 5-HTP when coming down off drugs or alcohol and it helps prevent severe breakdowns. I occasionally get severe panic attacks that can last for like a 1-2 days though. I'm pretty used to it though so even though it feels like a heart attack I know it's not actually going to kill me.
I take a lot of supplements to kind of hold off the inevitable onslaught of T I guess. So I never really got MPB like all my friends did and my skin is ridiculously healthy compared to my friends.

>>8482173
And no I've never told anyone about it.
The only attempt people kind of know about is when I was like 19 and overdosed on about 2500mg of dxm. My mom found me flailing about all high and I went to the hospital and they pumped my stomach. I somehow managed to convince them it was a mistake cause I miscalculated my extraction or whatever. I guess considering I was all high and whatever they just believed it and I left without much issues other than my parents being pissed.

>>8478867
Having your own kids is overrated lol. They COULD be awesome kids, just like they COULD be little annoying shits. Either way you are stuck feeding and caring for them 18+ years. Nothing wrong with adoption, my brother is a much better father to my niece than bio dad ever was. Blood don't mean shit.

Go find some gay rejected kid in the orphanage or something and adopt.

>>8482207
>Go find some gay rejected kid in the orphanage or something and adopt.
If I ever sort my life out and get married I plan on doing this. If I could help one kid that feels somewhat like me and make their life better that would be great. Still wish I could have biological kids though.

>>8482207
Why would I want gay kids?

>>8482207
I really don't want gay kids, sorry.

>>8482059
Don't give up, anon. I care.

Let's fight the eternal AGP together.

>>8481841
I haven't fapped in months thanks to cypro

>>8482994
You should stop your HRT / AA immediately. You're giving up your life for something that, in the future will be able to be cured. Don't give up, don't give in. Hold in there!

>>8482994
Weed seems to help me get aroused if you can still manage erections

>>8482998
>>8483001
It's given me ED and I'm ashamed to say I don't mind.
I wish I could have srs one day :(

Weed gives me phantom vagina, hips and breasts, whether I'm on or off hormones. It's really distressing on weed because then my brain just goes

"IM A GIRL :( I WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE ONE"

>>8483013
That is a false belief, caused by dysphoria and mental illness. You need to hold in there, reverse any and all transition methods you've attempted, and realise that long-term, transitioners are not happy. In the short term, indulging your AGP/Trans/Dysphoria may work, but in the long term it does not.

But I respect your views, and understand. We all seek a cure, anon. Let's find one together.

>>8483013
Yeah weed intensifies my feelings and i can get kind of dysphoric but i still manage okay. I mostly smoke indica strains to help me eat more. I get less issues with indica than sativa strains.
If it wasn't for pot i probably wouldn't masturbate either. But honestly i do love using my dildo even if my penis doesn't work entirely right lol

>>8483022
I'll be following you you worthless piece of shit I'm here all day. You should seriously consider buying a rope and just hanging yourself. You would be happier your family would be happier and /lgbt/ would be happier. Why don't you just do it?

>>8483022
Being on blockers alone and no e is tolerable for now.

But I've never lasted more than 3 days after trying to quit blockers

The longest was a month when I tried hrt for 5 days then chickened out but it was enough to make me cave and come back, the feeling of "you will never transition, you will love the rest of your life like this" I could not do it

I want to get raloxi so I don't grow boobs and can approach transition from a safety net

>>8483049
I understand, in cases where it is transition or suicide, it's understandable to use transition as a palliative care method when you have no other choice. But be aware it is just that, an experimental treatment for when no other option is available.

Unlike some trolls >>8483034
I will never encourage suicide.

>>8483060
Why don't you bite the bullet? You wont be happy no matter what you do. You'll never have what you want. Don't you think you would be better off dead?

>>8483049
>approach transition from a safety
me too, have you ever tried cd'ing?

>>8483067
I tried girlmode once in private
And I really felt happy and comfortable
Like I was myself

I dont feel trans in the morning, must be the hormones

>>8483077
I have this too like when I first wake up for like 30 minutes or an hour or so I just don't feel trans. It's really weird.

>>8483077
You still have a chance to get off hormones.
You are not trans, but even if you were, it is so so important to await the cure.

Spread as much awareness as you can, and within 10 years we will all be happy men, riding into the sunset!

>>8483075
cd'ing can help
i got to pt of being passable, and i still felt fake, so pretty sure i'm not trans now

>>8483085
Within 10 years you will be in a grave you fucking retard.

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As a transitioned MtF, this place is fascinating for me to check regularly. For a multitude of reasons.

It's like watching children who will someday either crash and burn or be born again.

>>8483089
same, I want last a couple if nothing changes for me

>>8483095
You made the wrong choice, but I understand if it was a case of transition or suicide.

There is no objective evidence supported by non-low evidence studies that transition works long-term. In the short term, it is reported to have good effects, because of the fact you are indulging your mental illness. But SRS/HRT/exc does not make being mentally ill go away.

>>8483109
Think what you want, I'm only here to witness, not interfere

>>8483095
I hope one day I end up where you are

>>8483109
Can't wait till you kill yourself anon. You're just as worthless as Cara and eventually you and him will both end up killing yourselves.

>>8483116
Why are you here?

>>8483120
I repress socially
I'm on skittles and trying to reduce my fear response to transition

>>8483127
You still have the opportunity to get off hormones, and start your life again. Don't give up!

>>8483127
I'm in the same boat as you. Hiding boobs sucks....
I don't even know why i come in this general. I guess cause I still feel miserable every once in awhile lol

>>8483127
Interesting.
So you are here to see the repressors and tell yourself "I don't wanna be like them"?

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>>8483129
What life?

There's nothing for me there.
I want to be a girl, I want to look nice and wear cute clothes, I want boobs and a vagina and hips, I want a boyfriend who treats me like a girl, I want to be able to be soft sensitive and loving.
I want to be able to look in the mirrror and see Amy. That's the only life I've ever wanted, ever since I was very young.

>>8483142
Because you've let it get to your head. I promise you, as long as you have even the slightest bit of fire left within you, which I'm certain you do, you can find your true calling, one that does not involve indulging your AGP/Trans/Dysphoria, whichever one you may identify with.

Please, hold in there, and don't give up. If you are set on your ways, then I cannot stop you, but please do not dismiss the opportunity for others to receive a cure, rather than an experimental treatment.

>>8483146
You ever think about just ending it all anon? I'm sure you do you wouldn't be here posting non stop on a gay board if you enjoyed life. So just wondering why are you still here?

>>8483146
Once you start hrt it's pretty tough to stop. It's pretty addictive lol

>>8483146
It's dysphoria.
What if I regretted losing my chance a year 20 when I turn 40?

I could be a full time girl in 3-4 years

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>>8483152
This.
It's so soothing

>>8483152
I'm very well aware of that, which is why I advocate for only ever starting to take HRT unless you are at the point of transition or suicide, as a palliative care measure.

You're treating a mental illness with essentially indulging it. Of course it's addictive!

>>8483153
By then, there will most likely be altenate, non-transition options. 20 years to live your life as a proud man, succeeding in life. There is so much you could do, if only you could see it!

>>8483152
>popping pills daily
>blood tests for levels
>losing dick
>gaining fat
yeh, that sounds great

>>8483158
And you choose not to treat your mental illness and let it get worse. Are you retarded or something anon?

>>8483163
>gaining fat
You make it sound bad, but my fat goes to my ass, thighs and tits now. It's great.

>>8483166
Transition is an experimental, unproven to work-long term, so called "treatment" that actually makes lives worse rather than better in the long term. In the short term, it can be quite addicting due to indulging your mental illness.

Enjoy your reply, troll.

>>8483158
I was at the point of wanting to commit suicide

>>8483163
I don't even use my dick anyway. Even pre-hrt i only ever bottomed and i hates getting bj's. Plus i basically masturbated with dildos 95% of the time anyway
Also I'm not fat, I'm like 120lbs and it hasn't changed

>>8483169
>what hons want to believe

>>8483176
Are you retarded, redistribution of fat by hormones is literally a fact lmao

fucking repressors crack me up

>>8483178
[citation needed]

>>8483171
I'm not trolling I think you should kill yourself. I'm sure you think about it all the time and whats the point of living if you're not happy. There will never be a cure you will live everyday of the rest of your life feeling the way you do now if not worse.

>>8483178
Hes a troll hes been trying to derail threads all day. All you can do is tell him to kill himself and hope he does it.

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>>8483178
>fucking delusional hons crack me up
hrt aint gonna change your bones

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>>8483186
Delet this

>>8483186
Are you fucking retarded or something? They were talking about fat redistribution you ape.

>>8483186
Who the fuck was talking about bones

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>>8483189
so becoming a pudgy, doughy thing with a male frame is going to pass?

>>8483189
>>8483198
adding fat to male skeletons is not a solution

>>8483200
That wasn't the point at all, did you even read the fucking posts

>>8483200
>posting a 40 year old transitoner
Are you even trying?

Im not even sure whos serious and who is turboshitposting anymore

I should go to sleep

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>>8483203
>implying dad bods aren't your future
did you start as early as andrea?
do you have her money and resources?
good luck w your meme life

>>8483211
Better than wanting to die all day everyday.

>>8483211
No, but I have good genes

>>8483213
Life is about suffering, anon.
Hold in there, and await the cure. You're a real man, keep going!

I'm not trans, I'm not trans, I am just lonely and an alcoholic I swear.
I just want to be a girl, who doesn't...

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>>8483213
getting clocked will get you there just as well

>>8483223
life is about experiences and becoming wiser

>>8483207
see pic

>>8483235
It's actually very common to have a phase of identity questioning, sometimes multiple times in one's life and for extended periods. This doesn't mean you're trans.

However if this is consistant, you probably have the AGP and need to hold on and wait for a cure.

>>8483241
You need to let go and buy a gun. Think about the sweet release of a bullet in your brain. Don't you want to be free?

>>8483238
And trapping yourself makes you wise, and gives you experiences? No. Trapping yourself makes you dumb, and you feed your mental illness. You become wise by being an innovator, and assisting with new and up and coming things, such as a cure for AGP. This is wise.

There is so much more to experience in life when you do not cover your painful emotions. Suffering causes growth, which causes happiness and new experiences. Keep suffering.

>>8478719
I'm going to transition I don't have the best chances but I do have a chance. I never want to end up like some of the people that post here. The people that preach I'm a man I need to repress T is great or people like how Spartan used to be. Spartan used to be the biggest repressor and even he knows he needs to transition now. I never want to let myself get that bad. So I'm going to transition and take my chances how ever bad they may be. Good luck to all of you.

>>8483246
I just want you to know I'm proud of you. I'm just a random person on the internet, but good luck.

>>8483246
That is your choice, and I respect it. But I will never give up the fight, and please be open to alternate viewpoints, especially when evidence comes to light you made the wrong choice.

>>8483246
I wish I had the strength you do girl.
Good luck from an alcoholic 4chan addict

>>8483245
learning from suffering is fine, but believing life is suffering is not a good truth

>>8483246
you can not take spartan seriously

>>8483260
The truth is the truth, whether good or not. If we are here to learn, and suffering creates the most growth and knowledge, then by default life is suffering.

I hope Spartan pulls through.. I'd hate to see him go.

>>8483262
Her.

>>8483267
He is not female. But if Spartan makes the choice to transition, he would be aware of that.

His mental image/alter, Amy has taken over. I just hope Spartan can get control back from her.

>>8483274
I hope Spartan does whatever makes her happy. But I'm just gonna repress so I don't become an ugly hon and end my life.

>>8483284
Understandable. But you don't need to repress. Fight your dysphoria head on, and advocate for the potential for a cure. Don't settle for the traditional narrative, which is flawed and wrong.

>>8483284
>>8483292
>>8483284
>>8483292
or why not just find something to put your effort into like school, work, or friendship, love

>>8483298
because it's easier to spend several hours everyday in an anime image board about trannies and repeat to myself that there will be a cure while i waste my life away

>>8483298
I've struggled with meaning for quite a long time with my life. I've found a cause I can truly support, and dedicate all my time towards. I don't want the traditional way. I want to advocate for a cure for AGP, and dedicate myself to it.

>>8483292
>>8483301
Yes yes there shall be a "cure" for all degenerates soon enough.

>>8483305
Alright, you're probably from /pol/ yourself. Congrats for making me fall for the bait.

>>8483304
anyone who makes agp their life is no different then anyone who abuses substances

>living in moderation

having agp feelings or having fetishes or w/e is fine and makes life more interesting

>>8483319
You're right about the fact that a degenerate is a degenerate regardless of what kind of degenerate they are.

>>8483319
I don't make AGP my life. I make the research for a painful mental illness my life. It's the same as advocating for a cure for down's syndrome, or autism as my life. I'm doing my best to save lives.

>>8483324
We should all advocate for a "cure" to this degeneracy.

>>8483324
Keep advocating for the "cure" and in time they shall get the cure the deserve.

>>8483331
it's admirable that you hope to do something about it

but you cannot cure high degeneracy just like you cannot cure a drug addict that eventually dies from continuous over dosing

good thing the population of trans is tiny vs the countless other vices that people suffer from

>>8483358
Well the drug addicts problems are gone is that not a cure?

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>>8483361
even a memester like yourself must enjoy doing something

>Tfw want breasts
>tfw can't because everyone will know I'm a tranny with my frame

REEE I WANNA BE A GIRL

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>>8480620
>"it's here..."

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Reminder:
Transitioning is the only shot any of you have at real happiness in your lives. Denying who you are is only going to end in pain and suffering.
Transitioning and being trans doesn't make you a degenerate, a freak, or anything like that. Anyone in this thread who's said stuff like that to y'all isn't trying to help you, they're trying to turn you away from being happy, because they're bastards, trolls, or just plain wrong. They don't care about you, they don't care about "curing degeneracy" and making you better.. They want you to suffer because they hate you.
All of you are wonderful people worthy of compassion, love, and a chance at happiness, the same as everyone else.
You can't beat this. You can't change who you are via sheer force of will. You're girls, all of you. Pretending to be cis, pretending that you're a guy, it's all fake. You're all trans, you're all girls. The sooner you can accept that and start transitioning (either by seeing a therapist, self-medding, or coming out to people close to you), the sooner all of you are going to be happy.

>>8483915
amen

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Survey alert

https://dysphoriacoping.tumblr.com/post/161432712427/recruitment-call-techniques-for-coping-with

Male puberty be like

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2zewOQXCLo

>>8478719
>tfw find out my dad is cheating on my mom
god damn suicide is looking like a better option everyday

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What if dysphoria is actually demons

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>>8484250
All human anxiety, including gender dysphoria, comes from the Old Ones. They are gods, not demons.

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Another day, etc. I'm too wasted to go buy more alcohol tbhh. Maybe later

>>8482747
It isn't eternal for me bro it will last until i can afford a gun in the next years

Also wow the salty trolls are all after you today, i see. Keep Stronk, manly anon!

>>8483077
Same, why tf does this happen?
>Woke up 30 mins ago
>I don't dysphoria or anything like i feel the rest of the day
>It starts building up after a time

>>8483142
I have to disagree with Manly anon here. I think you should try it, Amy. if you REALLY feel like this and would scream this at the world without regret, go for it.

>>8483235
Been there, would advise you to stop alcohol or you'll end more miserable than everyone on this thread together

>>8483305
>>8483323
>>8483331
>>8483361
>When pol tries to sneak between undetected but can't hide their final solution plans

Go back for your traps, you're repressing homossexuality, not being trans

>>8484250
There's no demons, just humans filling their roles.

I blame Blanchard.

>>8483915
>You're all girls
[citation needed]

I'm just AGP.

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>>8484558
I know I'm gonna have to go back on e eventually. But for now the blockers give me a nice middle ground

No reversal, no return to the old pain, but no scary new territory

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>tfw turning 26 and still repressing

>>8484758
I know somewhat that started at 28 and passes it might not be too late

>>8484758
You're not repressing, anon. You're waiting for the cure for the AGP. Hold in there!

I think today is the day I attempt to try to transition. Repressing has lead to nothing but misery and I'm my wits end.

>>8484790
Best of luck, anon!
What are you gonna do? See a doc/therapist? Self-med?

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>>8484768
if we could "cure" a sexuality then humanity would have "cured" homosexuality a long time ago. there is no cure for this. but I can at least try to put a band-aid on it by transitioning. A better thing to hold out for would be better methods of transitioning.

>>8484762
thanks for the inspiration. I know I wont pass but hopefully I wont look terrible. I just dont know how I could handle facing my relatives or people I knew or anyone as a hon really...

>>8484790
just be a fag and move somewhere you can be a fag. moving is way cheaper than transition over the course of a lifetime

>>8484809
I think I want to just go to the informed consent clinic since it's literally 25 minutes away, but I have to work up the nerve to call them.

>>8484823
Curing homosexuality is different because it's the sex you are attracted to. An AGP doesn't need to change that to not be AGP. She just needs to mentally trick herself into changing the focus of her attraction.

>>8484912
>she
Oh hey look, it's cuteposter hon.
You're all here to troll me.

>>8484823
Transition doesn't work. It has no proven benefits long-term, and should only be used in cases of transition or suicide as a palliative care measure. Also, we need more research. Not much is known wbout AGP.

>>8484952
Blanchardfag moving to a different thread now that all the other battlegrounds have been le exhausted :(

Daily reminder, repressed anons. This is what you will grow into. You will grow into Blanchardfag, wasting every hr of your life to convince young twinks how to live their lives. Watch what you will become, and take the fucking skittles already.

>>8484962
Don't listen to bitterhon baitposter.
I' not advocating you don't take hormones.

I'm advocating that it should only be done in cases of transition or suicide as a palliative care method.

>>8483915
thnaks for reminding me I have no chance and no hope, I really needed it

>>8484973
This, Transition doesn't work.
But you DO have hope.
Join me on the fight for a cure, anon.

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>>8484980
Im tired of your circus, I went to bed when you've been shitposting allover the board, I woke up - and you are still here with the same meme, please stop, you are not helping anyone
go twit to Blanchard and make a cure together if you really want to

>>8484980
Transition does work, it's the only thing that does.
There is no cure and there never will be, at least certainly not within any of our lifetimes. There is only treatment, and that treatment is transitioning.
You can't simply will yourself into being cis, life doesn't work like that.

If you want to live a lie that will end in pain and suffering, go ahead. But don't drag other anons down to Hell with you.
Stop giving them false hope for a "cure" to being trans.
You're not saving them, you're condemning them to a horrible life that will only end in a dysphoria-fueled suicide.

>>8484970
Blanchardfag backpedaling from her earlier "transition is medically unproven rah rah just wait for le cure" position to something a wee bit more defendable but not really lol

Daily reminder, repressed anons. You will grow into this. This is your future unless you take the skittles.

Take your choice. Schizo DID crossposter? Or girl?

>>8485013
I don't use social media, so this is my best form of advocacy. Also, I'm not "shitposting". Believe what you want, but be open to alternate worldviews.

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>>8485025
>4chan is my best form of advocacy

wew lad GG

>>8485019
[citation needed] on transitioning working long-term and the intersex condition being the cause of Dysphoria. I' not lying to myself, I'm NOT TRANS, I'm AGP/Dysphoric. Transition doesn't work long-term. Still waiting for any evidence that it benefits suicide rates longterm, let alone anything else.

There will be a cure, and as I've said before in cases of transition or suicide, transition is an experimental palliative care measure.

>>8485049
Blanchardfag telling herself anything she can to avoid the writing on the wall

>There will be a cure

What, are you working on it tranny? LOL

>>8485033
Nice actual shitpost. This is what a shitpost looks like, bitterhons.
>>8485021
I don't have DID, or sz. I'm not a tranny. Keep making up mental illnesses I have. I have one mental illness, and that's unknown cause dysphoria.

>>8485049
>>8485063
Daily reminder you will grow into this, repressers. Look upon my works, ye mighty and despair!

>>8485059
I'm not a tranny. And tradnarrative researchers will hit a wall, and realise I was right. I've already helped many to hold out for the inevitable cure.
>>8485071
I'm not a "repressor". I'm a man with an illness,

>>8485021
>Or girl?
Or hon, fixed that for you

>>8485103
p s e u d o c i s

>The world will magically come into consensus with me, just like with le trump! It's 2017 meme!!!!

Yeah, you keep telling yourself that one Ozymandias.

>>8485120
>so desperate to convince young people to follow her she'll autist correct posts to remind everyone of le hon meme

just please stop feeding this shitposter, dont engage, its only going in circles and it kills the thread
leave the crazy alone

>>8485140
Yeah that retard just lives to kill threads.

>>8485120
[citation needed]
>>8485134
I'm advocating for a cure. If you had cancer, you'd be desperate for a real cure, yes?

Also, I'm not a she, cuteposter.
>>8485140
Agreed. Stop feeding cuteanon and baitposter, and let's work on the cure!

>>8485140
>not realizing I want to feed Blanchardfag's ego until she has a psychotic breakdown, gets involuntarily committed, forced to admit repressed trans status and then skittle'd

I'm only really helping her tbbhhhh

>>8485178
Blanchardfag desperately trying to copy me in "outing" people, but failing because her lack of ToM doesn't give her as good a samefag detector.

How's silver working out for you, btw?

>>8485180
Think whatever you want hons, I'm not going to take the "skittles".

>>8485189
You won't be wanting the antipsychotics either :)

>>8485194
Blanchardfag spamming + the one or two autists that enjoy feeding her attn tirades

>>8484250
Then it'd be a lot more badass and should be curable with a simple exorcism.

>>8484577
Trannies aren't girls but even the guy who came up with the idea of agp only thinks it could be somehow cured in children.
If you're an adult on 4chan that experiences gender dysphoria then literally the only treatment is transition. Maybe there's an alternative somewhere out in the universe but there's no evidence of it existing and we may never ever find it.

>>8485194
because there are enough depressed and hopeless trannies that cant transition or leave a functional life

>>8485192
I actually already take antipsychotics, for anxiety reasons. I'm not scared of treatment that works.
>>8485194
Because bitterhons like to troll anyone here.
>>8485212
Transition doesn't work long-term. [citation needed]

>>8484952
>Transition doesn't work. It has no proven benefits long-term
>we need more research
Ok.

Post a single alternative with better evidence for its longterm efficacy and more research than prevailing ideas.

If you CAN'T then it is equivalent to telling people with cancer that they shouldn't get treatment because maybe a better easier more direct cure will be found someday.

>>8485227
>antipsychs
>work

Enjoy your progressive grey matter loss, type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease risk, tardive dyskinesia etc. schizo.

Fact of the matter is I'd rather take every human hormone at the same time - male female or in between - before taking an antipsychotic.

http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0924933815300559

http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0149763413001486

http://www.nature.com/npp/journal/v40/n10/abs/npp201590a.html

http://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0101689

>>8485025
>pssh, obviously shitposting on 4chan without ever even forming a formal hypothesis for my claims let alone seeking evidence will surely magically call the cure I want into existence

You are delusional.

>>8485299
Notice how these effects are well documented?
Transition, on the other hand is total bullshit.

Also, I'm not sz. Antiphychotics in anxiety treatment in much lower doses doesn't have as bad effects.

>>8485299
Mate that person probably needs those antipsychotics don't push them to stop taking them..

>>8485346
>he fell for the low doses meme

You wouldn't have if you read any of those studies which showed even mild doses of antipsychs have progressive impact on grey matter.

Keep letting your psychiatrist control your medical treatment, though. You trust him, right? He wouldn't do anything to hurt you even if the science says otherwise, right?

hahahahahahahahhaha another big pharma causality

>>8485355
I'm not going to stop taking medication that works, I'm not a dumbass.

You don't need to worry about that, I don't listen to bitterhons.

>>8485368
Keep taking your antipsychotics sally, even everyone here clearly agrees you need them!

Feels good having a brain that is my own with no grey matter loss to line Big Pharma's pocket. But hey, that's just what being sane gets you, eh?

>>8485140
The thread is repression General, crazy denial like this is what it's about.

>>8485364
Nice try. I'm not from /pol/, so I know what actual evidence is, bitterhon. I'm not going to stop taking meds that work idiot.

>>8485378
Nice try, /pol/. Back to naturenews or whatever shithole you got that bullshit big pharma meme from.

I'm a man of science.

>>8485178
>I'm advocating for a cure. If you had cancer, you'd be desperate for a real cure, yes?
And you would refuse any treatment for cancer until what you consider a perfect cure is discovered?

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>>8484952
>Transition doesn't work
every specialist Ive talked to: "I recommend transition"
me: "sorry, but the ~20 year old repressed neet trannies on my anime website told me it doesnt work."

>>8485396
>I'm a man of science
>disregards the science that tells him these things he's taking are bad for him

The grey matter loss is already setting in. Just continue popping your antipsychotics, sally.

>>8485397
In cases of transition or suicide, transition is a pefectly acceptable palliative treatment method, while this heavily lacks evidence, in extreme cases I support transition. I'm not here to deny people that are dying their right to choose experimental treatments.

I'm here to make you realise there's a possibility of a cure, and to not transition unless you have absolutely no choice.

>>8485412
>there's a possibility of a cure
[citation needed]

>>8485412
>I'm not here to deny people that are dying their right to choose experimental treatments.

You mean like 2nd generation antipsychotics that have unproven effects in the long term?

Honestly between HRT and antipsychs, HRT has a waaaaay better track history. But then again, I'm only interested in my grey matter. Clearly, you aren't or you wouldn't be on them! LOL!

>>8485227
>I actually already take antipsychotics, for anxiety reasons.
Yet you're still here whining and shitposting so I guess they didn't work.

>Transition doesn't work long-term.
Suggest an alternative then [citation needed] otherwise see >>8485397

>>8485407
The supermajority of these so called specialists are not people of science. They are tradnarrative supporters. Therapists are almost all bullshit. Sometimes, therapy can work but almost all gender therapsts are tradnarrative pushers.

There is no evidence of long-term benefits from transition.

>>8485423
>Everyone is wrong, follow me I know the light I'm always right don't believe any ((experts)) cuz they wrong cuz I said so

How are you any different to the garden variety cult leader by this point?

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>>8485423
>The supermajority of these so called specialists are not people of science.
[citation needed]
>They are tradnarrative supporters. Therapists are almost all bullshit.
[citation needed]
>Sometimes, therapy can work but almost all gender therapsts are tradnarrative pushers.
[citation needed]

>>8485412
>I'm here to make you realise there's a possibility of a cure
Then present it.

You keep claiming everyone is ignoring and in denial about the alternatives but you can't list a single one.

Go on [citation needed]
List a SINGLE alternative with evidence.

>>8485423
well forgive me if I trust my tradnarrative bullshitters who at least study this stuff as a part of their occupation over a random anonymous kid who spends all day on 4chan

Why do you tell me to stop fapping anon?

Fapping is the one thing that keeps my dysphoria at bay, fapping 5 times a day keeps me functional

When I do no fap dysphoria creeps in

>>8485513
>Fapping is the one thing that keeps my dysphoria at bay, fapping 5 times a day keeps me functional
>When I do no fap dysphoria creeps in
Same I actually fap like 3 times a day to keep dysphoria from really fucking with me. If I don't fap all I can think about is transitioning.

>>8485529
>>8485513
This is because you're addicted to porn, if you can tough out NoFap for long enough, you'll cure yourself.

Don't trap yourself, just STOP FAPPING.

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>>8485513
>>8485529
>tfw want to fap to stop the dysphoria
>tfw hate my dick and never want to touch it, ever
>if I don't fap, I feel dysphoria
>if I do fap, have to touch something which I want to get rid of and hate more than anything else about myself
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH

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I can fool everyone. I can pretend to be a boy. And will do. I'm not getting into HRT. But I can't fool myself. I'll try, though. Being a boy is easier than being s tranny. It's too late already, and I don't want to be a woman, I just wanted to be a girl...
Pic related desu.

>>8485563
Nope. Go back to skeletonchan where you belong Blanchardfag

>>8485578
This picture is the truth.

>>8485564
Don't give up, don't give in.

>>8485227
>tfw antipsychotics made your dysphoria worse but also grew you tiddies
well

>>8485675
there was a lawsuit about this, get your money dummy

>>8485683
Hot, source?

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A friend invited me to go to a binge but i'd rather stay home. Even bought myself a nice bottle of rum.

Nice to see bitterhons raiding this thread btw

>>8485578
You can also take hrt and live as a feminine boy if you can deal with tits/pay for raloxifene. But yes you can simply accept you're a boy like Manly anon did.

I feel the same as you. I've wanted to be feminine and a girl, but i surely don't want to be a woman, if that makes sense.

>>8485716
Oh there is really nothing hot about it despite what your naughty brain might picture. Dopamine balances prolactin and if you block dopamine with antipsychotics you can get hyperprolactinaemia which would give not just juicy sexy juggs (yeah you wish) but many other negative consequences

http://www.medsafe.govt.nz/profs/PUarticles/hyperpro.htm

>>8485941
I've never tried rum actually, is it any good?
Dark or white? I tried drinking vodka today but it was really shit cheap vodka and I barely got tipsy because I couldn't stomach it, just drank wine till was drunk.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hRXc_-c_9Xc

The path of transition


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dikoBrTCF5k

The path of repression
Raise. Your. Fist. Repressonist!

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>>8486079
>path of repression
Nah, that's this.

>>8485941
>I've wanted to be feminine and a girl, but i surely don't want to be a woman

being a trap - guy that passes for girl - makes me feel like a degenerate,
but transitioning doesn't work b/c you can't be female

>>8486098
Could just not be a pussy and not shoot yourself.
Life is shit regardless, I forget whilst I'm drunk so if I just keep drunk most of the day.
Better than being an ugly hon

>>8486079
>dat receding manly hairline

fug, I already have that too, makes me feel so bad

fuck this video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmLX2C9KU2M

>repgen=imperium
>mtfg/gaygen/assorted faggots=eldar
>dysphoria=Slaanesh

>>8483095
I choose to crash and burn. At least people won't think I'm a freak.

>>8483118
Your post makes me think that you're transitioning and by your reaction I can tell that if you hate him because of what he's writing it's probably not working that well for you.

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http://www.strawpoll.me/13269569


The ebb and flow.
The constant storm

"Claim back your former glory"

"Be who you truly are inside, your lying to yourself with repression"

>>8483142
Goddammit Spartan don't fucking fall again.

>>8486161
spartan is a histrionic attention whoring faggot that cannot be taken seriously

>>8486160
Go see a doc, you cant go on flouncing like this, you only hurt yourself more without moving anywhere.

And sorry but you cant let anons make decisions for you, take responsibility for your life yourself, you are a big girl already.

>>8486160

We need you Spartan, keep repressing.
It hasn't killed you so it's working.

>>8486160
>http://www.strawpoll.me/13269569
Keep fighting! DON'T TRAP YOURSELF!

>>8486161
>>8486170
I'm in control...

The switches...they happen too fast. I am two people.

For a time it all once belonged to me. Im amnesic when I switch

>>8486184
I have a psychologist.

The problem is I'm never in Charge forever. I could have things normal if Amy just kept out of this. But the switches means neither of us can love our lives.


>>8486190
I must maintain corporeal form before...I'm going to sleep and lose myself again

>>8486206
Hold on, you aren't repressing alone, nobody said it was easy.

>>8486206
We're here with you Spartan.

You won't end up a bitter hon.
You'll stay a hero, until the very end.

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>>8486224
Wake me...when you need me

>>8486206
Then maybe you need a psychiatrist and some mood medication too

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>>8486075
Depends on the brand and your personal taste tbhh, i enjoy it and drink without anything other than ice. My cousin describes it as "fucking disgusting"; I never tried white rum, some say it tastes better.

And cheap vodka is terrible, but is what i drink almost everyday because i'm broke asf. After you manage to go through the first shots you just keep drinking until you pass out and don't give a fuck about the taste

>>8486101
same with me, the idea of being a trap makes me feel liked a degenerate. And even if i end up transitioning and passing as a female, i would not like to live, act or be treated like one.

>>8486079
If the world was violent like in Warhammer, Halo or GoW world i would proudly be a pshyco soldier that fights for our world and hails our great emperror;

But nothing interesting is happening in the world and the army sucks if you don't live in USA. No reason to keep being a man but no reason to be a unpassing hon or something stuck between male and female.

No place for me in this world, i'll just put a bullet through my brain while sitting in the edge of a bridge.

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spoiler: Spartan's other personality is cure-fag

>>8486269
Hope not, cure-fag seems like the most insecure twat.

>>8486267
Oh right, I will try it if I ever have the money.
I bought a litre of some shitty cheap vodka last week, it's gone now, I sat in a field drinking until I couldn't move and smoked until I got sick.

>>8486275
I'm not Spartan.

But I support Spartan in his journey against the eternal evil of AGP.

Dysphoria will take a lot of us, but it won't take me.

>>8486359
>the eternal evil of AGP
stop!!!

>>8486408
It won't be eternal.
Wait for the cure, it's coming.
We just have to believe.

>>8486429
>the cure, it's coming
[citation needed]

>>8486429
There is no cure, this is life we have chosen, we either accept it, get on mones or off ourselves.

>>8486429
agp can't be cured because it's not an ailment.

>>8486429
>a cure for a paraphilia

LOL

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>>8486613

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>>8486613

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>>8486631
Typical tricks.

>>8486160
Hey Amy, quick question for ya: what name does your therapist use for you? Amy or your boy name? If it's not Amy, you should have her/him try it out without you, see how you feel.

>>8486644
>fucking jewish conspiracies!
>b-but I'm totally not a /pol/ spammer

>>8486746
>without you
with you*

>>8486267
>i would not like to live, act or be treated like one
living as a woman is not what you think it is
there are some positives but it's completely different and you find yourself in this weird reality b/c your male-ness never goes away, and you never grew up as a cis fem. so you're this retarded adult trying to learn how trying to play catchup on a race that started 20yrs ago or whenever you started transition

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>>8486457
It is and a ribbon is the best way to get rid of it.

>>8486756
>without you
I just imagined a middle aged man talking to a cactus and calling it Amy.

>>8486794
Another reason to don't take hrt.

>Fat
>Man boobs
>Think nothing of them
>Start working out, losing fat
>Since belly is shrinking, man boobs become a little bit perkier
>They kind of look like ugly boobs
>I love how they look

Help, I'm supposed to be working out to be more manly and repress more easily, not to have second thoughs about having BREASTS.

>>8487379
>Help,
Stop trying to repress, accept that you're trans, and work on transitioning.
Best help you'll get.

>>8487406
I'm 26 already, so I'm dun goof. I don't want to be a hon.

I have a girlfriend that I love and cherish above all else (yes, even above myself) and she's not...quite comfortable with me transitioning. I mean, she fell in love with a man, and is not into women.

I'd rather not gamble everything on this. I'll repress it as much as I can. Transitioning would only ruin me.

>>8487440
Nothing manlier than listening to metal

If you don't like metal you should transition to a girl. This is the method psychologists use to define who is trans and who isn't.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6exw6xT0oo

>>8487453
>girls can't like metal
But you're wrong. I still laughed.
Also, I like power metal, I'm a fucking faggot, right?

>>8487539

>>8487539

>>8487539

>>8486746
She uses Amy ;-;
And I feel really happy hearing it

>>8486269
I'm not that mean. And I only wanna hate myself