mtfg

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>>7863632
Umm okay sure :O
It's weird I can't see her when I looked from the side under it, but she couldn't have escaped either :/

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>>7863648

>>7863651
she's shawshanked you, gloomy

she's tunneled out and used the leaf to cover her tracks

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>>7863652
uwu


>>7863653
But it's a solid plate D:
And it has no hole in it :<
But maybe I should really try and turn the leaf around, i just hope i won't hurt her >.<

do you like it

>>7863672
its lovely

>>7863671
>>7863664
you two are adorable

i trans my gendre

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>>7863680
uwu no you are~ :3

>>7863692
smol

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>>7863693
Oh sorry I misspelled it >.<

It's actually a hummingbird nest :3

>>7863697
lil hummer

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goodnight

>>7863697
more like a hungrybird nest

>>7863710
g'nite

nini everyone :3

>>7863705
>>7863719
cuuute >w<

>>7863710
>>7863723
Nini sheeni and lini

where can i go for a breast massage

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>tfw you're a girl
>you always have been
>you always will be

:)

>>7863730
Thailand

>>7863735
thats a bit far away

>>7863737
worth it desu

>>7863653
Okay I got paranoid and looked and she's still there, she rolled part of the leaf around her and sticked herself to the stick and I really hope I didn't hurt her ;__;

>>7863748
'm afraid not squire

>>7863733
I love you :3

>>7863733
you made it™

>>7863746
>be a caterpillar
>chilling out on my leaf, munching it away
>strange lady shakes my leaf for no reason
>"what the fuck dude"
>fall off and hurt my tiny caterpillar legs
>will probably turn into an ugly moth
;_;

>>7863752
<3

>>7863748
She told me like twelve hours ago.

>>7863748
My dad told me he loves me like 10 hours ago

>>7863759
Nuhh she hasn't been eating since yesterday, because she thought it was time to pupate, but she was hiding so well that I was scared that she escaped somehow after that comment from >>7863653 so I turned the leaf around and found her sticking to the stick with lettuce rolled around her and she is still there, but I still might have hurt her by moving the thing ;__;
I mean she was climbing up the stick and falling down from it before as a caterpillar and it didn't seem to have bothered her, but she is probably much more sensitive while pupating >.<

And yeah it might actually be a moth .__.
My mom says it's probably a Kohlweißling, but little Röpsje didn't had that much hair like in the pictures :O

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>>7863759
But that was a really cute story anyways and thanks for calling me lady :3

>>7863761
Ɛ>

>>7863767
>>7863765
>>7863751
usually have better luck with that image on /r9k/

>>7863783
are you going to set it free once it's evolved?

>tgfw even a lonely boring life is more bearable on HRT desu

>>7863797
yyep

>>7863796
Mhh~ I can't keep it forever unfortunately~
But it will be lovely to see it fly away :)

ded thread is ded :(

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>>7863831
give it the kiss of life, gloomy

>>7863834
Ohhh I didn't know it was called kiss of life, that sounds kinda nice. In German it's "Mund zu Mund Beatmung" >_<
But how do I kiss a thread? :O

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I don't feel good.
I don't feel good about myself right now.
I'm going to wait an hour then go buy 3 4lokos then go to expo park and just be a sad drunk boy for a little bit until the weed shop opens.
Maybe not.
Idk.

>>7861482
I just get sad sometimes
>>7861487
I don't think I'm a trans girl
>>7861495
You are worth living
>>7861481
Don't feel bad for me.
I'm fine.
:]
Really.
>>7861478
I'm sorry
>>7861476
I don't need help
>>7861517
I really don't like Drakeposter
The way he constantly creeps on girls and like his whole vibe.
And then he gets together with anon posters to bully trans girls and he just doesn't fucking stop like if he NEEDS to see them type out how much his insults are effecting them. What the fuck type of person is that.
Stupid little bitch whiny creep
>>7861505
Do you like Toh Kay?
I know some one here was talking about him with me sorry I forgot if it was you
Check out PWR BTTM ugly cherries
>>7861504
There are no friends in LA.
we are all street trash.
>>7861415
Thanks
>>7861324
I will not ask for money from the same government that elected Trump
I can starve.
>>7861314
Like three hours.

>>7863841
you okay guy?

>>7863843
I'm gonna drink today.

>>7863841
>tfw drake was fairly nice to me

Am I just autistic?

>>7863844
:<
>>7863845
drakeposter is one of the reasons why isla left

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>>7863845
Just because someone is nice to you doesn't mean they are a nice person
And that's putting it mildly

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>>7863847
Hmm..

>>7863836
>In German it's "Mund zu Mund Beatmung" >_<

Such a beautiful language...

>>7863852
p-post your feminine benis

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>>7863855
P-post yours

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>>7863836
>But how do I kiss a thread? :O
i don't know gloomy, but whatever you did, it seemed to have worked

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If anyone has doxxed his address I'll go drunken knocking one day
I'll like take pics and vids and stuff.
It'll be fun :]

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>>7863855
Who is this?

>>7863856
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
>>7863863
your stalker

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>>7863864
Well?

>>7863854
Ahh you think so? :O
It's kinda harsh and stuff, but i dunno it has some nice words i guess~

>>7863859
Yush! >w<

I would like to die

>>7863865
n-no

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Emm

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>>7863864
London..?

>>7863867
No

>>7863841
aww don't be sad beans
today is a new day!
you can do it buddy

>>7863867
I understand. Life can be really sad and frustrating sometimes, especially for trans people and everything seems so hopeless, but things can change faster than expected.
I'm still insecure about my future and stuff, but I found someone who loves me, even though I never thought that would be possible and I'll see her soon and it's really amazing! And the day after tomorrow I'll go to a psychotherapist and it's super scary , but maybe it's the first step to get hormones prescribed officially and being able to change my name one day!
Don't give up Anon. I'm sure you're a lovely person, even if you don't believe it!

>>7863873
L O N D O N
O
N
D
O
N

>>7863845
drake isn't as bad as some people make him out to be

Suicide seems fun desu.

>>7863873
Yes
>>7863876
Nice trip :o
Who u meet?

>>7863880
Yeah he's worse

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>>7863869
O-okay

>>7863881
No. Also how to train voice

>>7863881
I wish I had a life like yours

>>7863881
no

>>7863883
no

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>>7863886
you can start working towards having the sort of life you dream of having.

>>7863882
Thank you~
I like searching for Tripcodes - If you or anyone here wants me to search for something I'd be glad to do so :3
I'm meeting Sertii soon and she is so lovely<3

>>7863889
If i was locked in a room with drake, hitler, and a gun w/two bullets I'd shoot drake then myself

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Wew

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>>7863892
we will out-cute all the other transbian couples.
Or have fun trying :3

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>>7863877
Im in Manchester at the moment

>>7863880
'_'

>>7863882
No

>>7863892
Neat

>>7863892
I hate to ask but can you make a different trip for me?
I miss my old one desu

>>7863899
Mhh~ you do that on your own already >w<
I have nothing to contribute to that unfortunately~
But you're so cute! :3

>>7863885
Lots of ways. It's difficult to describe over text and I'm in my bed on an iPad atm.

>>7863886
Why? Right now mine doesn't feel too good,

>>7863889
How so

>>7863901
Do you want a tripcode?

>>7863902
Sure~ Do you have anything in mind? I don't know your old one unfortunately :/

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>>7863906
you have no idea...

>>7863911
luckily I know it
it's N3T/KinkXI if that's ok

>>7863901
dont worry bby i'll come to you

>>7863911
OdKausRaut

>>7863891
I will ofc, but I'm around the same age as her and I have almost nothing
>>7863910
Compared to probably most of us you have a pretty great life
It could be a lot worse

>>7863911
I would like a tripcode.

it realy hurts to live i want to die

>>7863912
uwu I have an idea how cute you are, but I'm sure in real life you're even cuter >w<

>>7863914
>>7863918
I'm sorry 10 digit trips are pretty much impossible. I only got a few 10 letter words, because I used a huuuge wordlist, but I never successfully cracked a Tripcode from somebody else D:

>>7863914
I can make you a different one with Kink in it thought, that is no problem at all~

>>7863918
I wonder what that means :O
But it's impossible btw.
>The tenth, last character in a tripcode result can only be one of the following: .26AEIMQUYcgkosw

>>7863922
Same

>>7863895
I'd shoot myself in the head twice

>>7863910
suicide is just cheating yourself out of enjoyment and experiences
you're going to die no matter what and ultimately nothing matters anyway, there's no reason to not to focus on the good stuff and try to make the most of things

viewing things like that for me always feels so freeing and strangely optimistic...although obv I know it's hard sometimes especially being dissatisfied with your body :(

>>7863921
Your Tripcode is really good already :O
I'm actually looking for Mirielle Trips for the original Mirielle, but I only got those so far...
!MIRieLLeu2
!MIriELLeoU
!MiRiELLERU
!mIrIeLLEv2
!mIRIeLLEmI
!MIRieLLElo
!mIrielle6w

What kind of Trip would you like?

>>7863923
yeah that sounds good
sorry for the trouble btw

>>7863931
I want MeXGloomy.

c:

>>7863922
>>7863925
You guys need to chillout.

>>7863936
Can't, no weed

>>7863939
want me to get you some?

>>7863936
misery

>>7863922
Same

>>7863930
Cheating yourself out of enjoyment or ending pain?

>>7863920
Maybe, it could always be worse though.

just b urself

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I bet we look like a gay couple when my brother and I hang out. Probably why he doesn't like hanging out with me.

>>7863942
Sfine I can't afford drugs rn really

>>7863947
i think i hate my brothers too much

>>7863939
>>7863943

Try dancing!

>>7863948
ooh shame
although that might be good

>>7863922
This

>>7863947
give him a kiss

>>7863952
I'd be a lot less miserable if I were perma stoned desu

>>7863933
Okay I would probably get flooded with trips if i only searched for Kink, so I was looking for /Kink/ and Kink. and Kinky. but within a few seconds I already got flooded with
!Kink.GM7bI
!Kink.NgXX2
!Kink.VwP/M
!Kink.nCw9s
!Kink.QI0ps
!Kink.U/VdE
!Kink.7svpg
!Kink.oqD..
!Kink.HnV8I
!Kink.HzjxU
Do you want anything more special?

>>7863935
Umm I can try to look for it, but finding a 10 letter trip is pretty much impossible, even if it was with random upper and lowercases :S

>>7863945
I agree it can just be an end to suffering
really though if at all possible there is no downside to trying to enjoy life
and look at it this way, if youre going to kill yourself you might as well start using a bunch of really fun drugs and go out that way..who knows you might end up finding a reason to live

>>7863955
that is the dream desu

>>7863959
can I have this one
!Kink.oqD..

Hi everyone
how are you?

>>7863959
I was just kidding!

>>7863961
Sure if you're okay with that :o
I can also look for something better~
Should I just send it to Anna again? She is probably busy at the moment though...

Or how about !/Kink/9ItA or !/Kink/htt6 ?

>>7863955
I tried that but after a while it just doesn't do it anymore. It becomes normal and then you need another thing.

>>7863966
Oh well I'm searching for 234323 different Trips at the Moment, one more shouldn't make it much slower~

>>7863961
Now I also got a !Kinky.ozX6 trip

>>7863968
Well then if I'm not feeling better in a month I'm going to see if I can get on antidepressants this is bullshit

Holy fuck I can not do this
I can't come out to her she has so much going on.

>>7863967
!/Kink/htt6
is better
yeah i'll get it from anna

>>7863972
!Kinky.ozX6
this one!

>>7863923
My first and only trip, from when I was Jequin. Before Kryer

>>7863972
Are you sure that's not the number you've generated?

>>7863874
Thank you.
This really makes me feel better
:]
>>7863880
Drakeposter is a stupid, malicious, manipulative, mean little boy who snorts Valium and gets off to insistently bullying anyone in a vulnerable headspace or that he views as """ weaker """ than him (impossible)
He's a beta, a white knight, a cuck and a stupid bitch rolled into one.

>>7863973
good luck maybe it will work out for you. my doctor gave me a list of psychs so I'm gonna try that soon.

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>>7863965
Hi Myrthe~
I'm okay, how are you?


>>7863977
I'm still finding more and more Trips >w<
Do you want to wait a while to find a better one or should I just send that one to Anna? :D
!/Kink/9ItA
!/Kink/htt6
!Kinky.ozX6
!Kinky.it3w
!/Kink/Id1s
!Kinky.lmXA
!/Kink/cmDY
!Kinky.gvJg
!Kinky.yOOw
!/Kink/sBb2
!/Kink/z3iE

>>7863980
Huh? I'm not sure if I understand :S

>>7863981
uhhh no I'm pretty sure I think? :O

considering suicide

>>7863982
idk I think you two should just smoke a bowl, kiss and make up :3

>>7863987
idk you can send one to anna or keep looking if you want
as long as it's not any trouble

>>7863990
Nah don't then you'll miss my drunk posting.
>>7863987
Can you search for a trip with the words ass eater?

>>7863967
Anna's currently going home. Not sure when she'll have wifi.

>>7863987
Hello Gloomy c:
Glad to hear you're okay.
I'm fine. Had an amazing weekend with Anna but now she's gone home so I'm kinda meh ;w;

>>7863991
I'd be down.
How cute is the lad anyway
Fucking the trump out of him sounds hot

>>7863987
Oh. I see now. Which program is that?

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>>7863990
same
how would you do it

>>7863990
heh.
same, friend

>>7863987
I found it.

>>7864000
alines posted something the otherday about taking 60 grams of diphenhydramine hcl, seems easy enough, i wanna die before my birthday which is in like a month

>>7863996
nobody rapes my brotherhusband but me!
oh and btw, he'll only have sex with you if you're dressed as daddy trump, so I don't think you can fuck the trump out of him

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idk why people are considering suicide, i tried b.e'ing myself this past week and i feel great

>>7863992
Okay I asked her to send it to you~
I'm getting kinda flooded by Kink trips, so I'll only search for more rare ones now~

>>7863993
I can do that I guess, but why would you eat a butte? D:

>>7863995
Yush I'm glad you had a nice time with Anna :>
I understand that it must be really sad when she has to go home though :/
I can't imagine how I'll feel when Rini goes back home and I won't see her for over a month, after knowing how nice it is to be really close to her :<

>>7863998
It's Merikens Tripcode Engine

>>7864003
Ohh that's good :D

>>7864010
because myself is awful and needs to be hurt

>>7864005
interesting...
I think a gun in the mouth towards the brain seems efficient.

>>7863996
maybe he'll fuck the trump into you :)

>>7864011
ok cool
Thankyou!

>>7864011
Thanks anyway!

>>7864013
i can't afford a gun, wouldnt know how. to get one

>>7864005
you better hope that kills you or you'll be in the worst delirium-induced hallucination hell you can imagine
that stuff is NOT FUN lemme tell ya

i hate how laser makes the hair above your lip look the first few weeeks

like it was charred and it makes it look darker

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>>7864020
pretty easy to get in the states

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Now.
Now we drink.

>>7864028
is it starting to get reduced though?
I haaaate the hair I have there so much

>>7864011
Yeah I wish we lived closer to each other ;_;

Not seeing Eirini for over a month after your first visit sounds horrible desu.
hugg

>>7863974

I'm not kidding I'm sitting here all like I need to but I can't

>>7864036
yeah, a few weeks after doing it beard shadow is a lot less and its starting to thin a bit overall

this was only my second session though

>>7864033
start giving a thumbs up instead of the middle finger!

>>7864007
You haven't met me
>>7864011
You ever had someone literally tonguefuck your hole?
>>7864032
Yea lol both my parents got in the state ez lol
Most of my family in fact.
>>7864015
Wew

>>7864047
I was talking about firearms.

>>7864041
You've got to do it regardless.

does green tea affect hrt-effectiveness

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>>7864047
>You ever had someone literally tonguefuck your hole?

literally the best feeling

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what does /mtfg/ think of this style of tattoo?

>>7864064
No.
Maybe if you were menopausal & needed your natural E regulated
But it does help your circulatory system.
And weightloss

>>7864068
looks bad

>>7864068
trashbucket club slut tier

>>7864071
>TFW ywn be this tier

>>7864063

I KNOW that but she's already gone onow about how things are here and she wants to leave and my younger brother is going to a doctor for anxiety and maybe autism and I don't want to add to that...I still have my letter...

>>7864069
thank you so much for the comprehensive reply

do people join the army to hurt other people instead of themselves

>>7864016
Mhh~ no problem, she didn't reply yet thought, so she is probably still on her way home...

>>7864018
Ahh~ you're really polite :3

>>7864028
Ohh yeah that sucks. It's kinda the same with my IPL thingy :S

>>7864039
*hugg*
Yeah it's hard, especially when she goes to Norway for 6 months >.<

>>7864047
Umm that sounds kinda gross >.<

>>7864072
why would you want to be that tier?

>>7864073
Give her the letter.

>>7864084

I'm thinking I'll have to do that. It's not as nice as I remember. I still have a couple days

>>7864082
Ugh that *really* sucks D:

We'll be on our own, then.. Eirini gone off to Norway, Anna to Scotland.

>>7864068
highly degenerate
but it's a good way of telling everyone you like anal

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So I just spent like 8 days with my best friend with benefits. Seemed everything was going good there. Yesterday we planned to work on music together so I heated my studio during the day in preparation for him. He never came and I never heard from him until like 10pm. He posted a bunch of stuff on his snapchat with this girl talking about how cute she is. Just posted a picture of them together captioned, "New Best Friend." Last night I asked if he liked her and he said, "maybeee"

MFW I spend the day waiting for him and heating my big studio only to be completely ditched and wake up to the sight of him with a cute small cis girl that looks almost exactly like his ex.

For real, I need to move on past this shit. Just as soon as it seems everything is working out between us, the literal opposite happens. Every time now for 6 months.... I kinda tripped out and removed him from my life in early January but he talked me back into being friends with him. It was painful but I made the right decision then. I can no longer simply be friends with him. I'm just setting myself to get hurt even more.

FUCK I HATE THAT I LOVE HIM. AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH fuck FUCKKKK

>>7864092
hugg

>>7864047
I just found an !AssEatErkQ Trip, do you want it?

>>7864089
Aww right Anna will be gone for a while too >_<
But we can do it somehow! *hugg*

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>>7864095
i hope so
hugg

>>7864092
Ouch, that hurts... Does he realize he's hurting you?

>>7864092
:(
that's really really shitty, that must hurt so bad for him to treat you like that when you care about him:(

you're cute zhe, hopefully soon you're able to find a real bf who treats you like you should be treated

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>>7864046

>>7864049
:3
>>7864065
You replied to me twice cutie ;333

Ye I've been told/there bodies have told me

Lmfao
>>7864068
The only acceptable tats are big Mexican eagles with the flag of mexico waving in the background.
>>7864082
It really is I'm sorry for posting that.

Y'all know why I act the way I do?
Like how I know how to be nice or whatever bullshit.
Cuz I believe.
You can't just believe off of nim gloomy maeve etc etc.
No senpai.

You have to see it.
Fucking.
Feel it.
If you do.
You won't use those words that hurt them so.

The alcohol is hitting me.

>>7864102
Ahhh I think you shouldn't drink too much alcohol :(
It's not good for you...

>>7864082
yeah it's cool, I don't mind :)

Just going to vent for a single post I'm sorry.

>be 17 years old and be completely addicted to WOW, I didn't realize then but for some reason I had been pretending to be a girl to the guild for a year.
>be 18 and get some minor health problems which gave me a rude awakening theres more to life than just playing WOW and I've been ignoring it for my entire life.
>bell starts ringing quite soon, I don't feel like a guy at all I'm jealous of girls wtf
>go see a psychiater my school recommended about transgender issues.
>basically her conclusion was I wasn't unhappy enough to be a genuine transgender, it would be better for me to try and have something meaningful going on to fill the gaping void WOW left. try this by doing going to university abroad
>manage to keep myself busy enough to suppress the constant alarm going off in the background about my gender. graduate with honors in a masters degree
>be 22 when university is done, still feeling like I should be a girl, alarm bells going twice as hard though, my degree feels meaningless compared to my gender..
>trying to meet some people like me to somehow try and understand my feelings better and learn how to start transitioning. find online group of people.
>literally get bullied away because of my age and the fact I'll be a hon forever, got accused of being a dirty fetishist..
>run away and try to "forget" again by getting a super demanding job, many many hours and a family member got me into cart racing as well so I couldn't be home alone in the weekend.
>be 24 now, work is not so demanding anymore and currently not enough money for racing..
>my girl feelings are still here and everything I accomplished in my life seems so meaningless and fake to me...

Its never going to go away is it? How do I repress better? I'm a lost cause, I know I will never be truly happy but at least I know how to be busy...

>>7864113

No. It is not. Don't become me.

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>>7864100
>Ouch, that hurts... Does he realize he's hurting you?

I guess? I can't imagine how he wouldn't. But I don't have any true claim over him or vice versa I suppose. We are "best friends with benefits." He knows I love him.

I don't know, it's becoming more apparent to me that I'll never truly be with him because I am transgender and he is ashamed of that.

I'm just afraid to give up the chase because of the hope that we could be together..

god damn I hate how emotional i am..

>>7864101
>that's really really shitty, that must hurt so bad for him to treat you like that when you care about him:(

it's one of the worst pains i've ever experienced in my 25 years of existence. I can't tell if the estrogen makes it amplified or what. I don't get it, it's just so painful.

>you're cute zhe, hopefully soon you're able to find a real bf who treats you like you should be treated
I hope. I don't know how to move on from him without hurting our friendship. I don't even think I can be his friend only anymore. It's really confusing and kind of selfish but the idea of being his friend and seeing him with other girls or an eventual girlfriend would crush me.

>>7864102
>Ye I've been told/there bodies have told me
I've only had it once but I wish I had it more.

>>7864094
hugg

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>>7864092
Dont worry about it, picking shitty partners and being in shitty relationships is just a part of being a 21st century woman, it's a reoccurring theme ITT and IRL.

>>7864118
I had something similar with a friend a few years ago, it was the most I've cried pre-hrt, I had to hide in the bathroom a few times at work just to hold myself together
them being with a cis girl just makes it sting that much more

>>7864113
No. It never goes away.
Your options are to transition and have the feelings go down to a mostly manageable level, or to keep repressing and have it get worse and worse until you can't take it any more and either kill yourself or go crazy and become a hon.

Also, your high school guidance counselor is a fucking piece of shit.

>>7864100
OF FUCKING COURSE HE KNOWS
LMAO
>>7864092
its ok he was using you for sex
He was really hot.
the fact that he posted that is so he can idk
Idk.

Don't ever use meth.
I ODed last like three weeks ago.
Cuz I had used it.
And thought I had a tolerance.
NOPE.jpg
I'm fucked up f_am
I'm not the same.
I wish I could take it back.
It wasn't my fault.
I feel different.
Tired.
I will have brain conditions when I get older.
Btw, I stopped using meth for a long time.
"Long"
Some months.
And I thought I had the same tolerance as before.
I ate it. My body knew wassup.
I wasn't drunk enough.
I was throwing it all up.
Meth is from the devil.
I didn't throw up enough.
It fried my brain hard.

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hi im here now

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>>7864130
Emi Emi Emi
hi

>>7864130
yaeoo

Hugg zhe :(
She deserves better

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>>7864125
this has been on going for almost 7 months now..

>>7864129
>its ok he was using you for sex

he isnt using me for sex though. we've never had sex. he's literally my longest friend and business partner..

>>7864125
:\ yeah basically me right now. i just wept for a bit. I don't know why though. I have no claim over him, we aren't exclusive, I can't control him, but god damn it hurts so bad.

>>7864119
:\

>tfw no mtf to FEMININE BENIS

>>7864113
Almost exactly similar story for me
I realized at 17 too but decided myself that I wasnt really trans since it had taken me so long to realize
Tried to keep myself busy and do stuff to distract myself from the thoughts
And now at 24 I have a steady job but not much else going on for a change
And when I'm alone I still can't stop thinking about transitioning and if it could work out

>>7864095
Thank you.
That trip is cool but I'd rather the E after eat be lowercase.
Seriously thank you ur really cool I'm drunk.
I'm falling asleep don't ever fuck with meth or at least don't ever be brave and think u can.
Go sloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow
And ull be """""""" fine """""""""

>>7864092
Move on

>>7864113
I'm sorry

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>>7864141
how do I move on from literally a person who my entire life is connected and intertwined with?

>>7864134
:( thanks beep im rlly sad right now

>>7863922
drugs desu

>>7864079
>implying being in the army doesn't fuck you up

>>7864012
iktf
dissociatives work brilliantly but they can be addictive if you're prone to that kinda thing

>>7864135
fallling in love with people you're involved with business-wise can get messy :(

>>7864132
hihi

>>7864133
yaeoo

is it retarded to feel more like a masc girl than a masc guy
and be really comfortable presenting so, even after starting hrt and liking the effects

>>7864148
>TFW ywn be in the business of lovemaking with nim

>>7863643
Does the op discord need proof or anything that your trans or can anyone join? I dunno the policy and I'm just scared of posting my picture if thats the case

>>7864151
If you're comfortable with it go with it.

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>>7864152
v-valq?

>>7864135
sorry, girl

>>7864137
I feel so shit, seeing cute girls in daily life or seeing media of passing full time transgenders makes me panic so much... I try doing voice training, makeup, clothing secretly in my apartment just in case I could someday get over the hurdle. But I'm just a 24 year old fucking dude in a dress wtf I hate how much of a mess I made of my life...

>>7864138
maybe if you let your brain recover a bit you'll feel normal again
maybe try drinking less :(

>>7864151
I did it...
Worked out.
>>7864157
<3
Hi nimaroo

So three days in to Cypro and I'm not sure if my balls are actually starting to hurt or if I'm imaging things.

help? ; _ ;

>>7864113
Feels like wow is the tranny game, I put so many hours in this game too to repress.

24 isn't too late to transition

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miss anna

>>7864145
>entire life is connected and intertwined with
Iktf :'/ it's gonna take a long time..have to find someone that will like you as much as you like them. You don't want to settle your whole life.

>>7864138
Hmm I've found this two now !AsSEAterQE and !ASseater6w - is this better?
Umm thank you, that's nice of you. Don't worry I won't do horrible drugs like meth or alcohol :S
Sleep well~

>>7864165
ye they hurt a little from time to time for me

>>7864164
hihi

waddap!

>>7864167

What happened to Anna
?

>>7864160
not too late at all
you might be surprised what a few years of hrt can do

>>7864165
happened to me too on cypro

>>7864106
Yea but I'm ok with it being bad for me.
If I don't die before 50 I will be surprised.
Live hard.
Die fast.
Ur body can take it.
At least mine hella can.
It's a temple.
How many years you can abuse a temple before it crumbles.
A lot of years.
Go to the woods.
Go see what a FUCKING animal you are.
You won't die
I would say the woods ain't shit but go there rn see how long before you miss ur "comfort"
You ain't shit.
Wild animals that starve every day and kill and see us as gods beyond them.
Animals that never meet us Cuz they are so far removed in deep innawoods.

They are real.

Bigfoot is a spirit of the woods and he is real also.

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So I get to wake up to my brother telling me that I look stupid and I'll never be a girl and I should just "stop before I take this shit too far"

Then I come on here to see I can't use my trip anymore because of a huge autistic argument about how it's pedophilia for me to have a crush on a guy 2 years older than me

Then reality hits me that the odds of the guy I love accepting me as trans are really low and the chance of him ever wanting to be with me is almost non existent
that he's never really cared about me as much as I've cared about him
that I'll have to sit around and watch while he looks at and has relationships with other girls who don't even fucking love him
makes me want to fucking kill myself, makes me want to fucking kill him, makes me want to fucking kill whoever he's with
I have no idea what the fuck I'm gonna do if he doesn't accept me, no idea how the fuck i'm gonna deal with him not wanting to be with me
I'm probably going to just stay alone, and have nobody to even call a friend
this loneliness isn't going to end anytime soon, it's gonna stay this way for years and I'll probably kill myself before it ends
I've just about fucking had it
I don't want to be alone anymore, I hate being alone and having no friends, and I'm counting on EVERYTHING going right with this guy when the reality is NONE OF IT WILL
I just want to fucking die, I just want to kill myself and let it just stop, it's not worth dealing with this shit and it's not getting better
he'll never love me, and I'll have to watch him be with people who don't even really love him, and all I can do is sit here alone forever
this is fucking stupid

>>7864174
The moon.
Idk.
I'm being a lazy shit spam re-watching the dragon Ball sagas.....
And not cleaning

>>7864130
I'm glad I was waiting for you ok
>>7864092
?????you should have stopped hanging out with him when he said he didn't want to be exclusive because he cared what people thought.
It's all on you really, you're the one getting hurt/will continue to get hurt, and so if you can delete your feelings for him then you'll be okay, but if not, then you need to cut him off, if only to get rid of your emotions towards him and then you can have a more casual friendship later on
Sorry he stood you up though.
>>7864000
>>7863990
Please don't be stupid
www.depressed.net/suicide/suicidefaq
http://m.thepiratebay.
org/torrent/16319629/The+Peaceful+Pill+Handbook+-+2016+Edition+%282016%29+%28Pdf%29+Gooner

>>7864145
Because there are six billion people on the earth

Are there any other voice training guides out there?

I'm trying the one on Reddit for the first time and..

I'm stuck at steps 2 and 3. Am I supposed to keep my larynx up WHILE saying up?

>>7864176
she went home again after spending almost the entire weekend with me

>>7864186
What do you look like?

>>7864186
ok im here

nice to see you

>>7864180
You're going to be okay.

>>7864180
does your brother know you're on hrt?

>>7864180
(hugg)

>>7864193
but I will NEVER be with him, ITS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN AND I CANT DO SHIT ABOUT IT
>>7864195
yes

>>7864160
Iktf
I dont think I could fit in with cis girls/women at this point anyway
But I still cant stop wishing I could transition
It's infuriating

>>7864180
I don't want to minimize what you're feeling because your emotions are valid and you're feeling them right now, but --bigger picture:
You're 15, this is probably one of your first crushes or what not, in the grand scheme of things even if you were cis your relationship with him would go nowhere, even if you did manage to get together(which is again unlikely)
It sucks right now, absolutely, but in actuality this whole scenario is practically meaningless, and ten years from now you probably won't even be able to remember his name
Take some deep breaths
Chill out

>>7864163
I have meth scraps in my room right now.
I'll scrape them away and ask for god to help me again.

Alcohol weed helps me recover.
It's good for me.
Remember, I'm LA trash

I'm sober

>>7864197
Is your brother some edgelord teenager? Fuck him and who gives two fucks what he or anyone thinks.
Its not his life its yours.

>>7864179
Aahhh you say really strange things :S
I also found another !ASsEAter5c trip now~

>>7864197
Probably, but you don't know that for sure yet. You'll be okay either way, even if it doesn't feel like it now, but don't give up hope before you need to do so.

>>7864191
Why do u ask
>>7864192
Good
I'm glad that you're here
I'm happy 2c nim

>>7864155
Please?

>>7864209
merc how have you been

>>7864203
so I wasted my entire fucking youth chasing him for nothing????
I don't care if it's supposed to be bullshit because I'm young, he's the only thing I think about and he's the only thing I care about
>>7864206
no he's a successful normal person and example of what my dad thinks I should be
>>7864208
but I need to do more, I'm not doing enough and it's my fault
I feel so fucking helpless and I want it to end

>>7864209
Becauze people say you're qt

>>7864215
As far as I know there's no way you could verify whether a person online is actually trans or not.

Hugg mtfg

>>7864217
>>7864220
(hugg)

tfw you actually have autism but you are high functioning enough that everyone just thinks your really shy and gets rlly suprised if you tell them.

3yrs ago was a different story though

>>7864220
beepboop

>>7864204
idk if weed will help your brain recover
alcohol definitely won't

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>>7864168
what do i do when i don't wanna do anything
and i don't wanna bring it up to him cause i feel like its controlling or w/e

>>7864187
and?

>>7864186
>if you can delete your feelings for him then you'll be okay
I can't delete my feelings for him. They are far too strong.

I don't know what to do. I don't wanna quit my band or ruin that but I have to stop this and I can't just stop the benefits part and be okay with just being friends.

>org/torrent/16319629/The+Peaceful+Pill+Handbook+-+2016+Edition+%282016%29+%28Pdf%29+Gooner
wow thanks. this is very good information.

>>7864216
I've been ok very tired and very sleepy though ;-;
How are you
???
>>7864217
>wasted ur youth
Lmao
You still have plenty of youth to go, chill out
>he's the only thing I think about and he's the only thing I care about
You'll grow out of it.
Again--you're a kid.
What did you care about 3,5,7,10 years ago? Can you remember? Do you still care about those things? Basically this is a wound time will heal and yeah it sucks now, but you're gonna look back at this and cringe at yourself probably

>>7864217
>so I wasted my entire fucking youth chasing him for nothing????
oy vey you're not even 16 yet
you haven't wasted your youth, you've wasted the part of life everyone wastes because they're children
starting hrt at your age is great, you have a super bright future ahead of you! I know it sucks now but you're going to be fine

>>7864217
>entire fucking youth
>15
I'm basically ancient at 24, I knew it

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>>7864225
Get rekt I had a headache and alcohol numbed it away

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>>7864220
i wish this place made me feel better.

you are all strangers on the internet and it seems no matter how good the advice it doesn't matter to a degree.

thats kinda sad.

:\ i wish i was a better person

>>7864229
3 years ago? him
5 years ago? him
7 years ago? him
10 years ago? I don't fucking know, nothing
>>7864230
>>7864231
I honestly couldn't care less about your semantics
the only thing I care about is a person who doens't care about me

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>overly dramatic teenagers

I think I kinda regret every starting hrt, /mtfg/. I'm kinda even considering detrans. Like I wish I'd started earlier, but I've kinda realized that starting at 18, I don't think transition will ever be able to do what I'd need it to do. I wish I'd just had the wisdom to let bygones be bygones and accept that I missed my chance. Anyone else feel this way?

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>late transitioning smug faggots

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>tfw you snatch your package out of your mom's hand when you notice her about to open it
>tfw it had eyeliner and a bunch of other girly shit in it
THAT SO CLOSE

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>>7864239
MFW 18 is now considered too late.

/lgbt/ should be deleted.

>>7864222
That's the good stuff
>>7864224
Nimmunimmu
>>7864226
Anytime I've crushed too hard on someone that didn't feel the same the only thing that fixed it was finding someone else. You can still care for them but ur efforts should be in someone else. But also I'm saying this like I have any idea. It's been 10 years and im just now getting over my oneitis

>tfw you're an ancient transitioner at 20

>>7864241
You will one day laugh or hate yourself about how stupid you are at this point of your life.

>>7864232
that's not quite what I meant by recover...
make sure you're drinking enough water to stay hydrated!

>>7864226
Maybe you can take a break from the band or go on hiatus
Or maybe you have to leave
Your personal well-being; physically and mentally should be your priority and let's be real--this kind of thing happens when you shit where you sleep. Fucking band members never goes well. Since it's all "on you" so to speak, you might be able to get away with projecting your feelings for him onto something or someone else, but I don't think that's the healthiest thing

At least you can dial back your interactions with him and keep it strictly business at all times and never be alone with him
>>7864236
Ok
>>7864242
Ohhhh i wanna see a nim in eyeliner

>>7864244
can you rubb my lil cheeks beep

>>7864245
>Tfw ur a Stone Age transitioner at 27
Kill me
Nim, kill me right fuckn now

>>7864242
I'd set some hard ground rules about people opening your mail if I were you. That shits a solid no.

>>7864243
mtfg was a mistake.

>>7864247
I have reason to feel how i do
so no

>>7864239
Wisdom doesnt come into it
If you are sure you will last your whole life without doing anything then go ahead
Otherwise just keep going, it's not going to get any easier

test

>>7864243
ikr

like the average trans person starts in their like 30-40s lol

>>7864242
What a piece of trash mom you have. I'm sorry
>>7864250
Yes nimmu the little

>>7864251
you're already dead basically
around here age 30 is age 100 in the real world

>>7864249
ive never tried it on before so it'll probably look like shit

Well I better start bracing myself to tell my mom I'm her daughter

>>7864262
>tfw 100 ;_;

>>7864243
Depending on the person, 18 certainly can be too late. If you saw my face back then you'd agree there was no saving it

>>7864264
(hugg)
good luck

>>7864243
I don't think 18 is late, it's just at 18 I'm never going to actually look cis, I'm never going know what it's actually like to live and grow up as a girl. I don't want all the baggage that comes with this life just for the sake of an entirely unsatisfying result. Idk, I wish I'd just die.
>>7864255
>Wisdom doesnt come into it
How not? If I'd known then what I know now(and I wish I had), I wouldn't have transitioned.
>If you are sure you will last your whole life without doing anything then go ahead
What do you mean.
> it's not going to get any easier
I know. My lifes already fucked tho.

tfw young transitioner but still look like shit bc no estrogen

>>7864268
no >:c

>>7864271
you'll probably pass if you start at 18

and if you pass that means you look cis

>>7864248
Stop caring about me. I don't care about myself.
It makes me feel bad when you abandon me why did you come into my life

>>7864254
The reason is that youre 15 and on HRT on top of everything else
You're going to meet so many guys while young, youll live as a girl well before 18
Just chill

>>7864272
Get on estrogen then?

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>>7864145
>How do I move on
You don't, you can't, you fake it and then you learn to

This will probably mold you for the rest of your life and it will be with you in one way or another. The grief will com in waves and somedays you'll feel like you're drowning and you'll gasp for breath until it hurts, but you won't.

Because you're a survivor. Because you taught yourself piano and compose musc that hasn't existed on this earth with your sheer determination. Because you took your life from being some weird ass male to a beautiful creative woman. Because you survived much worse things and created beauty and love and passion from it.

Yeah, you don't just survive, you thrive.

It may sound like a cliché, but that's because people only talk about abstarcta things like this all the time. You don't talk about it.....You live it, you breathe it, you make it happen.

You're feeling sad now, and I promise you, it will get worse.

But one day it will get better.

And one day you'll take a deep breath and the hurt will be gone, and you'll recognize the taste of freedom and the new possibilities of your future. And then, you'll remember how sad you were and how some anon on a Burmese python training forum pomised you that day would come.

And you'll shed a tear and smile like you've never have before.

>>7864271
I mean that if you think you're going to end up transitioning at some point there's no better time than the present

>>7864280
hopefully soon- doc and parent issues. needa present more to convince them but >Anxiety

>>7864263
Oh
Watch some YouTube tutorials
>>7864262
B-back in my day we can Susan's place and we didn't do any of that unsafe drugging you kids do now!!
You waited for a doctor to confirm if you were a transsexual or not!!!

>tfw young transitioners with supportive parents don't know how good they have it

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please get the job
please get the job

>>7864285
o ok

i want my green eyes to POP

>>7864276
>you'll probably pass if you start at 18
I can and do pass when I'm not in boymode.
>and if you pass that means you look cis
Actually you're wrong.
>>7864283
I don't want to transition now and I don't think I will later. I wish I could just undo having taken hrt.

>>7864277
I just want you to be a little more healthy and happy buddi

>>7863880
trip on drakeposter

>>7864290
You never sent me your resumee, comrade. ;-;

ive been waking up at like 7pm every day and going to bed at like morning

vacations are awful and i have finals in a week and i havent studied AT ALL

>>7864294
well people think you're a girl and treat you as such, so they obviously think you do!

>>7864288
>tfw coulda been a young transitioner with supportive parents if I had just spoke up about it rather than terrifiedly concealing how I felt

>>7864290
Snickers!
(hugg)

>>7864290
JUST B URSELF

>>7864301
hi
(hugg)