I need somebody's opinion about my situation, please.
I haven't posted much but considering I've been a long-time lurker of this board or in general in 4chan, I've developed an understanding of it.
However, my life just got fucked up and I'm not sure if I'm just imaging.
I guess I'll go for a green story.
>>slowly coming out of closet by a lot of important people
>>family, best friends
>>family was extremely shocked, esp my brother
>>we once had a real fight
>>mum is feigning ignorance
>>we never speak of it again
>>best friends are seemingly chill with it
>>even hoping for me to get a bf
>> no qtbf btw
>>my friends and I start smoking weed regularly
>>we said like "every weekend"
>>now we start to smoke on workdays
>>suddenly developing a fear
>>o shit I might be a girl
>>I get that gorgeous wig
>>do kinda shitty make up
>>get stuff from my mum/sister
>>go to friends
>>lel might be trans, guys.
I mean, I even told my grandma so.
I didn't even came out of the closet to her, but she knew of course.
She tells me, she believes me. I used to dress up in my childhood.
Used Make up for fun, and like playing with barbies.
I knew that too. I was aware how feminine I kinda was.
However I never could find the culprit. I used to be very overweight.
I've told myself I gotta lose weight, otherwise nobody will ever love me how ugly I am.
I lost 35 pounds and I still smell of failure.
My question is: should I just stop and live my life as the gender I was born to?
Or perhaps, I keep on, an lose friends/family because I'm acting like a madman.
pic related, it's me.
oh fuck; I missed that point to tell you, I'm 21 right now. :^) youre welcome.
If the filters on your pics aren't blurring it to much and you actually pass now, you'll be pretty as a girl.
Regardless of whether you're trans or not, being a pretty girl is better than being a feminine male, which is the lowest of the low in society.
Keep that in mind while making your decision.
So in the end we do and don't do what the society is asking for?
That's a little short-minded. I suppose somebody can go into length with this. I just wanted to point out, I want to feel happy.
Is it truly possible for somebody to change their sex and be apparently themselves?
How am I able to imagine my future? Am I supposed to go to see a therapist?
I don't care if of some people I know don't like me.
However, my granny was actually very supportive.
It was funny actually I was like
>>hey granny look at my phone,
>>I dressed like a girl.
>>ISN'T IT FUNNY.
She confronted me
I kind of confessed?
But my mother is being bitchy about.
Like she used to be when I came out.
I hated that time.
>My question is: should I just stop and live my life as the gender I was born to?
Git thee to a gender therapist and discuss it with them. Show them that picture, tell them everything you said here.
pluck your eyebrows thinner and you could feasibly pass as is
if you're a gay guy you're not planning on having bio kids, right? even if you're not trans if you wanna keep presenting femme you'll want HRT eventually so get on it for now while you make up your mind, for god's sake don't leave it while you think about it or you'll regret waiting too long harder than anything else later on
>better than being a feminine male, which is the lowest of the low in society.
>Be fem twink
>Still got plenty of straight male friends, never had a problem
Sure they make jokes, i get the feeling sometimes im not as respected as a man, but trannies are much much less respected. What are you even talking about.