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i only puked once
im a psychonaut dude........ what can i say 8-) i only puked a single time and that was a psychological thing it wasnt even cause of the DXM.... like i went into my room and saw the bottles and threw up cus i thought about it, but that happens when i drink as well, like if im drunk and someone says "haha yume i hope u dont throw up ur so drunk" there is a 100% chance i will throw up just cause i start thinking about throwing up lel
idk dude it was pretty easy it didnt taste bad to me, i downed delsym and it was 5oz per bottle and 30mg of DXM per 5ml
yeah i know, i have a really weird ability to not get fucked up by psychadelics for some reason... like i was candy flipping(lsd+MDMA) and directed me and my friends home when we were like 1 hour away from home with my phone on google maps
i can control myself VERY well on drugs, i dont succumb to the retarded effects very easily, which is something thats always baffled everyone. everyone always says im not actually drunk when ive drunken like 12ish shots worth because i can still function, thats why i dont drink alcohol.
here i am though c:
i know my body and i know what i handle desu senpai
i have actual depersonalisation/disassociation disorder irl, so i didn't want to just take a small amount and just feel like i always do but more retarded that just seemed dumb, i wanted the trance state and out of body feeling of I AM GOD, and thats exactly what i got desu
i literally only puked once and it wasnt cus of the dxm, why does everyone keep saying this is a normal thing on DXM?
desu im not super nervous because i'm dating other people rn anyway but also no man could ever love this. idk what the other guy im seeing is smoking but i only ever get naked with people in the dark
Lol why would I be jealous of someone who is a non-passing, rage-filled, doxxed ex-EDfag and probable transbian?
Some of us just don't need to attention whore or let our anger out on an anonymous imageboard.
not right now but i have been wanting to play it recently
gimmie ur skype/bnet pls
also fair warning, i ONLY cheese/grief so dont add me if u take the game seriously
>all this drug talk
suddenly i'm extremely attracted to you
can't wait to trip with y'all portland niggas
my friend got to a point after doing dxm over 2 weeks where they didn't even get an urge to puke anymore
i could never make off with delsym, fuck buying that shit because its 30 bucks a box here. always had to steal robitussin bottles or capsules, mainly bottles though because circumstances
DXM and blunts to the face though
real nigga shit
Yeah that's what I've heard is the normal response. I usually had a modest amount of food in my stomach, but I mean, that was all gone after the first round of puking. Just dry heaving after that ;~;
it was 30$ for 2 bottles which was 1776mg of DXM
that sucks man, you'd be better of buying bitcoin and doing a bunch of LSD
also just for record you should probably get to know us before we trip.. depending on how long u hang with us. NEVER EVER trip with people u dont know and trust very well implicitly, it can cause a bad trip and its not safe!
how is that even possible lol
i have opened my third eye
dude i had like a giant fucking Qdoba burrito in my belly when i did DXM LMFAO
why do drugs affect me so differently than everyone else ???
pic related is that 4th plateau feels like btw
>he can't be straight if he's dating you
My mom said that exact same thing to me.
and yeah dude ive known about the dank net and shit for a while but im poor as fuck lol and dont know anything about bitcoin or how to do all that shit safely. the one dude i knew that was supposed to be my dank net connect so i didnt have to fuck with that my own insecure self is gone now so yeah i need a dope mentor or something
and yeah i know
i know some of you already :)
If you want to reply to bait, you're life must be pretty boring
Me too, all my old drugging and raver friends have moved on and don't do drugs anymore really. Only guy I know who does drugs still openly wants to bone me so it sort of makes things a bit awkward.
>tfw noone to go with you to raves anymore
Yeh, well at least they'll still go to shows and stuff. There's one I know who still parties but now he's a DJ and too cool to be seen with the awkward tranny. Also I made the mistake of hitting on him when I was on a bunch of MDMA last time, we havn't talked since ;~;
Pls be in
E D M O N T O N
I'm 24, so definitely still young enough. Average age varies by scene too. Don't think I could do a hard dance show without feeling like I'm too old now, but psytrance parties are mostly full of people older than me desu.
>I look like Erza Miller in guymode apparently
its not like drinking a bottle of cough syrup though, have u ever robo tripped dude?
i got to like 4th plateau.. all the people that ive talked to have only ever gotten to 2nd
whats the most ug of LSD you've done? cause the experience that i had was basically like i felt like a fucking GOD
dxm is crazy powerful dude..
be careful please!
i dont think everyone is able to handle that!
I'm one state southwest of you
If you're just luring someone in to kill though, don't do that bullshit where you fool me into thinking we're friends and then rape and torture me, just kill me
Seriously, if that's your plan I'll shoot you. But if you're a serial killer or something you can kill me as long as it's quick
AaaaaaaAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa someone send help ..
Not sure what you're talking about. And oh that's what you're doing. But no I have never.
When I did 25i I felt connected to the whole universe. I could feel the stars as well as I could feel the person sitting next to me. that's the most intense feeling I've ever had by psychedelics.
I am bored and need other people to tell me if my audio is working right or not.
>put it in my meowth
>put it in my mouth
>but meowth is also a cat and that could mean pussy
quit messin wit me.
>all the people ive talked to have only ever gotten to 2nd
dude...i JUST told you i got to 4th..WTF
yeah i'm cute but i don't have tits or anything yet. do you just want a fucktoy or a gf? i'd be your fucktoy if you had enough drugs to sate me. unless you're a young nigga kingpen like someone else i know though i doubt you'd be able to
>send a selfie of you to your friend in your best andro mode
>'dark, handsome and smexy. gj'
I have a friend who holds to the belief of being a psychonaut. He made me super happy when he was just all "Well I treat you like a girl cause you are one" one day. It made me want to pack my shit and go be his wife.
if ur depressed or w/e and want psychadellics to help u ur just going to get a bad trip and get fucked up
cmon dude practice some safety here my friend
take some MDMA and only do psychs when ur in a good state of mind
You just have to post 1000 pictures of your gt in them on /b/ to justify it :)
>thats what i would do anyhow, but i'm a dirty whore
I've been doing drugs pretty consistently for 6 years in the hopes of them fixing something. They never do, they're a dead end.
my computer science professor is giving a lecture on his personal shorthand, like there's some kind of standard for java pseudocode
the only thing that i know can actually fix ur brain in a good way is MDMA... psychedelics will not cure chemical depression so dont do them as a crutch its NOT a good idea and wont lead to anything good
u havent done good MDMA therapeutically yet though my qt friend
when u come here in the summer we will do this, and we will try and make u better
are u and mika coming over on friday
i.. didn't know that.
>u havent done good MDMA therapeutically yet though my qt friend
when u come here in the summer we will do this, and we will try and make u better
can i get in on this shit? 4chan ain't the place but lol consider this a cry for help
I'm pretty sure!!
>tfw MDMA made me wannabe an hero
I'm just amazed at this crystal ball you keep whipping out to view my emotions. I'm totally punching walls and cursing loudly to myself. I'm def not sitting in bed watching the Late Show with Stephen Colbert with my phone open.
Depends on some things. What you look like / How long you're willing to stay / What things you'd do other than oral.
I'm basically a shut-in, but I get a lot of traffic (people coming over) no one shady or anything just close people I trust.
Honestly I like the idea of having a cutie to show off. Your job would be to look pretty, get spoiled, and do lewd things with me.
So yeah, A GF pretty much.
I've done an awful lot of MDMA in my time though. I'd be lying if I said it hasn't had a positive impact on my life, that period of my life where I was doing pills and raving all the time gave me the kick in the ass that I needed to come out.
It really has been a long time since it was a positive thing in my life though. MDMA made me vaguely comfortable with myself, but it can't take me the whole way. MDMA is therapeutic, but for me it wasn't a miracle drug.
This is pretty fucking hot desu.
u havent done MDMA therapeutically yet though
i could get some and you and i and whoever else you feel comfortable with could do it with you sooner or later?
i think it would be good for you, you've just used it kinda as a party drug
do u live near portland or?????????
>MDMA is therapeutic, but for me it wasn't a miracle drug.
you probably didnt do it correctly though, now i dont like to make baseless assumptions but im going to assume you never sat down with someone you IMPLICITLY trusted while you were rolling on MDMA and basically sat down and poured your soul out talked about every thing you fear, you love, you hate, all your traumas, your deepest darkest memories, your life story, why you think you are what you are, who you really are, etc. When you're on MDMA your brain is being RAPED with serotonin so no matter how traumatic the experience was, rape dungeon, POW camp, torture, you are forced mentally to think of it with a positive outlook, and that my friend is why MDMA is great, because that outlook carrys on after you're sober, and will continue on forever.
We will do it my little maple leaf, if you so do desire <3
You will be exactly that 2.0. Except the little space under the bed will be a 4 bedroom apartment and instead of anime figurines you'll get drugs.
I dont really want to post my steam here. Got a throwaway or something?
Yeah. The cool kids use it these days. Hipsters use discord~|
I find it funny that people think I'm titch or whatever though. They must be new here.
Ok joking aside, one assbutthurt anon and Amy (Who I'm about 70% certain recognizes this as all fun and good trolling and is going along with it), are way involved in this now.
I kind of wish I saw this while I was old ladying it outside with my corncob pipe.
>you probably didnt do it correctly though, now i dont like to make baseless assumptions but im going to assume you never sat down with someone you IMPLICITLY trusted while you were rolling on MDMA and basically sat down and poured your soul out talked about every thing
I've done this multiple times, they were very powerful experiences. I won't say they didn't change me either, they totally did. If you think I'm a mass of insecurities and nerves now, you should have met me when I was in repression.
oh okay. i'm claustrophobic and timid at first. get me warmed up though and ill probably do anything.
i'm looking for a bf too so this sounds like a good deal so far.
but seriously none of that slave shit like stuffing me in a prison cell and raping me 24/7.
yeah i do
there are at least two people in front of me in class playing warframe
i didn't say it wasn't morally reprehensible, the picture has an element of absurdity to it that makes it interesting to look at
i'm sorry your life was ruined because of human trafficking
>mtfg shitpost power hour
guess nows a good time to take a break
at least its not autistic animoo ERP
Everyone calm the heck down please. You're all acting up and its not attractive at all. Someone greentext something sad or about cocktail lust or about how they hate themselves. Mtfg is for a different kind of negativity. I'm tired of all the bickering. Second puberty is no excuse. I'm disappointed, you're letting yourselves down, you're meant to be ladies not a houses of parliament debate
Any vic, half the anon involved, I don't even know anymore, I have enough to deal with and it may all be fun and games in these trolling fake anger slagging matches but someone ends up getting upset and trannys have enough misery without making each other miserable as well. Hon has lost all meaning and t rage can just be any negative reaction that isn't based around self pity. This place is a joke and everyone is in too deep
Thanks yume, I want to be better too. Little steps forward, I'm trying to actively change the way I think about myself, seems to be helping so far.
This summer will be great though, I'm really looking forward to it. ^^
>bestie doesn't have any time for me tonight
I have no idea how he keeps busy but I'm a little put out
You should seriously look back on the past few threads. Seems to me like every one is getting along together just fine. At this point you're just oblivious to your own shitposting and you stick up for your girlfriends too with and without trip. You can fool new anons but anyone that stays long enough sees it.
Do we ever use the dubtrack radio anymore?
It seems like it would be fun but no one wants to use it ;~;
The only downside to eating in bed is getting crumbs in your chest hair, especially if you are fairly hairy like I am.
I think the courts would call it self-defense.
how are you all doing today? i see we're feeling feisty this evening lmao
>doing drugs midweek and dealing with the hangover in class
Someone please kill me I'm a retard
>tfw this guy still wants to meet u despite u being a drunk retard on tinder and its ur first tinder date that actually goes well and he's qt and smart and a pale sarcastic skinny nerd studying law and u have a good time having coffee and then when u get home u have no idea if he liked u or not and then u realize u had lipstick on ur teeth the entire time
at least you didn't do so many drugs before you ever even got into college that you can't even remember fractions anymore and don't even qualify for high school now
>when you're an adult
no no, please, kill me instead i insist
Yes I have developmental disorders that make me all kinds of retarded
Everyone has petty feuds and grudges that soon come up. No one forgets anything. Of course I look out for her. There is never a thread where everyone gets along fine. All you need is a Kayla post once or people to start screaming at lalalily. Aife was happy she was seeing changes with HRT and was feeling good about herself. I know it's better to not respond to trolls and derail two threads but I don't know. I'm sorry. I'll probably just disappear again now. Have fun mtfg.
Is it a good idea to put on weight before hrt? or eat nothing?
I do squats and shit
the j.cole eyebrows
Maddie posts some of the most interesting things ever.
>she's a stupid hon t b h
pls do not do this
you are a pretty girl and nice and interesting good person and deserve lots of lots of things and yeah
A guy literally jumped up to get the door for me at lunch time, has anyone else made someone a little more gay today?
Faye is a cis womans tho
I heard she has like, 4 vaginas
>implying I haven't done it before
I've used something along those lines before to decent effect. I noticed it's a lot easier to get off my chest if I say it so nonchalantly compared to somethign like "a-anon there's something i have to tell you...blah blah blah..."
H E L P
My GF's mother's birthday is apparently in a day or two (she doesn't know..) and furthermore apparently I need to get her something.
I know next to nothing about this woman besides the following:
>handbags & shoes that cost more than I make in a month
So I come to you asking for something on Amazon.ca (has to be .ca) that I can get under like $50 with 2-day shipping within the next.. hour-ish.
shit like this and the dedication in A Scanner Darkly make me scared to ever do drugs :(
>handbags & shoes that cost more than I make in a month
just buy that bitch a cheap fake fur coat or something. it doesn't seem hard to hazard a guess at something she'd like based on looks alone
RCs are so damn sketchy, MXE seems like it was fun though. My experiences with 4-mmc made me wary though, I feel like I may have given myself brain damage doing it all the time. It's not a fun feeling not knowing what you may have done to yourself. RCs may be cheap but they don't feel worth it.
I will, thanks kuppy.
I can't help but see Darren Trumeter when I look at your gaze
> all these drugs
it's the 8th grade boys bathroom all over again
>high school girls come in
>one girl keeps staring
>petite, glasses introvert not really pretty but not ugly
>finish my food and leave
>by my car when high school girls come out
>wave and say hi to the shy girl
>she blushes and runs back inside
>her friends laugh at her
>realize I'll never be a high school girl :(
Just to Clarify I'm full boy mode. No hrt , etc.
Losing pieces of yourself really does feel horrific though. I can't imagine allowing that feeling to continue until you lose your sanity.
>shes never done acid to ride a bike through a nature preserve on a warm spring day where the grass is as soft as running water and the clouds spell out how much they love you in an ancient but familiar language
i'm already going through that. that's why death sounds great
>sleep is the cousin of death, but even sleep doesn't give me the comfort the placebo effect of nonexistence used to anymore
i've lost more than half of me in 3 months
Lol, I made the goofiest face I was able to, I know it looks stupid.
My cut turned out pretty okay though, Its sooooo much easier to manage now that its short. Thanks so much though, I know its not a great doo but its different, and i needed something different in my life :3
Whatcha up to? Still relaxing a bit? Or getting prepped for another wild social weekend ;)
nobody told me imagining you were a girl all day wasn't normal lol
i just assumed all boys imagined being girls.
wasn't until i tried dating and stuff where i realized i was fucked up
Yeah short hair is more manageable but I just want long straight hair so badly ;-; and I know what you mean change is good!
Just relaxing, spent a long day getting a friend out of a really shitty situation and like, exhausted from arguing with them lol. Sometimes you have to though to get people out of their delusions.
Going to be a bit social this weekend yeah, friends having a birthday thing so excuse to go drinking and see some friends I haven't talked to in a bit.
>tfw i have everything in my life that should make me happy but im not at all
ive tasted happiness in the past and this isnt it
i just want someone to save me
I bet all the guys will hit on ya :3 then blame the alcohol when you turn them down
It was the first haircut i've had in about 2.75 years so I was super nervous, plus i did it myself so I know its a choppy crappy cut but it'll grow back out with time. Your hair is already pretty long! Are you going for a certain length? For a long time i wanted my hair long enough to be able to cover up my nipples (the only real reference point i had made)
Its so weird, before HRT i used to buzz down my hair to nothing because it was easy to manage.
If ya end up super wasted after the b-day party, you should steam me so we can have a fun conversation ;)
>ywn stay up late talking on the phone to your best friend about relationships
>ywn wear an overpriced dress to prom
>ywn experience teenage angst over puppy crushes
>ywn menstruate for the first time and have your mom explain it to you
I won't sugarcoat it, the process of putting yourself back together isn't easy. When it starts you'll feel like a damaged, fragmented shell of a person. As time goes on, you start to get a bit of a spark back. More time still you start to feel like the pieces are being repaired. Even longer, and you'll begin to feel whole again.
It's never too late anon.
i seem to be stuck between cycling endlessly from feeling damaged, hopeless and permanently lost to alright and sometimes hopeful. but neither sticks other than an underlying feeling of doom that i'm destroyed lining the brief hope i occasionally get. so i tend to think i'm ruined since i keep cycling between feeling broke and very brief short periods of ok. i'm so arbitrary i can't even gauge myself tbqh
Aw thanks, though with these friends I honestly don't expect a ton of guys.
Oh wow that is a long time! I couldn't tell you did it though so doesn't seem bad ^^. Yeah it's kinda long but I want it likee, down part of my back long ideally. IDK maybe I won't like it when I get there but I can always cut from there ofc! I never did the buzz but yeah short hair was always more manageable, though I did have a ponytail in highschool for a while when I was first thinking about coming out.
O.o hehe alright it's a date then! :P
It really is. Happiness can't seem to last for long and finding positivity in everyday life is like finding a needle in a haystack. Pretty much everything feels like a chore and loneliness only adds to that desu.
>taking acid and riding a bike
is this even possible?????????? this sounds fun as fuck but holy fuck that doesn't sound safe
today I finally told my doc I want to be the little girl
>get hair all nice and qt
>wind and rain instantly ruins it
J D I M S A
This sounds cute.
>tfw no friend to hug you through your emotional breakdowns
i find it really emotionally draining and stressful when people are having emotional breakdowns because of something that im completely unable to empathise with, but i understand that when im freaking out about shit thats oddly specific nobody can really help
just be there for them thats all that really matters, u did what you shouldve done. just be there for her, if you cant empathise since ur not a tranny then just hold her and be there for her, if u like go on about some stock pick-me-up phrase or something you'll probably just piss her off
my inadequacies as a person and lack of strength are what led me to using drugs to cope
my inadequacies can be routed back to my upbringing, environment and how both of those things have seemingly permanently programmed me
programming is the key word
>tfw caught the AAP bug and now all I want to do sexually is pretend to be qt nature-cheating femboys (which tbf is what most of us here look like anyway) with another mtf and get lewd while forcing hrt pills down each others' throats
Hit me up bb. I'll pretend to be your qt femboy in bed.
> not looking outside for bad weather before doing your hair
> walking directly into said weather
What was I supposed to do? Stay inside all day? I'm a busy girl, I've got things to do
Yeah I'm not trans so I don't really fully understand how she feels and I never know what to say. I don't really give her any pick me up speeches because they piss me off too. I just feel kinda useless and it upsets me that I can't help her more.
>i had met one but shes gone now, now im lost looking for another
Wow, me too.
>i know those feels, im just floating waiting for someone to come along and change it
Fuck me. I haven't felt like myself since they left. And even then I thought I was a shell. Now I am truly nothing.