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>tfw you miss healing but you don't miss MMOs.
I just want to healslut one more time...
post someone famous you look a lot like
I never will. I'm a fucking tranny lesbian, I'm unatractive, and I get too attached too quickly to any girl that's nice to me since I've never really had real friends in my life, and this creeps people out and makes them distance themselves from me. I'm doomed to be alone forever.
I want to carry a transsexual by his thighs and fuck him senseless but I would vinyl tape down his penis so it wouldn't be dangling around.
its because the bait is an attack on our sexuality and intentionally worded for maximum dysphoria
>tfw all the chasers who come here look like that
but you know it's bait. why even reply to it at all?
after that it's just a matter of booking the flight and figuring out all the other details i guess. ive never been overseas so im kinda unprepared. anyways i need to rest, my chest has been acting up on me for the last half hour. ily bbgurl.
>that cat on the right
pls, i regret it enough already.
i'll try my best, don't know what the fuck is up with my health, my heart has stopped beating twice this week but i ain't dropping dead yet don't worry about that. not until i'm in those arms. (*‘ω‘ *)
I'm trying to get cock today >.>
>tfw drunk tinder slut
I was the healslut in my guild
The guys would get drunk and hit on me to ERP late at night
>it's not gay right?
>tfw going to die a 40 year old virgin who's never known the love of another human being.
Also how the fuck do I get Samsung autocorrect to include the spooky boogeyman "naughty words". Getting tired of shit like virgin being corrected to Virginia
I got my name change yesterday.
Everytime it says "he" and "his" on the document it's in bold like they're rubbing it in my face. It's super weird and I wonder if it's like that for others.
Okay guys I am about to go to the pool now. When I come back please try to be funny so I have something to laugh at. Unwinding after 20-something hour fast just isn't the same if all of you are miserable and depressed.
Oh and no meltdowns pls. Those get stale fast.
>body had been rumbling like I'm the flying fucking Dutchman out at sea since I woke up.
>giving me Hella gas
>hasn't gone away in an hour and a half
>have an interview at 10
>no meltdowns please
I can't make any promises there.
>Figure I might as well pig out for a bit because hrt's making me hungry and it's probably trying to get calories so it can distribute fat femininely or whatever
>Dad(who I'm in the closet to) comes into the kitchen while I'm finishing off what was left of our milk
>He makes a comment about how he's noticed I've been trying to gain weight and compliments me on my "pecs"
>Tells me if he had more free-time he'd like to work out with me sometime
oh god, he's gonna be so disappointed
As easy as everything else has been. No trouble, no backlash or even dirty looks. I was in make up and a skirt idk no one gives me a hard time around here doing bureaucratic stuff which always surprises me.
The hardest part was trying to get my mom's approval, which didn't happen and was upsetting, but I just went to the county courthouse, went to the probate judge's office with my social security card, birth certificate and driver's license with a county address on it. I filled out a form with both names and the reason why I was changing my name.
I wrote something like "To better reflect myself personally and professionally". I didn't want to put "because I'm transgender please respect my pronouns" on an official government document or I would have done something ridiculous like that.
She handed me three sheets of paper that are a type of court order. I took those to the social security office and my new card is in the mail. Once I get my hands on that I can change it on my licence then work then... I don't know. My bank account I guess. I suppose I need to get my birth certificate changed too but that seems insignificant.
I just wanted to be like "okay okay jeez I get it. This doesn't mean I'm legally a girl, I know."
You don't need a lawyer to do it. It was pretty clear and straight forward, at least it was here in Alabama.
my sister bought me some shampoo and conditioner as i had been looking for a new one to try and its jacked up my hair making it like greasy straw. fuck this i'm going back to no-poo, my hair naturally is nicer
This used to be kind of true, except heavy is now mentally crippled.
oh gosh congrats.
yo, tho, changing the name on my bank account has been 10 times harder than changing it legally. i'm about to just get a new bank instead of playing blindfolded hopscotch with these assholes.
When I went for my name change, people were setting the court room up for another case and everyone kept looking at me as the judge was asking me questions on why I was changing my name.
I was paying a traffic ticket and the line had like NO privacy, people were crowded and really close behind me in line when I went to pay it, and she just SHOUTED my legal name it was so embarrassing.
I'm glad that's not going to happen any more
Sorry to hear your experience went like this (been a bit distracted by some stuff with a friend this morning) but yeah that's not how it was for me, all docs say she now, but I think I legit just got super lucky.
How was that traffic stop? "Alabama cop" inspires fear in me.
Caddy what do about my situation I sent u on skype?
OMG I thought I was going to die, seriously. I was on my way to work, in a dress, my registration went bad a month before, realized my insurance went bad the week before, and I lost my licence the night before. I was just like "fuck it, here, just take me to man jail I deserve it"
But the guy was so super nice to me the whole time, gave me a warning for the licence, insurance was a fix-it ticket so that didn't cost me but I had to pay for the registration fix. I've been meaning to write a letter or something. I told one of the other officers that visits the library that officer so-and-so was so kind to me at a time that I may have not deserved it and I happily paid that $250 since nothing else came of it.
omg I hope you know that was sarcasm
i d k t f
i am a walking proof not everyone is ugly here. i can at least speak for myself.
- DIY transitioned at 15
- look better than most cis girls
- have a dreamboat cis boyfriend who's openminded
- 5'7 / 135lbs
- literally perfect
- have the money to spend on quality beauty products and expensive pretty clothes
- expecting srs when i graduate from college this summer
some of us here have good lives you know?
>tfw healing your crush and we rarely lose
This photo made me cry ;-;
I just want to be like anybody else, I don't care about money or popularity, I just want to be normal, why is that too much to ask?
In the absence of being normal, it certainly doesn't hurt to take a bit of pride in being abnormal. Chasing normality hurts too much.
>tfw he doesn't think I look like a manly man :O
Yeah idk I haven't thought about it much since I've been using it for so long. It's well past time to have done this.
Uhhhh maybe if I wasn't with someone I cared about right now. I would have gone on a date with him at least. I don't remember what he looked like. I was too scared.
Weird question by the way..
That's what they say but you never know what they really think.
you don't have to let him down
My super productive day ended up largely pointless.
>Made doctors appointments for checkups and blood work. Forgot to ask why they didn't change my title over when I changed my name over and told them it was a gender reassignment thing.
>Got my passport change sorted but my countersign guy lost his passport and couldn't do it.
>New shampoo wrecked my hair
>everyone seems pissy today
>I feel ugly
>get my last cypro order through before I move to script, ordered my estrogen the week before, still hasn't come
Fuck what a pointless day effort and money spent for nothing
But I feel like a fucking freak every moment I'm awake... even when I'm alone and I only have my own judgement to face, not the public's, I disgust myself and the thought that learning of and starting HRT earlier would have solved much of this, if not all, makes me want to die.
i'm doing a good job!! yatta
That's my point, it takes willpower and strength to deal with being visibly abnormal day in and day out. Hell even if you're not visibly abnormal in this case you'll still feel that way. If dealing with that is not something to take pride in, I don't know what is.
So....what's the difference between the two main whoremone pills?
Spino and wat?
which one's better and y?
Also do they also block androgens? or do you have to take an additional androgen blocker?
spiro blocks T
E is estrogen
cypro also blocks T, is much stronger, u prob wont get it, can hurt your liver, makes u pee less
1) they're not as bad as back when it was a popular shape, but they're bordering on that seriously outmoded trend of making your brows look like sperm.
2) always better to start with too much brow than too little. don't wanna overpluck.
spiro is an anti-androgen. it directly blocks androgen receptors, but also binds to progestogen receptors which through the HPG axis suppresses gonadotropin release therefore lowering testosterone production too.
the other anti-androgen you hear being talked about is cypro which works similarly i think? cypro might have more progestogen action and i don't think it's a potassium sparing diuretic. desu i don't know much about cypro.
then for estrogen you probably want either estradiol valerate or 17β estradiol
Stop having full conversations with the other trenders on the board, you autist. You've been here a week and the past few threads have been all about your very sudden decision to transition and tehe I'm one of the girls now. Just quit acting so obnoxious.
Compared to what though? You're not a freak, nobody here is. Focusing on the past and what could have been/should have been is a good way to drive yourself insane. This is the present, and frankly society judges trans people harshly enough externally without that judgement also being propped up internally with self hatred. Just gotta keep moving forward and take the steps necessary to be vaguely comfortable in life, it's all there is ;_;
At some point in the future though, when you're more content, looking back on not killing yourself is likely to feel like an achievement, and one to be grateful for.
it's literally just how i am lol.
don't worry i won't be here as much once my computer gets repaired.
nahh cypro is more effective it's just not like... the FDA doesn't approve its use in the states. it's used more in Europe. but yeah it does have more side effects. like people might feel like they're getting more effective results on it even if they feel like they're dying.
i envy the generation of trans peeps who will have affordable access to non-peptide GnRH antagonists when the patents run out on them and generics become available.
> tfw my parents might freak out
> tfw it makes me physically sick thinking about it
>nahh cypro is more effective it's just not like... the FDA doesn't approve its use in the states. it's used more in Europe. but yeah it does have more side effects. like people might feel like they're getting more effective results on it even if they feel like they're dying.
cypro sounds super sketchy honestly. Results at the cost of your health. eh
i was 19 not that long ago lol.
i mean i still KINDA have a future? i'm a pretty happy person overall lol. i like to stay optimistic.
>putting up with bitter jealous anons
But... That's like, the fun part of being here...
I switched over to Cypro for an entire year until I got sick of lactating randomly ._. no matter what dose I was taking I would still lactate. Squeezing my breasts like literally a skinny stream of milk would come out..
Two years of spiro later and my boobs aren't quite as big as then, but at least I'm not a wet nurse anymore.
Well, I'm giving myself until the 23rd of May, 2022 to feel better, and if not I'm just gonna off myself instead of lingering on for another 40-50 years in total emotional agony. That'll be exactly 10,000 days since I was born. So it's not imminent at least.
>Focusing on the past and what could have been/should have been is a good way to drive yourself insane. This is the present, and frankly society judges trans people harshly enough externally without that judgement also being propped up internally with self hatred.
you often word your posts in a similar way e.g.
"but if that's the case then you'll feel terrible"
well yes I feel terrible, that's kind of what was said, if it was simply a matter of flicking a switch and changing ones' thought processes or mood then we would all just ignore the trans thoughts and carry on with our lives as normal instead of ever being here in the first place, that's not how brains work
take it with b12 (which it depletes, as has been studied. i had stores which were undetectable after months on it at 17. am also a vegetarian, but i think "undetectable" is pretty extreme even considering that) and also maybe an antioxidant or something (since it probably impacts liver gsh)
i'm coming up to 15 years on the garbage which is way londer than one should stay on it. now that i may have access to surgery, or at least interim orchi, getting off of it is a significant motivator. while i'm in endo limbo a doctor i saw didn't even want me on it and wanted to switch me to a gnrh analogue.
cpa does work, but you should prioritise something permanent--tho u should consider whether you may regret not having stored fertility which can unexpectedly sneak up on you (especially if you are an only child, or as you grow up and everyone you know is having babies) spermatogenesis completes in minimum 70-90 days, after which the permanent infertility thing seems a myth (trans women seem to have impaired fertility pre-hrt already in the few samples studied for reasons unknown, but that doesn't rule out ivf, except for the fact ivf is fucking expensive and involves invasive oocyte retrieval and direct placement of the embryo into the uterus via the cervix. if trans women may be able to carry donor uteruses successfully tho, donor ova may all people need in the future tho)
I am the hon queen and I dunno what video james.
My way would be a harsh thing to teach. And as such I'd rather not. Once you've seen death in the eye, nothing really matters anymore because you simply start living as if you were already dead. But I doubt the price is worth paying only for the confidence it brings.
Yeah, I often say the same thing, to an extent I'm trying to convince myself as much as I'm trying to convince you. I know it's not like flipping a switch, one can't simply just be happy, it takes years, and it takes an effort to change one's thought patterns and outlook. Getting from a place of thinking "I am a freak" to a place of "this is who I am" is a prerequisite to being happy.
I hope that you can get to a place like that, hell, I hope everyone here does. The ones that do seem like they have an amazing sense of inner peace. There's still plenty of time for your life to start, 2022 is a long way off.
Nope, I identify as bisexual leaning towards males
Wow, cypro is weird af. I can see why you'd want to switch though.
Never heard of these games but they sound like autism if i'm going to be tbhon.
no. i guess i should get one eventually. let me think abt that and how ppl share contact info on 4chan without insanity occuring. ty, btw. :) sorry if i don't remember our convos but only recognise your name, i'm really crap at being able to read 4chan. i'll look at the archives to refresh my memory
I'm not that lonely but trannies just hate me for some reason.
elanna i only threw up one time
i was like on 3rd plateau so thats why i just dissapeared
i went to my room while i was tripping which was hard and then i saw the actual bottles of cough syrup that i drank and for some reason that made me throw up thinking about how bad it tasted
after that i was fine though
it felt like i was gone for like 2 years though
i had out of body experiences, i felt like god(which i said a lot apparently), and shit like that
it was nice, i kinda feel like a retard right now though the afterglow is VERY apparent in that it makes u fucking stupid af lmfao
but yeah im fine, dw elanna :3 i had a lot of fun and i feel A LOT better than i did yesterday
>Getting from a place of thinking "I am a freak" to a place of "this is who I am" is a prerequisite to being happy.
Why have only one when you can have both. I'm a freak, and like some really famous guy used to say, I am what I am and that's all I am.
>tfw the qt you're healing says you're really good
If you asked a few months ago I'd say no (but I'd only known one trans person before then), but I actually can say yes now. Frankly, meeting someone who's both trans and comfortable with themselves has given me a lot of hope.
Tfw the qt ur cheering manages to beat the odds, win super bowl 50, and there's nothing oddish can do about it
>tfw living in Colorado while working at a grocery store
>working Super Bowl 50
>Was suppose to have it off because my vacation started that day
>Vacation start moved to monday
It was a pleasure knowing you girls. I'll greet you all in Hell.
i'll root for the colts and whatever team peypey is on lol
do it faggot, at this point you'd be doing me a favor
Working on it but gym is too spooky and I look weird af.
the hospital they made after him is so pretty!
i would always go there and sit in the lounge while my dad was working :3
i miss indianapolis
I kinda want to go on a webcam service like cam4 and make money... not because I really need the money (I have a great career), but because I am a bit of an exhibitionist and it'd be really enjoyable to me.
How do I tell my bf that I seriously want to go on a cam website for fun? Is it possible that it could somehow get back to where I work and get me fired? >_<
>tfw horny as hell
We'll see who is lewd when I hold you down and fuck you senseless.
>man with long hair and boobs and girly face apparently
I would make people uncomfortable
It's time for you to experience your first maiden voyage~
I have actually!
Problem is they look like girls and I look like a tranny
How do people even function on weed? I'm better at some things high (like video games or programming), but way worse at everything that would be required of a functional adult.
I smoke weed every day, but it's as a way to relax. I never understood how people can handle it in daily living.
i hate looking at pictures like these.
Something screams masculine but i can't put my finger on what exactly. is it the nose? high cheek bones? but women have these things too...wtf...help?
LOL would chaturbate let me do that? Just grab some kids books and read them outloud fully clothed on cam for coins? I would SO do that.
The world needs to know about The Adventures of Beekle, my new favorite picture book. It's about an imaginary friend that no one imagines so he has to imagine himself into the real world and I cry EVERY.TIME.
I kind of need something that isn't as much of a commitment as a second job. I wouldn't be able to keep up with that unless it was like maybe 10 hours a week or something.
not as bad as the time an anon called yume and her gf fat and squarechinned
they literally started calling each other those exact things in the thread in a blatant damage control effort
i mean. you're not an ugly person. you don't have extreme masculine traits.
what went wrong? where is it all going wrong? why don't you 100% pass? i'm staring at your face with a notepad rn
>you will never be cute enough to do cam stuff and get loads of dosh
It's like the perfect way to get money as a neet too ;_;
Why are so many anons infuriated by my mere presence? /o/
>Anon Atheists - 0
>Jesus - 1
He meets a boy that can't imagine his own and they become friends so it works out in the end and I'm tearing up just thinking about it omg it's so sad and beautiful.
hmmmmm one of my coworkers does part time work at a hospital, another does secret shopping which seems more ideal since you can kind of decide when you work.
When I was desperate I used MTurk but that's such a waste of time I wouldn't want to work for literal pennies like that again. I don't know. I used to have this job writing for some girl's porn blog and she paid me a ton of money to make up and "blog" gross sex scenarios of the characters she played on a phone sex line. It was super weird but she fired me, just said it wasn't working out.
I would love another gig like that, even though it was awful doing erotic writing. I'm just so not into it which is probably why she fired me.
no? she's only been reuploading pics she's already posted before
i'm assuming she has shitty health because her face looks really sunk in. if she addressed that shed look cuter and pass more
SHOW A NIGGA WHOS GANGSTA
(and eazy e)
thats pretty fucking baffling to me honestly
when i first got completely drunk and high i thought i got the impression that people just pretended to have a complete loss of control to have an excuse to make bad decisions
after doing stuff like LSD and DXM though i kinda can see that those really can just RAPE your ability to function
but even then DXM is the only thing where i think i had a complete loss of control, even on LSD i could KINDA function?
alcohol and weed are small time tho, if u cant function at all on them i wouldn't recommend doing anything else, unless u want to lose control completely i guess, some people be into that
>tfw getting male on some pics on blinq
Confirmed for no pass
Hey yume, I'm glad that yesterday went well, was kinda worried given I know what bad DXM trips are like. Sounds like it was a blast though, I bet your brain hates you now though ;~;
I'm glad that happened at the end of transition for you, it sounds like a great feeling. It's far far better than drawing the process of self acceptance out over multiple years after transition, but that seems far far too common.
i have no idea and wish i did because mines sunk in too
i'm pretty sure to address face health you need to address overall health
let's face it too, a lot of us are neets, it's not surprising at all some of us look 10 years older than we are
i feel fucking amazing and am really happy.. though i feel like i lost 50 iq points but apparently that fixes itself :3
i didnt have a bad trip at all, in fact i dont think ive ever had a bad trip which is kinda odd... im pretty happy though :3
I dunno, I think you're just upset that your random unrequested opinion is wrong and it bothers you.
>lose control completely i guess, some people be into that
i am actually
i've got a lot of experience with weed and enough with DXM, DXM would ALWAYS TOTALLY revert me to childmind and i'd literally be rolling around on the floor in the fetal position giggling at nothing
but that shit's super fun
i wish i could have gotten to try MXE when it was around on research chem sites but LSD is my next target to acquire
usually though I get cooked on weed to the point where I'm just mindfucked and can't be bothered to think critically but i haven't been 11/10 astral tier stoned in a very long time
my first few times being that high on weed were comparable to my first 2 DXM trips to be honest
my 345mg DXM turnups felt like intenser versions of my first few weed stones when i was new to it
i had access to mega bomb weed too but i didnt get high until my 3rd time smoking
>tfw cant get more than 13% feminine pictriev
>blinq still gives me male on a few pics
I need to kill myself.
> straighter angle you look bony
> 45% angle, different facial expression and your face looks different
how isn't that molesting the angles? nothing wrong with it anyways
lol everyone asks for that when I mention that job and I will answer it the same way every time.
Absolutely fucking not. I will never EVER share that garbage. It is the worst most embarrassing and disappointing creative writing I have ever done and will haunt me far more severely than anything I've posted online. Any hopes I may have in the future of publishing or even having an ounce of self respect would be ruined.
>Next goal at 300 coins Caddy will read "The Very Hungry Caterpillar"
i literally said she was attractive too. just didn't pass 100%.
i even said there is nothing wrong with using angles to your advantage.
like wtf else am i supposed to say?
As opposed to random opinions on the Internet? Why yes, I do believe it's better than any evidence you have to the contrary :0
Oh noes out of the possible range of 180 degrees I am slightly plus/minus from 90
>Only 94% female
How exactly is this supposed to be offensive again?
>Oh noes out of the possible range of 180 degrees I am slightly plus/minus from 90
yes and it makes big differences depending on the structure of your face.
I'm glad ^^
Dat DXM retardation though, lmao. I think the only time I've felt dumber was after a heavy dose of MDA. Literally forgot how to operate a car door.
>345mg DXM turnups
dude i did 1776mg of DXM
L M F A O
u mustve only been on line 1st or 2nd plateau dude.. i was on the 4th apparently
darknet or go to a rave
dude elanna i just looked up the guide about dxm and apparently the dose i took was 4th plateau not even 3rd
i basically did the = of taking like 2000ug of LSD
and ive never even done dxm before LMFAO
lol what the fuck? i was told 3000 was deadly and 1000 would probably kill me because of my height/weight
it felt like a 3rd plat to me but i was going on the instructions of my 'friend' at the time
how the fuck did you down 1776 mg and tolerate the puking? the last time i did DXM it was only fucking 114mg but for some reason i justCOULDNT tolerate the taste
i need to steal a bunch of fucking delysm but its hard to since the packages and shit
i used to have a danknet friend but theyre dead now
and i don't have access to raves where i live :(
chill lol, it's cool.
ur still better then like 80% of the people who post on here.
at least you know you're getting unbiased opinions
im literally laughing like the scout irl completely naturally
Wtf why did you take so much DXM that's a ridiculously high dose, especially for a first time. That might have killed you if you had a hypersensitivity, a dose like that would definitely kill me.
Sorry to break it to you sperglord but the opinions of anons in these threads are worthless. You're all 300 pound cheeto huffing retards until proven otherwise and I don't take advice from people who use mobility scooters.
Oh look people talking to themselves again.