Why haven't you gotten yourself a syrup nigger bf yet?
>It sounds like you've got everything on point
>I'd still recommend upping your calories though
That's something I never really did.... Now that I think about it. Wow am I a retard lmao
Just scrambled up some eggs, mixed it with leftover chicken breast from yesterday. Drinking skim milk.
the guy who lives across the street from me placed his study desk right by a window facing my apartment, and he spends at least 5 hours sitting there every day, casually spying on me whenever he gets a chance
it makes me so uncomfortable
at least he's really cute
>i tried smoking heroin the other day
What is wrong with you?
/gaygen/ nothing is going right for me today
a project i worked for months on was rejected for approval this evening, I left my coat at home and had to walk a mile in 8 degree weather, my maths supervisor tore me a new one for completing worksheets ahead of our tutor sessions, I made a fool of myself in a lecture and i have no bf
i just want to cry ;_;
a-at least my lifts went up today...
I might have to end up going to McGill considering how things are going, so i guess ill be drowning in canadians then...
wave at him
Because for some reason I can't get hard when someone has a different accent than me. I hooked up with a Vietnamese guy recently and I couldn't get going. That and he was uncut too, and I don't really like uncut guys.
>I was blown away at how fast my lifts went up when I started eating and extra 1000-1500 cal. I added a plate to my bench in less then a year.
That's pretty impressive.. I feel pretty motivated to gain weight atm.
Do you ever feel like you're force feeding yourself?
not to be rude but you need to eat bigtime
I squat 252.5lbs and ive been lifting for 6 months, starting from anorexia. just do the dirtiest bulk of all time - pizzas every week, burgers, shakes, whatever the most calorie-dense thing you can find is.
>not to be rude but you need to eat bigtime
Thanks for being honest. Also, don't apologize for being rude. If I am going to post my personal info on 4chan then I expect honest critique
>just do the dirtiest bulk of all time - pizzas every week, burgers, shakes, whatever the most calorie-dense thing you can find is.
That's almost worse than GOMAD. No.
Well, you have two options.
One is doing the most disgusting bulk of all time, getting kinda fat and then cutting the weight off in a few months time. Its easy and your lifts will rocket up.
The other option is to carefully track your macros and clean bulk at a small surplus, which is very difficult and really tedious. If you have the self-discipline to clean bulk, more power to you, but I know I don't.
All the time. On my first bulk, I used to have to eat until it felt like my stomach would burst, and still fall short of my goal. I never got to wait till I was hungry to eat, basically anytime I wasn't uncomfortably full, it meant it was time to eat again.
I was on a pretty heavy dirty bulk though, so if you take it slower it might not apply to you.
Iktf. I did ecstasy two nights in a row this weekend and now I have serotonin syndrome or whatever, feel like fuck, all I have is a little bit of dab and no money for a while. hate my life so much
...I don't really go on /fit/ anymore, because I'm out of the closet, but back in my day they were very anti dirty bulk for a lot of reasons.
Was that just arrogant noise, or is it more than a meme? Is dirty bulking the truth?
>I am literally eating the last half of cottage cheese after eating those scrambled eggs, desu
It worked for me. If you're used to being a little guy, like I was, I think dirty bulking is the way to go. It gets you used to eating big. You'll put on more fat then you want, but in my experience cutting is super easy, compared to bulking at least.
> I think dirty bulking is the way to go. It gets you used to eating big. You'll put on more fat then you want, but in my experience cutting is super easy, compared to bulking at least.
Makes sense to me. Can you post pics of your body, please? I'm curious how you turned out.
Also, what do you think about mass powder?
>If you're used to being a little guy
Mass powder works, but it works no better than, say, a steak. Its a waste of money imo, but if you really can't manage to eat more of regular food, mass powder can help.
You shouldn't need it though.
I'm semi lactose intolerant so no gomad or whey powder for me. I'd try them out, but try to wean yourself off them if that makes sense.
Ideally you should be able to get everything you need from your diet. Doubly so wen bulking.
ci-1... just kill me
>tfw negative foreskin
>tfw dry dickhead
>tfw even at my softest no loose foreskin
>tfw have to use lube if i want to fap
>tfw so non responsive that fapping and topping is very meh
that cute little beard
that cute little mouth
that perfect cuddly body
NEW KANYE WEST SINGLE FT. KENNY LAMAR
I T S H A P P E N I N G
>tfw no qt to trick into watching DeadPool with me
it means "good luck". I don't know where it comes from, but a lot of my Skype friends say it.
I am the 145 pound manlet who's been trying for two years. Took a pic to show my body so far. Will be taking progress pics.
What to do if you're embarrassed by your fetishes (and sort of gay sex in general)?
I'm fine with being out of the closet. I'm just embarrassed by gay sex or something. With someone I'm having sex with I mean.
I'm similar. I came out of the closet no problem, but I am completely unable to flirt with people with my friends watching, or talk abou who i find cute, or basicalyl do anything gay-related in front of them.
To be fair I will give a leg.
I AM SO FUCKING JEALOUS OF YOUR CALVES
Right? I have straight friends (guys and girls) that I like to hang out with, and I feel weird doing those things you said in front of them. The guys probably don't want to hear those things anyway, maybe they don't care idk I live in a very liberal area they dont give a fuck. With the girls I don't know why I'm embarrassed
It's hard work, but also a lot of genetics at play anon. They measure 17 inches with a pump.
Some of my straight male friends ask me about my sex life from time to time.
>hey anon I had a great weekend, I got laid so that was fun...have you uh...had any luck lately?
I usually laugh because they know they're being my friend but they also don't really want to hear the gory details. I tell them yes or no then spare them lol
>tfw briefs and short body makes me look like a hairy infant
Not really. I look like shit and ppl give me friendly advice and motivation all the time on fit.
i think they only get mad if you come off as arrogant or delusional.
>I look like shit and ppl give me friendly advice and motivation all the time on fit
I think I might be projecting my fears, then. I had terrible body issues growing up. I was a really fat kid.
I know, and their memes are the best, but I am still scared. I've been lurking there for three years.
>dad or whatever was killed in a car crash
My dad died from cancer when I was 8. Feels.
>he got that swastika tattoo
>tfw want to come out to a gay guy i know
>tfw too unimaginative to think of anything except asking if he wants to go to Pride with me
>tdw because of my denseness I will have to stay in the closet for approximately 6 more months
>someone on gaygen NONIRONICALLY had this done
i still cant believe it
You don't know if you'll be alive in six months, honestly.
Live life to the fullest. Bee yourself.
It's really common among methheads. I knew at least 4 who did it at some point in time.
Of course, with 4chan trolls, it's probably more like ritalinheads, but you know, potato, potato.
this is why nobody likes poltards
they always have to take it a step too far
That makes me feel a little hopeless and have a sense of loss of humanity
Like when you see a friend with depression and you know what no matter how much comfort you give them, you can't really just "make" them happy.
I don't want to lose that, tho.
I like believing in my fellow human beings.
no thats Kaiser88, rugbys friend.
rugby gave himself a smaller swastika tattoo (not a brand) to impress Kaiser, but i dont have a pic of it.
Its smaller though- he cut it himself with a biro and a knife so i guess he couldnt handle much.
>Boyfriend recently finished his doctorate
>Moving cross country with him for his new job
I've never been so nervous in my life
I live in the university center of North Carolina.
There's so many university-accustomed backwoods boys.
They treat me so gentlemanly, too, on account of being so femme. It's kind of nice but nothing I'd want to date, desu.
Gets kind of uncomfortable when they won't stop treating you so delicately.
I feel like it's a much different experience for non femxmasc hookups tho.
He changed his name to Jup, then to SP, then back to Anonymous, and then to Circe, then to several other stupid names, then back to Anonymous, and finally he asked what happened to Whippy.
>Tfw have never accomplished anything besides memorization of lore behind random people on a gay board ill never meet
>tfw I romanticize being in relationships with them for years
>tfw I literally trash newfags because it's the only pleasure that ill ever get in life
>my only pride is fantasizing about being friends with people on 4chan
O wait that's not me because im not a loser. That's all of you.
Pic related do this.
>sorry, african-american hole
That's a step in the right direction, but that's a pretty 'right wing' thing to say. Science is progressing.
Please, call it a "Nubian-African Gravitational Singularity" next time. Thanks.
I'm back from getting lollipops and wine
I should've gotten a scarf, even biking speeds were enough to hurt my face in this cold
Do you guys think gay dating is all that much different when it's between people with really different, like.. for lack of a better word, gender expression? While still being male.
Like twinkxtwink vs twinkxmasc
I could do to explain this better but I think you guys get it.
Do you guys ever think about that kind of thing
I just realized I don't want to be an animation major. I'm in my first year of college.
I love animating and I'm great at drawing but I want a stable, well paying career.
I like: Helping people, talking to people, making good money, healthcare stuff, psychology, medical stuff, space and the universe (cosmology and shit), and science in general.
What career does that sound like?
I think "gender expression" makes a big difference in dating. That goes for hetero and gay couples. Whatever the combination of masc/fem is going to decide the dynamic of the relationship. Also mascxmasc and femxfem can have the exact kind of relationship but because of their mannerisms it's represented in different ways.
A friend of mine and I were talking about this just now
How they're always expected to be the "big bear" and when they need to be small for awhile, it's to the distaste of their partners
Or when I get angry and aggressive it's always "cute" but when I get masc for too long it's always gets my partners uncomfortable or even in the past, they've try to lowkey or subtly like get me to stop
Especially bad when it's the type of people you'd otherwise see being all "Fuck the binary!" but then those roles still get pushed by them in those subtle ways.
There's always gotta be a cap on one side or the other until you find the right person
There are double standards with everything.
>twink gets masc and angry and an it's cute
But if the masc partner gets sad and maybe a little fem you can't call it cute because it'll be insensitive.
Some people don't realize that anger is also a sign of vulnerability. Calling it cute is a little insulting and it's undermining the feelings of the twink.
Obviously the anger isn't going to last..people just need to stop hearing and start listeningm
If it's someone you actually care about you'd tend to their feelings bb
After you've properly consoled them THEN you can make a quip about how he's cute when he's angry. The light hearted joke is a good segue into the rest of the day.
I'm 25 and just came out last year and it's a lot more bearable. If they can't out they'd know that too, certainly not needing to lash out to entire groups because you're as gay as springtime
Contrary to popular belief it isn't size or cut/uncut, it's a penis that looks like it has been abandoned. Dry head, unwashed, yanked on too much, etc.
Praying to god right now to help those penises rejuvenate themselves.
Damn, dread, you're pretty woke, emotionally.
Tbh, my partner is pretty masc (though self indulgently fabulous at times) and he has plenty of moments were he just needs to be held and nurtured and made feel protected and safe and, like, not to get gushy but I'm proud to be the one he lets close enough to do it.
I can imagine in the past when he'd be with girls (i'm the first guy he's been with for this long, much less dated at all) and they wouldn't appreciate the trust he'd have to give to let them see that side of him and it makes me angry.
And, you know, vice versa when I get brash and aggressive
Man why am i typing so much about this, I must have a ton of feels pent up
>I can imagine in the past when he'd be with girls (i'm the first guy he's been with for this long, much less dated at all) and they wouldn't appreciate the trust he'd have to give to let them see that side of him and it makes me angry.
That's odd, why are your feelings dwelling on the past?
My mom just told me she things I'm gay because I sit on my laptop all day and don't go to church.
Does anyone else have any experience with religious family?
Power != size, although it is the most common way to express it. Some penises are quite large in size, but lack any power. I'm not a big fan, they're great to look at (but hurt like a motherfucking..), but there's nothing better than dealing with a dick (that may be smaller) beyond rock hard to the point where they're begging/angsty for action.
Thanks, I used to do a lot of thinking in my dark days. I'm not tooting my own horn but a lot of my friends come to me for advice.
Anyway its gym time
It's not so much dwelling in the past as much as it is attempting to understand the hardships of a spouses past. Our experiences shape who we are anon.
i have a pretty good relationship with the church and still go there regularly, but only because i'm still closeted and the connections are worth it.
once i leave town i'm probably done with it, though gnosticism interests me
>begging angsty for action
We don't beg for shit.
>It's not so much dwelling in the past as much as it is attempting to understand the hardships of a spouses past.
In attempts to try and understand their hardships, you are actually attempting to place yourself into their past - and later dwelling on it because you're now experiencing what I like to call second hand hardships. I don't believe this is the only form of understanding your partner.
>Our experiences shape who we are anon.
just like double major in a science degree or something and graphic design instead of anim. where are you going to college for animation? last i heard in the west you're basically fucked if you didn't get into CalArts.
i wish i had gone to film school actually, but I didn't have the money.
then don't. you're in year 1 of CC, that is a lot of time left to find what you want to do, and it's not like you're tied down to doing animation as a profession with loans if you'd gone to a private college. i know about meme degrees, one of my 2 majors is journalism. you're still playing with a lot of chips on the table so to speak.
your interests sound like looking into the medical field is worth a shot.
>place yourself in their position
I understand the logic but this just isn't possible to do. Yes you can put yourself in their past predicaments, but you'll still be you. You'd be in their position with your mindset, not theirs. Logically it could be something easy for you to disengage but it's not necessarily the same for them.
>tfw when no twink in my area likes chubby guys
>i know about meme degrees, one of my 2 majors is journalism
>your interests sound like looking into the medical field is worth a shot.
Plus I could make a lot of money have live in any state I want!
> Logically it could be something easy for you to disengage but it's not necessarily the same for them.
Right, but don't you think that's what they need? Someone who can disengage and help them - not someone to share their past. We all have different ways of dealing with these things though so I don't think there's a blanket right.
This gif is very satisfying to me
as a former pharmacy major: pick your program wisely. i changed majors after like four years because it became abundantly clear that the pharmacy program at my university was more interested in acting like real doctors and putting on airs than a meaningful education
>Yep it's an amazing stable job. Which sounds great for you considering your likes, you may have to get your psychology and universe fixes elsewhere though!
Hmm... That sounds like a good gig!
>the pharmacy program at my university was more interested in acting like real doctors and putting on airs than a meaningful education
What are you talking about?
I'm all for making sense of the past but it's also easy to frustrate the partner.
It's a sensitive topic but as you said, there is no blanket. I was merely playing devils advocate since that's the info I was given by circe
the way the program was run was just so full of arbitrary rules and regulations to make everyone "look and act professional" but when it came down to it none of the professors gave a single shit about their students, and in a literal professional program you got extra credit for going to a faculty basketball game that the pharmacy frat threw.
it was a fucking joke
also jsyk about pharmacy the market is starting to get a little oversaturated with pharmacists because colleges around the country either added or expanded pharmacy programs too much so in the very near future its gonna be overpopulated
>meet up with a grindr
>fat ass, thick in general
>falls for me
Now he's calling me daddy and shit. The fuck do I do? He's cute but kind of... immature. Was trying to suck my dick in the stairwell of a parking lot.
Is this worth for the booty?
Yes, my family is from the bible belt south and my dad is an alcoholic. When I told them I was gay (I told them separately), they both started crying and said "w-well, that's your choice...", and my dad relapsed and got drunk as fuck.
My parents fucking suck, but I'm over them at this point. They used to be a huge emotional drain on my life but I've moved on and I don't have to deal with them anymore.
Who's your TV show crush /gaygen/?
This is mine from Twin Peaks. So qt
>Not to invalidate your feelings, but now that that's over, can I just say how cute you are when you're angry? *big smile*
Then that's when everything gets all huggy and gushy and cute.
everything about this man
In house of cards meechum was also pretty damn cute, but he's kind of like that officer dude in orange is the new black where outside of the show the cuteness doesn't translate IMO
>tfw everyone expects you to be happy and perfect and that you'll go to school for science or business or some soulless profession
>tfw I just want to be an artist or designer and have a bf to love me
>tfw drawing and painting and not showing anyone, only doing sculpture in school
>tfw recruitment letters from Ivy leagues for their bio and/or law programs
>tfw none from art schools
>tfw closeted and "too masculine" to be a twink, too short thin and submissive to be anything else
>tfw no bf
i basically swapped down to the bachelor's program so it wasn't a complete waste, thinking about either seeing where this takes me (if i get a job at my internship) or applying to a physician's assistant program somewhere. definitely not the program here.
hemlock grove is trash and i have no idea how it's lasted 4 seasons considering how short the book is but i keep watching
People are so useless after you cum inside of them.
hemlock grove already ended at 3 seasons.
I regret sitting though all three of them, even as a "I'm drunk and too bored to do something else" binge watch situation. I really liked the book too. The show would get so close to being kind of campy but good and then there would be a deliberate effort to do some weird retarded evangelion plot twist just because. Eli Roth is a hack.
I just want nothing to do with them after you cum inside them. Theres nothing left thats useful about them. I don't want to cuddle I want to cum tbqh.
Obviously hurt by a biscum.
>b-but muh cuddles
Us biscum are literally here to ravage bp than leave. We do not give a shit about your stupid cuddle feelings you subby beta loser.
Perhaps you still have a smal bit that's ashamed of it. Coming out is a big deal towards acceptance but it's not the end. It wasn't in my case. I dealt with insecurity and sometimes still do. It gets easier, I think, when you slowly talk about gay related things (ex:guys you like) around people that are different, or at least, that you perceive as unlike you. It helps if you are afraid of being judged and makes you realize that a lot of people don't care. Obviously, only bring up being gay or... Liking guys if the conversation kinda gets to it (straight guy talks about a hot girl) . Don't be an attention whore.
>fetishizing the biscum asshole thats not even hiding it
And people wonder why I am an asshole. I want to fug your bp cum on your face than leave you little fucking whore.
How is sex not meaningful? You just came inside something. It means that you just came inside something. Only losers romanticize other people like "ahhh this is the one...I care about this person..."
That is pleb thinking tbvh and the only thing that matters is getting laid.
>And people wonder why I am an asshole. I want to fug your bp cum on your face than leave you little fucking whore.
No, I want you to be gentle with me and treat me like a girl for one night
I really, really, really like this image
>been checking cute guy on grindr for a few days, trying to work up the courage to message him, and already thinking about our future relationship will be great and full of love and joy
>he messages me today saying 'wanna eat me out?'
Seems like a great story to tell your grandkids about how you met.
Real talk though anon, art school is within your reach. It's not hard to put together a portfolio and apply. There's no reason you can't go. Though I would recommend thinking about careers before you do so. Studying art is all well and good but you have to be able to make at least a modest living off of it.
I know. Thats why I'm probably going to go into a soulless field but make a shit load. I just don't want to work in an office and be miserable forever. Unless I went into science and got a university gig but thats very unlikely.
You seem submissive, scared, ditzy but in a cute way, dependent like you really need someone dominant and strong like me to take care of them and talk for them tbqh...
man, i almost wish people would be that forward with me on hookup apps like grindr and shit. the best i ever get is gross old men like "hey cutie :) hey handsome :) hey :) cute :)) why dont :_)) we talk:) cutie:)"
>not eating a qt's ass
what are you, a straight?
What I'm saying is that it IS possible to make a living in a creative field, but it's something you have to plan for and think about, you can't just study anything and expect to be able to get jobs in that field. Like I have a friend who studied illustration who now is working at a concert venue as a ticket-taker. I studied web and interface design and am making six figures in my field. That's what I meant.
Yeah, I get it. I have just a stupid dream of being a modern, chic designer and being all pretentious at galas and fancy events than going home to my bf in our NYC apartment. Its unrealistic, which is unusual for me.
The thing is, if I continue with academia I can get the apartment, but I won't be happily working
>all this talk of dominant and submissive, top or bottom
>tfw I just want an equal relationship with another dude
The chances of becoming a millionaire designer are very very slim. But the chances of becoming a successful designer with a nice apartment and an enjoyable social life are pretty damn good. I live in NYC and am basically living the life you described minus the fancy events and the bf, but both of those exceptions are by choice. You don't need to work in law or politics or whatever in order to make good money, anon...