I'm in a somewhat LDR (My boyfriend and I see eachother 1-2 times a month), and last night I stayed up until 4am watching movies with a friend and ended up putting my head on his shoulder and kinda leading him on.
It's my first semester in college, and I did this because I was lonely and miss having someone to have a personal connection with (family members hugging you etc), nothing more- I wasn't trying to get laid or anything.
regardless though, I've been feeling incredibly guilty and I'm not really sure what to do.
You already know this, but you should just end your relationship.
Long distance relationships are a drag. Especially so in college. As somebody who was in a relatively similar position, it really was a relief to end it as amicably as possible and then not have to constantly worry. The odds of them being your partner for life are pretty slim anyways.
I would be surprised if your boyfriend didn't at least feel some amount of relief from the break up as well.
For the records, I don't think you should break up because what you did makes you feel guilty. In the grand scheme of things, when you stop living in an idyllic world, much worse things happen regularly and the relationship continues.
Just end it for sake of not being guilt ridden while liberating yourself during what can be an amazing time of your life.
He's going to be at my university nex semester, so it's not going to stay a LDR for much longer. And regardless, I'm not breaking up with him. It's just hard right now, no friends/new everything/no family/etc. (as I try to justify what I did QQ)
I just want to make it up. idk.