I can't stop thinking I understand all in the universe. I do music, math, programming and I just can't stop processing by thoughts all what happens to me. Fuck. Please I need to stop thinking. Stop filtering by thoughts every fucking shit. I need peace. I am trapped in a cyclical pattern. Stop idealizing.
Start feeling, being emotionally stable and not dependable. How can I be happy?
You have a mental illness, tell your doctor these feelings.
^ I would start with talking to a doctor as well, to see if there is anything that they can do for you. You sound like you've got at least some form of anxiety, and there's a lot of different things that can help with that. "Consider your options" and all that.
You're also a little bit unclear, so forgive me if I'm wrong, although it does seem you've typed a little frantically here.
I've had problems with similar-sounding things in the past, and one thing that helped me to overcome them is learning meditation/self-awareness.
Listening to old Alan Watts lectures helps me when I need a little grounding as well, but that might just be an idiosyncrasy on my part.
"Let go or be dragged" is how it goes a lot of the time. Things break and things grow.
Inner peace is not guaranteed to be permanent, and will only come with practice and time.
you do not understand all, your brain just can not. For the simple fact nothing is truly what it appears to be.
all that aside. meditate, clear your mind and focus on your breath while taking deep breaths and you will learn to clear your mind. this wont come instantly but it will come if your persistent. don't try and block thoughts out, just let them pass without judgement.
>>19115161
this
Quick solution: take acid or any other type of hallucinogenic
Slow solution: learn to meditate WELL
I was once like you during uni I was in love with math and CS and logic ruled my world. I began meditating, experimenting with all types of hallucinogens and reading a lot philosophy and now I can really relate to Socrates "I know that I know nothing".
Honestly learn to master yourself before anything else
>>19115108
kill yourself you stupid faggot, thats the only cure
>>19115190
how original
>>19115108
Dude me and my grandpa felt like this you just needs Some medication.
Smoke mariguana. It'll slow your brain.
>>19115341
First drink like two beers. Then after you smoke it, drink two more.